I did something stupid..............

[muffin]

............but hell it felt good!!!! went to put some things in the sink and this huge wave of hormonal rage just rushed over me.............and i lobbed EVERYTHING i could reach into a hard ceramic sink, made a bit of a mess!!!! have no idea how to explain to DH where half our good mugs and glasses have gone! feel much better but has taken me ages to clean up lol!

its 3 weeks today since m/c no4 and im only just starting to grieve, its hitting me v v hard. heres hoping i cant get a grip before we lose all our good china lol

 

[maratobe]

awww sweety im so sorry!!! !!!

 

[hb1]

Have you got a punch bag to channel your rage?

So sorry your grief is overwelming you at the moment - maybe ask about seeing a counsellor?

Take care hx

 

[Charliemarina]

hunny i know how u feel, iv done the throwing china thing too and yes ur right it does make u feel better in that sense but then cleaning up i find just makes me feel angry for being so silly personally i dnt think u need a counsellor huns (iv never liked them anyways) i think ur right ur grieving and just letting things out, iv suffered 3 back to back MC's and know exactly how u feel, like a failure right? well ur not huns no-one who MC's is a failiure its just our beans were to precious to carry on growing BUT our angel beans are what will keep our sticky beans safe.
huns do u use the gym?? i found working out a good way of venting grief and whilst working out u find ur mind drifts away from the daily stresses of everything including grief, u feel fresh after and healthy and working out is always good in the TTC game health is a main factor in TTC.
huns do PM me if u feel bad still i feel we got alot in common we both have kids already and suffered multiple MC id love to chat

 

[Tulip]

Darling Muffin I'm sorry you're struggling, but glad the smashing helped!

I've just told my counsellor to poke it and got some books on dealing with pregnancy loss instead. And everything I'm feeling makes sense. PM me too if you need a chat - Chaliemarina and I can do a tag-team thing on MSN

 

[stephwiggy]

aww hun tbh i did something similar xx

 

[Charliemarina]

Darling Muffin I'm sorry you're struggling, but glad the smashing helped!

I've just told my counsellor to poke it and got some books on dealing with pregnancy loss instead. And everything I'm feeling makes sense. PM me too if you need a chat - Chaliemarina and I can do a tag-team thing on MSN

sounds fun huns....MUFFIN huns send me or tulip ur MSN and we can all have a good chat and vent things out

i agree with u tulip on the counsellor thing i found them useless and am sure they barely pay attention to how ur really feeling, u can beat self healing and can i ask where u got the books from huns??? xxxxx

 

[Tulip]

Yeah they're on Amazon.

Unspeakable Losses - healing from miscarriage, abortion and other pregnancy loss.

A Silent Sorrow (I left it at work, can't remember the rest of the title - similar to above - actually if u check out my 'lowest day' thread in mc support they're in there - on the bitchphone at the mo so tricky to copy and paste)

when I've finished the books I'll be sending them round to whoever needs them - not quite Richard n Judy, the TTCAL book club is a bit less happy-go-lucky

 

[Tulip]

Cocking phone!!

 

[lolly25]

I know the feeling hun, the other week my hubby was bemused as i was so ate up with hormones and grief i was so horrible to him and to top it off the wall ate my tea as it got flung from one end of the lounge. Felt good when i did it just like a release but had fun cleaning the newly decorated wall afterwards x x

 

[Tulip]

Loads of us have been on a massive downer this last week. Must be that time of year.

 

[ronshi]

I've done that once- man alive, it felt goooood!
Let the healing begin....
hugs xxx

 

[muffin]

thanks so much guys for your support, im so relieved no one thought i was potty!! have been out this afternoon and sorted myself with vits(B6, starflower 1000g) i used them a while back and they helped alittle, i should have tried them a couple of weeks back but thought i was ok.
And bless my lovely friend, she took one look at me earlier she made DH babysit and took me out for early dinner and vino!!! feel lighter for a couple of hours out chilling, and the wine was lush!!!xxxx

 

[Dannib247]

hunni im so sorry for you losses hun, im glad you were able to release a little with the china smashing, im training to be a counsellor specialising in baby loss, im sure if you needed to talk to someone your doctor would point you in the right direction. I sincerely hope you get your bfp soon hun i cant imagine what you are going through xx