General chatter while we wait (and commentary on the "pull out method")

[gigglebox]

Funny how a lot of us are in the same boat, i.e. Getting pregnant was a breeze before and now...not so much.

It's 3:08am. My body won't let me get back to sleep. I was having this horribly dream that my brother was strangling me, telling me i was a weakling because i couldn't take it. Now, he and i are best of friends now, but when we were kids he beat me up (along with my other brother), and he would totally do something like this--not actually strangle me, but maybe punch me hard and when i cried he made fun of me for being weak.

Anyway, i couldn't breathe in the dream, and i actually woke up gasping for breath. I'm anticipating this test so much that i can't fall back asleep, no matter how i try to distract my mind. It's so frustrating...this was part of the reason i just tried to set a testing date and be done with it, because month after month i have terrible sleep during testing days. And it's so frustrating because it's like, here, have some shit sleep, oh you're not pregnant, now your period will start and you'll get shit sleep again getting up a million times to change your tampon.

Grrrrrr.

 

[gigglebox]

I'm out of my mind with nerves right now. I'm listening to hubs get his lunch together, and he's about to walk out the door, then i'll test...

I'm so nervous, running through things in my head, what if it's positive? What if it's negative? Why is my body being so weird? Maybe i've just been fighting off illness this whole time...or i'm just crazy. What if it's pos....it's probably not going to be. I'm working myself up over nothing. Period will probably be here on Friday, or be a tease like last month and hold off a day...

THAT'S IT, sound of husband leaving the house...now to wait for his car to leave the driveway...

Gravel's crunching under his wheels...

I'm going in.

 

[gigglebox]

I'm absolutely crushed.

A negative on a FR6DS on 10dpo is NOT good.

I was so sure.

Now I just feel like I can't trust my body, I can't rely on the only symptom i've randomly gotten when pregnant. Now i'm reeaaally questioning if that c/p was real or just a faulty new FRER. I had the not wanting to eat symptom, so I assumed I was pregnant because i've only had that with Des...but I can't even rely on that, apparently.

I just don't even know what to do with myself right now.

 

[DobbyForever]

Hugs. I know it's hard because I feel the same way. A frer at 10dpo for us is usually accurate, but you really never know. There are so many factors. That's why you're not out until the witch shows. Big hugs

 

[gigglebox]

Thanks Dobs
Sorry for the dramatic play by play...
And for inquisitive minds, here's the test.

 

[wookie130]

Awww, Giggle, I'm sorry.

 

[campn]

Gigs- I'm so sorry!! Those BFNs are soul crushing, I never listened to the voice of reason and waited to test on like 12 DPO, always danced this little dance of shame with the devil, every month, every night, shitty sleep, can't wait to test, testing, feeling crushed then it's the same thing the next day.

It's gonna happen, I convinced myself I've PCOS, estrogen dominant, fibroids, just everything that could be wrong I convinced myself will go wrong, I even convinced myself I'd need IVF, and that I'll never have another. The brain is such a jerk when you're down, it starts whispering awful things in your ears.

You'll get pregnant again, you've been before and you will again, you're healthy and you ovulate regularly! I told the OB yesterday it took us 6 months to conceive and she said oh that's absolutely normal!

Sending you big hugs now! also like Dobby said, you're not out til you're out. Countdowntobaby website says at 10 DPO you're most likely to get a false negative.

 

[TexasRider]

Giggle- so sorry I know it sucks seeing bfn is never fun but there is still time. 10dpo is pretty early so I'm hoping you get a positive soon.

Afm my temp is up more today. If I play with FF then it gives me crosshairs on Monday with another high temp. I hope it stays high. Last month it would rise for a few days and then go back down. So we will see. I have a decent chance of conceiving but it would have been better if I had Bd sat sun and mon instead of just sat and mon. But I was afraid I would burn us out on BD if we started every day too early lol

 

[gigglebox]

Ugh, i know ladies...it's just i was so sure.

