I still plan on a drug-free labour and have told my midwife that no matter how much I kick and scream and beg for the epidural, don't give it to me.
See, my oldest has special needs. Her brain isn't growing, she has seizures, speech and motor delays and much more. I was due April 27 and given that both my kids were born before their due dates (2 days before and 12 days before), I purposely booked all of her followup appointments for May, assuming I wasn't going overdue. She has two therapies this week, today and Friday, a pediatrician appointment tomorrow, and another doctor appointment on Wednesday. Most of these are out of town. My only free day this week is Thursday. Next week is even busier with therapies and specialist appointments coming out the wazoo, including a meeting with the elementary school she'll be attending in September to discuss her needs and to get her a full-time educational assistant. I also have to go back to school next Thursday and Friday to upgrade a certification. If I do not, I cannot return to placement or graduate college on time.
So given these circumstances, and given that my daughter has been waiting, on average, a year for these appointments, I can't afford to play Russian Roulette with when she's going to come vs my daughter's appointments. I can't be left without care for my son, or transportation, and I can't risk Zoe missing her appointments due to labour.
Am I completely happy with the decision? No, absolutely not. I would rather go into labour on my own, but given the circumstances, I just can't risk it.