Got my bloodwork back...

[WeJustWantOne]

So sorry! Men can be so dense sometimes. What are your classes for if you don't mind me asking?

Yes they can be! I hate it, I just wanna scream and kill him sometimes. I'm going to be a teacher. Figured it would be the best career to get into since when we started trying we figured the baby would be school aged by the time I graduated.

I feel your frustration hun. My fiance is the same way. One month he is on board the next it's like amnesia kicked in. So now I stop talking to him about it and when he say something about us having a daughter I say sure and smile, but I don't continue the conversation about it. Currently I am taking a break since I am having a lap done soon. But try not to let it bother you so much stress will only make you feel worse. Honestly I would have reacted the same way you did. No it was not right for him to mess this up when we only have 5-7 days out of the month to get pregnant. I had to get my fiance to define "ovulation" because he thought it happened all the time even during a period lol. So I totally understand and you can always vent as much as you like because we all are going through that. and baby dust.

You see that's what pisses me off more is that DH knows its like a 5 day window and still pulled this shit anyway. Of course the next day he felt like shit and apologized over and over but that doesn't make up for that lost night. Good luck handling your break as much as I'd like to take a break I don't think I could ever stop trying.

 

[WeJustWantOne]

I think my husband has the amnesia down to a science. Last month it was I don't know if I am ready, this month he's looking at baby stuff in stores and driving me nuts. Being a teacher sounds like fun, I am considering going back to school for child care, but we will see.

Seriously. The night he came home drunk he actually said half the time I don't even know why I want a baby with you because your crazy. Then this week it's oh when our kid is born this and wouldn't that look cute in our nursery? It's just like make up your damn mind and cut it out because I can't deal anymore. Ya I think anything teaching or childcare related are best because then you can hopefully either watch your child or at least have the same hours as your kid when they go to school.

 

[WeJustWantOne]

I think my husband has the amnesia down to a science. Last month it was I don't know if I am ready, this month he's looking at baby stuff in stores and driving me nuts. Being a teacher sounds like fun, I am considering going back to school for child care, but we will see.

I asked him last night "Do you think it would be a good idea to get on birth control after my lap since we won't be trying for awhile". His answer was "Yes", so I said "that's what I thought", then he say "That is up to u". So now I am going to take the birth control to keep the endo (if that's what I have) from growing back. Because we don't live together and I don't think I even want to try to do anything with him anymore

As Hun I'm so sorry to hear that. Ltttc really brings out the worst in people. Maybe a break would be best. I know how frustrating it all is. It's just like why the hell can't we be normal and just BD and BAM! Get pregnant without even thinking about it. It takes a very strong relationship to be able to make it through this struggle we've all unfortunately been dealt.

 

[WeJustWantOne]

So an update. DH and I didn't not make up in time and now I think I missed my O date. ='( but today when I went to the bathroom CM was a brownish tinge (tmi I know I'm sorry) but know I find myself hopelessly wishing that maybe I O'd sooner and this is implantation bleeding? I don't know but what I do know is its been 31 days since I've seen AF which is aggravating as all hell. Also POAS today just out of curiosity and surprise surprise BFN! Hate my life!!!

 

[Cowgirl07]

Oh I'm sorry. I hope you caught it early!

 

[WeJustWantOne]

Oh I'm sorry. I hope you caught it early!

Thanks me too! I'm going to force myself to wait an entire week and if AG doesn't show her ugly face by then then I will allow myself to test again. Ugh I just wish it would happen. I know I'm being unrealistic expecting the pills to work the first month of taking them but still come on already just give me a break! Plus my gyno won't even see me until my next 21 day bloodwork as he says there's really nothing else for him to do until that point to test my hormones and crap again. Meanwhile I just want to get this show on the road!

 

[VP1228]

You guys are making me cry in a good way. Everyone is saying exactly what I feel. And yeah I have to take a break because instead of getting a place to live and start to really try to have a baby my fiance bought a explorer ugh! So I told him I quit and that he can take to truck and shove it. I really see now that he expects me to compromise what I want when i only 5 days out of a month to get pregnant. He is really going to regret messing this up because once I am on birth control again there will be no getting off because he wants to try. I am patient (normally not with anyone) with him and let him do the things he wants but when it completely interferes with what he say he going to do it just makes me think he can't keep his word. So now I am going to keep mine I will take the bc until we move into our own place. I know it is so irresponsible to try to have a baby and we don't live together but the baby would be taken care of and I would have a home and funds to take care of my baby (yes my baby since I am trying my hardest to have one).

 

[WeJustWantOne]

You guys are making me cry in a good way. Everyone is saying exactly what I feel. And yeah I have to take a break because instead of getting a place to live and start to really try to have a baby my fiance bought a explorer ugh! So I told him I quit and that he can take to truck and shove it. I really see now that he expects me to compromise what I want when i only 5 days out of a month to get pregnant. He is really going to regret messing this up because once I am on birth control again there will be no getting off because he wants to try. I am patient (normally not with anyone) with him and let him do the things he wants but when it completely interferes with what he say he going to do it just makes me think he can't keep his word. So now I am going to keep mine I will take the bc until we move into our own place. I know it is so irresponsible to try to have a baby and we don't live together but the baby would be taken care of and I would have a home and funds to take care of my baby (yes my baby since I am trying my hardest to have one).