This wait is brutal.

And because I'm desperate and evidently determined to waste tests...here's a wondfo with smu.

 

[Breeaa]

I'm absolutely crushed.

A negative on a FR6DS on 10dpo is NOT good.

I was so sure.

Now I just feel like I can't trust my body, I can't rely on the only symptom i've randomly gotten when pregnant. Now i'm reeaaally questioning if that c/p was real or just a faulty new FRER. I had the not wanting to eat symptom, so I assumed I was pregnant because i've only had that with Des...but I can't even rely on that, apparently.

I just don't even know what to do with myself right now.

I'm sorry gigs. I was hoping to see your bfp this morning.

 

[claireybell]

hi girls

just sneaking in on the works PC for a quick mooch, Gigs so sorry Frer was negative hun but as Dobby said your not out until AF shows the grim face, i know it frustrating but i have every hope its gonna happen soon

 

[gigglebox]

Can i ask honestly though, when did everyone here get their first positive?

 

[claireybell]

With Riley is was 9 but that was barely there, this one was 10dpo but barely there, more clearer on 11dpo. My sister who has 4 now always implanted later from 11/12dpo everytime & she had cramps etc days earlier..

 

[campn]

Gigs, with my son I didn't even get a positive until 13 DPO hun, so it's very possible you implanted late! With him I lost hope too and was getting ready to try the next month.

This time I must have planted early, but 9 DPO is when most women implant, so if you implanted last night, your urine today wouldn't have enough hCG to be picked up, especially if you're at 2!

10 DPO is too early to give up!

 

[TexasRider]

With my daughter I didn't test till AF didn't show up that day. I tested at night with almost clear pee and it was a very dark positive... My husband was like "maybe you should wait and take another test in the morning just to be sure" 😳

 

[gigglebox]

Thanks it's been one of those "when it rains it pours" days. My mom came down to watch Des so i could go to the dentist, but i got there and they said theydidn't take my insurance (even though they said they did when i made the appointment). And my mom told me my favorite teacher in high school died.

 

[campn]

Gigs- last cycle I was so convinced I was pregnant, I was crushed when I started spotting at 10 DPO but the next cycle I got pregnant, so the end is near but we don't see it when things don't work out. Once I got the BFP all those hard months and heartbreak all went away and you then think oh that wasn't bad, totally worth it!

Only a matter of weeks for you!!

Sorry about your appointment and your teacher, it def pours when it rains doesn't it!?

 

[claireybell]

Sorry to hear your old school teached passed away Gigs its never easy hearing that news even when its been years.

Have i read this right, you went to the Dentist & they said they didnt take your Toe?? Im confused lol

 

[campn]

Dobby, I finally got the clearblue advanced test and it said "pregnant 2-3"
I was really expecting 1-2 since I'm only 15 DPO, I hope it's not twins!


I texted the test pic to my husband and he was like "2-3 what!? Kids!?? Woman get your eggs to go one at a time!!"

I can't stop laughing, he's probably about to cry now thinking I'm having triplets.

 

[pandacub]

Hello ladies, I have been lurking and stalking your thread for, what seems like, ages... I have unexpectedly found myself in the TWW. Being honest, I'm hoping I'm not. My OH lives 100 miles away, we've only been together 8 months and we haven't even met each other's kids yet! (I have a 5 year old, I'm just a lazy ticker-er!)

We had sex on the 2nd Jan & had a bit of an uh-oh. When I went back home, I calculated whether I was fertile at that time and turns out it was smack bang in my fertile window! I Think I ovulated somewhere around the Saturday as well, as I had one side cramping and lots of ewcm in the morning? However, I'm completely new to all of this so I don't actually know for sure, I've only deduced this from reading about ovulation signs this week.

I tested this morning, it was a BFN, but I know I'm not out of the woods just yet.. Period is due near the weekend I think so we shall see!
Just thought I'd pop my head in and say hi & I love your conversations on this thread!