Okay so my baby boy is due February 6th and he was a total surprise. I was told on May 10th after an exam with dye that both of my tubes were blocked. He was conceived on the 16th...my little miracle So...the shock of the pregnancy made me terrified to even watch a video of a birth. If someone had said to me, "Here, we can just knock you out when you wake up baby will be here" I'd have said SOUNDS GREAT! I was dead set on an epidural and then when my doctor offered to induce me (I live over an hour away from the hospital, and my OH is on call all the time and sometimes when he's working he doesn't have cell service) I basically felt like "this is going to be so convenient and easy! No pain, I won't have to worry about delivering by myself or having to drive myself to the hospital!" Fast forward to the third trimester: the shock has worn off, I've done a LOT of research, and I'm not feeling like this "birth plan" I have is just not right for me and where I'm at now. Of course we have all heard the induction horror stories about how awful pitocin is and how a lot of doctors abuse the drug just to get you in and out quick. AND I also know a lot of people have great experiences with induction and feel like it was better than their natural labor. But this weekend I watched "The Business of Being Born" which got me thinking. Then I googled the connection between induction and autism. BAD IDEA. Now I feel like I want a natural birth. has this happened to anyone before? And how do I go about telling my doctor that I've changed my mind about induction? I'm also worried that I may have to fight the nurses to keep the drugs away from me! My OH has assured me that if I decide no drugs, he will do all in his power to make sure that happens but I still worry. any advice and/or suggestions would be greatly appreciated! And I sincerely hope that I haven't offended anyone with any of this!