I Confess.....

[Dahlia27]

great thread - and i felt so much emotion reading those confessions - heres mine

i confess that i hate feeling like i have no one who understands
i confess i hate people saying it will happen when its meant to
i confess i hate people getting pregnant all round me at the drop of a hat
i confess to wanting to scream at my OH when he makes it about him when my AF comes
i confess that i hate the hope that builds up each month to be torn apart
i confess that i hate when ppl say that "we didnt have that much sex either"
i confess to obsessing over ttc
i confess to loving coming in this forum to be round other ladies who feel like i do

 

[TryinFor1]

I confess that I am not going to DH cousin's baby shower because I cant stand to see her bump..

And I confess that I am really terrified about taking clomid.

 

[rachel1906]

I confess that I secretly think I am pregnant - with twins - and I have googled pregnant and still getting periods multiple times.
I confess that I hate it when someone falls pregnant on a one night stand.
I confess it makes me angry to hear girls say I want a baby so I can have a house and everything paid for me.
I confess I want to strangle people who say having a baby means you get loads of benefits we are so much better off now.
I confess I am totally addicted to BnB.
I confess My OH upsets me when he fails to understand the process of TTC.
I confess I hate that I believed it would happen straight away.
I confess I have registered to 5 baby catalogues.
I confess that I cannot hold my god daughter because at the sight of her I cry.
I confess My greatest fear is either me and OH can't have kids.

 

[AllMacsNow]

I confess that I do not like the bitter nasty person I'm becoming.

 

[almosthere]

I confess that I think about ttc & getting a BFP every second of every day
I confess I am so upset idk when I OV and when to expect my first real AF even though it's just my first few weeks being off BCP's.
I confess I really really want a boy, but it makes me feel guilty, because I know a girl would be wonderful too, but I am sooo wanting a boy first!

 

[almosthere]

I confess I cry every time I see a beautiful newborn, and I don't know if it's because I am longing to have my own, or because I just am emotional about the miracle of babies in general!

 

[Longing2bAMum]

I confess that I went into the pharmacy to get some tablets my Chiroprator had recommended and told the chemist I am trying for a baby so would it be ok to take them, and she said no, I suddenly didn't feel like I was old enough to be trying for a baby, and it felt like, judging by the look she gave me, she didn't think so either I'm 29 and still get asked for ID, I guess she thought I was young

 

[kas22]

I confess that I hate people getting pregnant on the pill!!!!

I confess that I dream of how happy my the my oh will be when we have a baby!

I confess I couldn't go to my best friends baby shower as I couldn't handle it

I confess that I hate that my oh does not have to deal with all the emotions I do whilst ttc (he does not no the half of it)

I confess that I become a green eyed monster!!

I confess I'm so scared on my fertility appointment coming up

I confess I hate that it's been 13 months when is it my turn??

I confess that I hate the above question because I don't no the answer!!

 

[U347464]

I confess... that this process has made me very angry after one whole year +.
Angry at DH - who doesnt seem to totally get what I am going through.
Angry at Mom - Who is also totally clueless.
Angry sometimes at God - why is it taking so long?
Angry - at myself. Am I struggling to get pregnant because of decisions I made in the past? Am I suffering because of my IUD now that I want a baby?
I confess that I will take a break this month if AF shows. I am exhausted and really need a break.
I confess that if I dont get a BFO this month, next month is the deadline. beyond October,, it means my baby will be born in August and beyond. Auguest, Sept, October arent months I particularly care for. No offense to anyone with those bdays. I am sure there are many of you. My Mom and brother are born in Sept. But I really prefer to have the kid in the summer months, so they could always have a summer bday. But at this point, I guess beggars cant be choosers, right?

 

[mommytobe11]

Angry - at myself. Am I struggling to get pregnant because of decisions I made in the past?

something i also struggle with.

 

[Longing2bAMum]

I have a secret baby stuff wish list on my Amazon account, I can't wait to buy it all

 

[baby_nurse]

I confess...sometimes reading this site scares me because I see so many people who have been trying so hard and for so long but haven't had a baby, I worry I might be one of those people.
I confess...I'm worried I won't be a good mum because I'm not very patient.
I confess...sometimes I hate my job it is getting in the way of TTC if I ovulate in the next few days I think I might just ring in sick because it causes me so much stress sometimes and is interfering when we can BD!
I confess...I'm already finding bding all the time pretty exhausting as I have a low sex drive!

 

[maggie111]

I confess that I keep flitting between being absolutely crazy and really super easy going about it all. My poor OH can't keep up.

