Mummy2Be_at20
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I keep feeling pressure by my family to not keep my baby (I will let you come to your own conclusions in regards to what that means). Like today was my great grandfathers 88th birthday so my entire family got together and my cousin was there (she's a grad student) and she was telling the family how she applied to museums in Italy, and the Louvre in France and the whole time I could feel my moms gaze on me as if she were disappointed that instead of working in a foreign country I was pregnant instead. I feel so ashamed of being pregnant and not happy at all, but I love my baby and I love the thought of being a mother, and couldn't stomach not having my baby with me...I'm just so torn up. My family is so judgmental. They believe without a shadow of a doubt that if I keep the baby I will become a "statistic" and be an unwed mother, college drop out, and on welfare. My mom even told me that if I wanted to keep the baby she would take me to apply for welfare and WIC and then would be disappointed in me and that I would be one of "those" mothers. I feel like I can still go to school and accomplish what I want to do. I never even planned on having a super career and being this crazy career woman jetsetting between countries...I wanted to go to cosmetology school for pete's sake and now because of my mom, i'm working towards a degree as a lawyer. I know that it would be hard and it would take me a little while to get back on my feet. But I also know that it CAN be done...I just can't stand the thought of having to choose between my family (and disgracing them) and my baby. I'm an emotional wreck right now.