some of you may know i am terrified of hospitals/touch/scans etc etc, so i haven't had any kind of pregnancy related care since i was booked in at 8 weeks. i thought the least scary thing to start with, would be to have a private scan, just to see the baby and find out the gender, since it would be less medical and they would definitely be nice to me and not try and make me do anything i didn't want to, and i could back out at the last minute without anyone getting stressy with me. so i did it and i didn't freak out. we are having a baby boy. i might even agree to meet my midwife if i get my courage up in the next week weeks lol.