I confess that reading the PG test forum I keep looking extra hard at my pregnancy tests thinking "I must be showing a really faint squint your eyes line too!"

But I confess, I am not.

In this 2WW I keep thinking, if this isn't the month that's OK because I can always try again next month. But it's easy for me to be positive when I know I don't have a negative until the witch comes to prove them all right. I really don't know how I'll take it I've tried so much harder this month and I'm getting all the right signs, I could be crushed but I keep thinking I wont worry until 12 months are up (Christmas!)

I also confess that I might be afraid of AF showing up, but that's nothing compared to my fear of being pregnant and miscarrying. I really don't think I could cope.

 

[Mosnippy]

although i have already posted confessions I have some more and
p.s my heart goes out to all the ladies that have posted here! atleast you not alone in the way we feel and think! xx

I confess.. I am feeling depressed at m OH lack of BD'ing, I have the higher sex drive, he says he wants this baby just as much as me, but cant help feeling that he avoids BD! always a reason why we cant i mean once in 5 weeks???? or worse I dont arouse him like i used to does he not realise it takes two to make a baby!

I confess.. its all i think about, 24/7 its stressing me out...how do you switch it off!! its constant, will I be good , will i have a healthy baby!, will I MC, etc etc constantly.

I confess....I worry I might not get my BFP as I have PCOS, which will crush me as when I was pregnant years ago.. I had to make the choice to abort...which will crush me knowing I had one and couldnt keep it

 

[maria86]

I Confess...that I am obsessed with ttc, yet I am scared that I would miscarry.
I Confess...that I am extremely paranoid and scared that my child will be born sick in any way.
I Confess...that I am angry that my best friend may be pregnant and she does not even want it
I Confess...that I spend waaay too much money on OPK, HPT, BBT, Fertility tea and Preseed....even though it is only our second month ttc.
I Confess...that I want to punch my friends and relatives when they keep asking when we will have kids

 

[Sunshine7125]

I confess that my sister and friends had not trouble ttc and I have had so much trouble and it makes me jealous.
I confess that I am scared when I do conceive I will end up miscarrying
I confess that when I see other pregnant women I get sad
I confess that I get sick of my mother in law texting me saying so are we pregnant yet?? Hello you know I have fertility problems!!!! Quit asking me every stinkin month! Sorry I feel better now

 

[irmastar]

i confess it gets me mad to know when friends and relatives get pregnant when they dont even want a baby.(currently sister inlaw has a 2 1/2 month old baby when she's still in high school, and recently discovered my brother's in law girlfrind of 6 yrs is pregnant when he doesnt want any kids)
i confess it pisses me off when dh is too tired/sleepy to bd on my fertile days

 

[cbass929]

I confess... i pressured my hubby into TTC and he really doesn't want another baby.
i confess... its kills me to think that how much i want another baby that i might not ever get one.
I confess... i am VERY VERY impaitent!! 2WW is HORRIBLE!
I confess... i often through the day think that my hubby might pretend to "finish" and not really.
I confess... i hate how i can be excited about it and want to talk about TTC and hubby just changes the subject!!

Should i just give it up if it didn't work this last time? last thing i want is to "pressure" my hubby into it, right?!?!?

 

[maria86]

I confess... i pressured my hubby into TTC and he really doesn't want another baby.
i confess... its kills me to think that how much i want another baby that i might not ever get one.
I confess... i am VERY VERY impaitent!! 2WW is HORRIBLE!
I confess... i often through the day think that my hubby might pretend to "finish" and not really.
I confess... i hate how i can be excited about it and want to talk about TTC and hubby just changes the subject!!

Should i just give it up if it didn't work this last time? last thing i want is to "pressure" my hubby into it, right?!?!?

I don't want to be negative, so please don't take this the wrong way, but maybe you should have a long and honest talk with your DH before continuing to TTC? I mean a baby is something that both parents should want and not feel pressured into. Good luck!!!!!

 

[cbass929]

@maria86

Your VERY right and we did talk about it over a couple months and he would make comments about it and made it seem like he was game. Then last night i asked him if he really wanted another baby or if he was just going along with me, he replied "i'm happy with our 2". needless to say i was a little crushed and rolled over and went to sleep. He doesn't want to talk about it. All he says is he knows i want a baby, and he knows we are much more stable and can afford one more now then we could with our first 2. So now i'm stressing because i want another baby!!! We currently rent our house (we were doing rent to own, but we want out of the city) and we have been trying to find our perfect house in a good area. The past couple days he has only been looking at 4 bedrooms (which we would need with a #3) and then he makes that comment last night. I'm getting mixed signals!!! and going crazy!!!