Crop the pic PL or put it on photobucket then attach.
Dobs, two bottles of what? Mimosa is champagne with juice in it, right? (waste of champagne, diluting it like that
) I think I had four bottles to myself over the weekend and another two on Christmas Day, and thats us cutting down
Although on your own definitely advisable to stay sober. I dont know about you, but I find it easier to have none at all than to stick to one or two glasses - having none, that voice is easier to ignore. After two glasses, its easy to forget why youre not supposed to be having any more.
Lady, the jealousy is real. I fell out with a friend completely and we ended up quite viciously fighting - long story short, she found out she was pregnant at my party and proceeded to carry on drinking, then overheard me crying on the stairs to my bff about it about how she didnt deserve it and they werent even trying and theyre already both s**t parents to the two kids they had (previous relationships) Ovulation strips can be bought really cheaply on Amazon or eBay - mine were like £3 for 50 or something ridiculous like that. And yes, if you od early your period should come early - your LP is the part of your cycle most likely to stay the same whereas time to ovulation can vary.
Workouts - look up HIIT on youtube. Loads of videos of varying intensity of similar stuff to T25
and free.
Gigs, dont blame you for the resentment. Therapy could be a good idea. Also late to the game but I vote art studio or frivolous for the money. Ive blown so much cash this past month on random stuff and Christmas its pretty terrifying. Ive taken up knitting and crochet as a distraction and now own quite an extensive range of supplies and need to start thinking about selling the stuff Im producing, to get rid of it and get money back to buy more wool if nothing else (once I actually finish a full project lol that isnt just a scarf)
DH has been bringing up the idea that we maybe shouldnt have any more kids. He says hes getting older and picking up injuries trying to keep up with the ones we have and if we have more, its just going to get harder. Logically, I agree - Isaacs sleep has gone to s**t, hes worse than he was at newborn right now, started refusing his dummy so Im the dummy instead and he wants fed every two hours through the night. Good to help milk supply but dreadful to try and cope with for weeks on end. The thought of another baby right now is the last thing I want and it cant happen anyway because of my training - I waited so long for this opportunity that Im not risking it for anything. But I dont like his insistence in mentioning it since the idea was already on hold anyway and no decisions need to be made of any kind for a year or more. The thought of never being pregnant again and Isaac being the last, Elisabeth never having a sister etc, is devastating
Every time I pick him up, even in the night, my head is screaming go to sleep, kid, I hate this, but my heart says just look at him, hes so squishy and perfect, how could you even think of not having more no matter what!
I have a known issue with not good enough - I didnt actually relate the desire/need for a large family to it til recently but it was brought up in therapy that perhaps the never complete, never enough feeling that applies in business and just about everything else I do could also be contributing to the feeling that our family isnt complete either.. All my friends seem so certain that their one or two kids is them and they dont want any more, and Ive never had that even when its super hard to cope... (rambling, sorry, sleep deprived)
Ours all stayed up for Hogmanay (NYE) as well, I couldnt believe it! We were at a party and I was expecting to leave early but all the 10+ kids that were there made it, and even baby woke up just in time to bring in the bells and sing Auld Lang Syne (hes a bit young for any whisky though lol so we abstained from that tradition)
or eat them while typing and only half the calories count for you
think i'll stick to walking and youtube videos. I also might look into joining the Y for the pool and indoor track, both of which i used a lot when i lost baby weight the first time.
I know that if I do manage to get pg that I will only be able to have that one since I am already 46 years old. I would love to get pg with twins! But I don't think it will happen though. 
He knows my cycle very well and he knows when I am fertile because my libido amps up 
