Ahhh bless you all....
Finally the film is done. Bad one too! Disaster Movie.
None of the POAS action yielded too impressive of results. Still uber faint on the IC even if much stronger than earlier today on the CB.
Here are the CBs for you true POAS addicts. - They are in no real order but the one before last is the one of tonight and the very last one is the one I had my sister-in-law pee on for reference-
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All in all it's still very scary and very worrying.... shouldn't the lines have become uber strong by now? Isn't this a sure sign that it's a chemical? How lines are staying this faint?
I've worked myself into a frenzy.
Not hard either, I picked a fight with my mother earlier and she said something really horrid and while normally I'd be hurt but brush it off, tonight it set me off and I cried for 15 minutes straight. Sobbed my eyes out and then in the spam of a second was right as rain and laughing again!
Now, for everyone thinking I am being irresponsible.... I am going to up the diet to a reasonable, perfectly safe during pregnancy level as soon as this seems to stick and is confirmed but I have read on whether it was dangerous or not and there is NO trace of a sign that a VLCD is dangerous for the baby, not in the first trimester anyhow. EVEN SO I will not risk anything and up my intake as soon as I get a chance to talk to the nutritionist and my GP and find out how, if my fighter sticks past tomorrow. Am I reluctant to throw all the work from the diet away? Yes, but not so because I'll be fugly, I can't care less about that, but because there are so many risks associated with high weight and pregnancy, risks for the baby. Believe me, when you're fat and infertile you think of whether you'd make the swap and accept always being 400lbs and a mother or model thin and childless and if there was a choice it would always be the former!
Boobs still killing me, still wet, still in AF pain but so far no sign of her.... let's hope she doesn't surprise me unpleasantly over night.
Gah the mister is getting excited now, he just came and kissed me and reminded me this could be our engagement present -one year since he proposed on VD-...
I'll update as soon as I wake up but I can't thank you enough for today ladies!