Got a GP appointment booked for tonight to discuss transferring my care to another hospital. I've asked for a senior female GP at the practice in the hope of getting someone sensible.
My current thoughts on my consultant appointment is that I don't feel any less safe about having my baby at home, he didn't raise any new risks, or show me the risks I was aware of in a different way. What I do feel is very unsupported. I feel as if I will have a fight on my hand to stay at home, right to the point at which my baby is born. Its as if they are setting me up to fail. It seems counter productive to stay at home because I want a less stressful birth, when I'll be stressed from the first contraction about what MAU will say when I call up in labour asking for my midwife. And if they will acutally send someone out, and if they do, if that midwife will just be looking for a reason to send me in.
This is how the Consultant appointment has made me feel. How the hell is that informed choice??!!