So here's my story in a nutshell: Me and OH- 26 and 27 years old. I am a full time student+ part time job, he has a full time job. My schooling program is super intense and I only have a few opportunities to have a baby without it hurting my studies or being held back a year. And I really want babies, preferably now. Since this year is the last time I can afford to have a baby, after a little convincing OH and I started ttcing. First month trying, to my disbelief- pregnant. Did blood draw- low hcg, a week later mc confirmed when hcg started to drop. Bleeding started at 5w3d, and by this point OH promised we'll try again this month. I was very hopefully, read a bunch of stories on how getting pregnant after a chemical is very common, dtd and waited. I am now cd28 of a 28 day cycle, only bfn's for me so far, except for a nasty evap from Sunday. Next month we will stop trying- I can't afford to have a baby next September. Very sad, but mostly frustrated- next window of opportunity will be in 3 years! I despratly want to trow caution to the wind, try again and take a year off if needed, but than I remember that this is what I wanted to avoid. I am in so deep in the ttcing realm nothing seems to matter but having a baby. OH is supportive, but says he's good either way. What doesn't help matters is that my friend from school got pregnant first month ttcing, and everything is going great. I'm very happy for her, she also wanted kids for a long time, but having her pregnant near me all the time just prevents me from putting it aside and focusing in other stuff- not her fault, just the craziness in my own head.
So sorry for the super long post, I just feel like saying (or writing) thinks out loud will help me deal with things better. Also, I was wondering, how do you deal with things when they don't work out the way you want? Thanks and sorry again
So sorry for the super long post, I just feel like saying (or writing) thinks out loud will help me deal with things better. Also, I was wondering, how do you deal with things when they don't work out the way you want? Thanks and sorry again