Mal, found the tightening you're feeling be Braxton Hicks?
How's your blood pressure holding up?
SweetAlida, those are amazing sono pics. I can't believe you are 12 weeks already.
Amanda, how are you feeling? Are your hips doing better?
Candice, that was an awesome birth story. It makes me feel all relaxed just reading your story. Congrats!
Mummylove, are you feeling better?
Claire, adorable sono pic. It's so amazing to be able to see what's going on in secret. Cute bump too.
Katie, hi dear.
Megg, I see you are starting a new treatment cycle with more meds. Did they decrease your meds last time? I'm excited to follow you again, you've been through so much and your bfp will be all the sweeter.
Thank you all for your encouraging words. It means so much. Babyhopes you made me smile with your whispering. I'm still in disbelief, and I'm ashamed that my first reaction anger. That's just crazy. It's hard to feel happy when I'm so scared. I posted lots more pics on my chart and my tests may be a tiny bit darker than last time, maybe. I'm already past the point that they were getting lighter last time too. I'm also past the point that the spotting happened last time, barely I know. It's even silly to try to comfort myself with that. I can't believe that I convinced myself that I wasn't pg now looking back. I woke feeling I'll several times last week, on Friday it was strong enough that I put zofran in my pocket before we left but I didn't take it. I took it yesterday morning for the first time, before I got that super light line. Last week, my bra was stuck to me like glue. I asked my hubby if the cows get colostrum again when they dry up, it's never ever dried up completely. I thought either it was just drying up or it was because of last time. My brought me a Subway sandwich and I couldn't eat it. Cm was increased and weird all of a sudden. Now I feel mad at myself for being so stupid, although it doesn't matter because I haven't done anything harmful. Still no caffeine for me since before o. I just can't comprehend how I blew it all off.
I do feel better after comparing all of my tests, a little anyway. I think I would have known a couple of days sooner had I used a different test. It's all on my chart.
I called and got my progesterone result from last time, it was 23.5 at 14dpo and that was considered within range. I don't know anything about that. The betas cost over $200 at the hosp where my obgyn orders them. My pcp can do them for $80, why such a huge price difference. Anyway, I'm on the books for a beta on Friday morning. I asked to wait until Friday. I don't want to spend a bunch of money on the betas when they don't cause me to do anything different anyway. We have to pay it all until the deductible is met and then it's still 50/50. I want to be able to spend our money on a baby we get to keep too. I already have an $800 bill from last time. I can't help but think that this bill could get huge before we even get a keeper baby. I'm sorry if that sounds yucky, but I don't want to stop ttc even if we don't get to keep this one either.
I am still kinda duh that I hadn't even conceived since the last baby and he's going to be 3 this summer. Now two months in a row, that's not a complaint either. I guess for now, I will take it as it comes and let the lines pacify me. I do feel little cramps but they aren't enough to do anything, my back hurts and that concerns me. But I may be from carrying around a sick little one for 2 days. I walked him all aver the place, and at night I sat up in my bed and rocked him. That had to be better than crunches.
Thanks for being here.
ur going to have a healthy baby 
and ovulation was confirmed by my scan 
I hope your fears turn into joy soon. It's not fun not enjoying your pregnancy(take it from me, it's hard to enjoy a pregnancy when your dh is angry about so much of it from his fears.). I pray he turns around soon. He was doing great for awhile and now he is back to being scared and angry again. I think he is just tired of being on the road and away from home, but he could definitely pick another way of showing it! LOL! 