Aww glad we can all help hunny. Sometimes all you need is a good cry! I know I do it like twice a week lol. How irresponsible if him! A cradling truck meanwhile your trying to create a life! I would've told him the same thing! And good for you it doesn't matter where or who you live with as long as YOUR baby would be loved and taken care of that's all that matters! I wish you the best of luck. Come on BFP please god let this be all our months!!!

 

[WeJustWantOne]

Well AF showed up today but I also forgot to take my pills for the last two days so now idk if that's what bought her on or what? But at least now I only have 21 days to go til I get to go back for more bloodwork and hopefully get some answers. I know it's silly hoping the pills would've worked the first month but I was really hoping it would happen. =/

 

[KelliGal]

Are you doing clomid this cycle??? Isn't AF showing a good thing???

 

[WeJustWantOne]

Are you doing clomid this cycle??? Isn't AF showing a good thing???

I'm gunna try to get my gyno to finally give it to me when I meet with him on the 12th fort 21 day bloods. So hopefully he'll decide to let me try it. If not though I must confess I've been looking into other ways to get it =\ I know it's wrong and could be dangerous but I'm about to hit five years ttc and am getting sick and tired of getting nowhere. Yes it's a good thing she came bc then I can go get my bloodwork done and what not. But at the same point I was hoping that the pills had just worked right off the bar and that we were gonna get our BFP this month.

 

[KelliGal]

Oh I see.. I'm sorry this has been such a long hard road for you it would have been nice to see that bfp I'm sure... I hope the docs can figure out how to help you!!!

 

[WeJustWantOne]

Oh I see.. I'm sorry this has been such a long hard road for you it would have been nice to see that bfp I'm sure... I hope the docs can figure out how to help you!!!

Thanks. I absolutely hate it! It's like why can't we all just be able to do what other people can without any effort?! Idk like I said if my doctor decides not to do what I want him to do I may takes matters into my own hands. I know I was just being rediculius expecting to see a BFP this month but I just had hope. It's a sickness really. I mean how come we continuously hold out hope for something that probably isn't going to happen?! Sorry for ranting today just wasn't a good day and stupid AF didn't make it any better

 

[KelliGal]

Awww girl I am sorry have you looked into Soy Iso? I took it one cycle and I swear to you I ovulated... DH and I missed it though (turned up right when he was out of town!)

Also, the progesterone cream that I have been using, I have noticed a ton more CM (sorry tmi) So I am hoping that is helping my levels!!!!

I hear ya on the wanting to see it... I have had so many months where I know I am not, but its like... come on there might be that small chance... I just have to roll with the punches otherwise I will punch something.. lol.

How are you doing today?

 

[WeJustWantOne]

Awww girl I am sorry have you looked into Soy Iso? I took it one cycle and I swear to you I ovulated... DH and I missed it though (turned up right when he was out of town!)

Also, the progesterone cream that I have been using, I have noticed a ton more CM (sorry tmi) So I am hoping that is helping my levels!!!!

I hear ya on the wanting to see it... I have had so many months where I know I am not, but its like... come on there might be that small chance... I just have to roll with the punches otherwise I will punch something.. lol.

How are you doing today?

Thanks. I actually just started to really look into it after reading a thread about it on this site. Glad it worked for you. Are you taking it this cycle? I'm going to look into taking it since I just started this cycle. Do you know anything about them? No problem about the tmi it's what we're all here for right lol. Seriously like what will it take to just see two lines, or a positive sign, or have it glad and say pregnant?! Like come one haven't we all been trying long and hard enough?! It shouldn't be this difficult!

Well I was doing okay had a job interview and got the job but also got into a car accident. Actually at the hospital now doing X-rays. And of course they ask the dreaded question...any chance of pregnancy? I almost bury down crying DH had to tell them to run the test just in case bc were trying but come on really I just wrecked our brand new car and your gunna ask me that? I know they didn't know but still. I just want to crawl up in a ball and cry!

 

[Cowgirl07]

Oh no I hope your ok!!

 

[WeJustWantOne]

Oh no I hope your ok!!

Thanks. Could be better. I fractured my sixth rib and displacedy shoulder but I should be fine. I'm just so mad. We just got the car two months ago and it's our first new car and of course I was the one to crash it=( now our insurance is going to go up which we really can't afford and idk how we're gunna pay the deductible to have it fixed and my husband is mad at me for crashing. Granted he's happy I'm okay but still. I'm just so upset.

 

[KelliGal]

Omg I haven't been on here in a while... Are you ok???? What happened? Btw super happy you got the job!!!

 

[WeJustWantOne]

I'm alright. Could be worse. Now just waiting to find out what the deal is with my car and resting. It sucks they can't do anything for a fractured rib so right now in just in some pain pills. I was coming around a bend and hydroplaned in the rain. I went across the other lane of traffic sideswiped their car the crashed into a guardrail and a fence. Thanks I'm glad too since I'm gunna need it to pay for everything now lol. How are you doing? Excited for your clomid appt.

 

[Cowgirl07]

I hate rain! I was driving my grandma's nice car, not new thank god but an 07. And almost hit an amish buggy when I was hydroplaning.