I just tested positive today after a week and a half of experiencing my quality of life decrease overall. I was not planning on conceiving and I have never been pregnant but every part of me had changed so dramatically that I actually "get" what you mean when you say you hate pregnancy. If I had tested this morning and saw a negative I would have been shocked because my experience made it really, really apparent.
Right after my last period I got my nose pierced - the past week and a half I literally can't stop sneezing and it is irritating my nose! Plus, I am a 92 pound small framed girl; 4 days ago my right bum cheek felt like I had either done 400 squats and a 40 minute run OR I was kicked by an aggressive donkey. Seriously, I could barely sit. And things get worse. Yesterday I decided to eat some of my favourite chocolate spread that my grandmother had just given me as a small token of appreciation and sadly it tasted horrible. Just... horrible. Like chemicals mixed with ground. And, as a student who has never-ending assignments with exams coming up in 2 weeks, um, let's just say my concentration has been compromised. I have heard pregnancy causes exhaustion but this - THIS is ridiculous. It is less exhaustion like "I need sleep" and more "I feel drunk and can barely see what I am typing right now... what did I just say?" The sleepless tossing and turning sucks too. And, like... I do NOT have the right bra for this rapid breast growth so I keep shifting around all awkwardly. I'm going to class soon and I guarantee I'm going to stare at one spot without blinking the entire time.
I understand why pregnancy is beautiful to many but I can't help but wonder what function these nightmarish symptoms serve. I'm so moody that my partner said that women must get moody during pregnancy to keep all the other men away, haha.
Just so you know, LOTS of women hate this experience. If the discomfort/pain makes every moment unbearable, it would be silly to lie and say you don't mind just because many expect women to embrace their pregnancy. Every pregnancy is different and if yours is like riding a damaged rollercoaster, then allow yourself the mental freedom to accept that it is not ideal and it could be better. In reality high stress levels = Cortisol being released into your bloodstream which probably won't be of benefit to the growing fetus inside of you, and let's be honest... discomfort and pain and lack of sleep is VERY stressful. You are allowed to hate the feeling of pregnancy despite the popular (and often forced) discourse surrounding excitement about every bodily reaction. What you should do is try to mitigate the stress and focus on positive mental thinking. Your mind can have a powerful impact on your childs personality so, although you are going through rough times, try to surround yourself with people who make you happy and keep busy with things you enjoy doing. If you are feeling without control, try meditation. It just helps you to focus on your inner thoughts so you can manage them.
Good luck.