I hate her...

[JViti]

Well my husbands raise put us over the income limit for usda loans for my family size. So my baby fund has to go to down payment. I'm out now, likely permanently- I don't know if I'll ever be able to save enough. I keep having to give it up I'm gonna go crawl in a hole

I'm so sorry. Your day will come. You will one day get insurance that covers IVF or you will be able to save the money.
We are all here for you!!!! Hopefully, your state will mandate infertility services form insurances soon. You WILL get your baby, I believe it!!

 

[SweetPotatoPi]

Well my husbands raise put us over the income limit for usda loans for my family size. So my baby fund has to go to down payment. I'm out now, likely permanently- I don't know if I'll ever be able to save enough. I keep having to give it up I'm gonna go crawl in a hole

I am so, so, so very sorry B . I know nothing helps right now but sending you loving energy anyway (((hugs))).

 

[Bkrispy]

I always save enough to get my hopes up, and then something happens and I get talked out of it. I'm at a point where I'll live in a tent to save for ivf but hubby always gets his way or says he's "over it" and me. I'm so stuck. It's been 7 years of constant psychological torture. I just want a chance to try. I even get jealous of the BFN's because at least there was hope. I would love to just have some hope. I'm so sad now
I'm about to tell husband to shove it because we have spent more money on his toys and hobbies than i would on ivf.
I need this for my sanity. I hate this pos trailer too but not more than I hate not getting a chance to try

Can I be selfish for once? Everyone else certainly has their moments but I'm made to be the devil if I think of it.

I can't cry everyday anymore.
If this is how he wants it- I refuse to function anymore.

 

[SweetPotatoPi]

I always save enough to get my hopes up, and then something happens and I get talked out of it. I'm at a point where I'll live in a tent to save for ivf but hubby always gets his way or says he's "over it" and me. I'm so stuck. It's been 7 years of constant psychological torture. I just want a chance to try. I even get jealous of the BFN's because at least there was hope. I would love to just have some hope. I'm so sad now
I'm about to tell husband to shove it because we have spent more money on his toys and hobbies than i would on ivf.
I need this for my sanity. I hate this pos trailer too but not more than I hate not getting a chance to try

Can I be selfish for once? Everyone else certainly has their moments but I'm made to be the devil if I think of it.

I can't cry everyday anymore.
If this is how he wants it- I refuse to function anymore.

 

[CaliDreaming]

Bkrispy, I'm just going to say it. I wouldn't give up your IVF money for a house. You can get a house anytime but a baby is something you need to do right now. You worked hard to save the money so I don't see how your hubby could call you selfish for wanting it to go toward your intended purpose for it. Maybe a long talk with hubby is in order.

 

[JViti]

Since we have all been honest on this post from day 1...Bkrispy...You need to start being selfish yesterday...Put your foot down. Its not fair to you that you are stuck like this. A loooong talk is in order. You guys need to be on the same page. The only way I would agree with buying a house, is if you were moving to a state that mandated infertility treatment and IVF through insurance, unless where you currently live is really bad, then I would say its ok so that you have a safe place for the baby to live.

I know men suck, and arent always there for us, but it sounds like hes not there for you at all. I know saying "kick his ass to the curb" is harsh...but you deserve to be happy. I know not having a baby is making you unhappy, but hes not helping. He needs to understand exactly what your going through. He needs to try to understand. He needs to stop buying his toys.

I never recommend keeping secrets in marriages, but maybe you should just hide the money some where. Do any of your banks have a Christmas Club Account option? You put the money in the account, and you are NOT ALLOWED to take money out of it. At the end of October, it will be put into an account of your choice. (usually for CHristmas shopping, but it technically can be for anything). If you open up 2 "secret" accounts, One can be the baby fund that only YOU know about. (maybe a passbook savings, so that only you can touch it), and the other one can be the christmas club account so that you cant take the money out. You can put in as much as you want each week/day/month whatever. It can usually even be taken directly from your paycheck.

Men suck...too bad we need them for this whole fertility thing to work...

We love you!!!!

 

[SweetPotatoPi]

How you don' B? Have you talked to hubs yet? Surely you can't be the only one expected to make sacrifices.

 

[JViti]

We love you B...remember you can always vent here!! we are not judgemental druggies!!! But we havent heard from u in a few days, is everything OK??

 

[Napua17]

Well I have my answer to why no period .... I had another large cyst.

It ruptured and I am in excruciating pain

 

[JViti]

Well I have my answer to why no period .... I had another large cyst.

It ruptured and I am in excruciating pain

Oh Nap, so sorry. Ill get you some percocets pronto!!

 

[JViti]

she posted an ultrasound pic on facebook...bitch

This baby better be a boy...as horrible as this sounds, if she gets the little girl I so desperately want, it will devastate me. I have a boy and she has a boy and everyone is dying for a little girl to spoil and love and be oober excited about...since I didnt give them the pregnancy they wanted so bad, I would at least like to be able to give them the girl they all so desperately want...she shouldnt get to have both pleasures.

Of course, I will love that baby no matter what but i will still be even more envious than i already am.

And of course, when my baby time finally arrives, I will love him/her no matter what gender...but I will be damned if she continues to steal my thunder...or lack of..

 

[Napua17]

she posted an ultrasound pic on facebook...bitch

This baby better be a boy...as horrible as this sounds, if she gets the little girl I so desperately want, it will devastate me. I have a boy and she has a boy and everyone is dying for a little girl to spoil and love and be oober excited about...since I didnt give them the pregnancy they wanted so bad, I would at least like to be able to give them the girl they all so desperately want...she shouldnt get to have both pleasures.

Of course, I will love that baby no matter what but i will still be even more envious than i already am.

And of course, when my baby time finally arrives, I will love him/her no matter what gender...but I will be damned if she continues to steal my thunder...or lack of..

I always think like that, but at least my baby will be the youngest, and the youngest is always the cutest!!!! She may have a girl, but your baby will be the adored one.

 

[Napua17]

Well I have my answer to why no period .... I had another large cyst.

It ruptured and I am in excruciating pain

Oh Nap, so sorry. Ill get you some percocets pronto!!

OH GOD YES PLEASE!!!!! These dang motrin are doing NOTHING.

 

[SweetPotatoPi]

Freakin' A man! Clearly we've all been slacking on the drug use ladies as too much bullshit is goin' down .

Napua, I'm sorry about the pain you're in gal . Your doc won't give you a 'scrip for anything stronger?

Jenn, big . Step away from that bitch ass FB! Supposedly there are way cooler places to hang out anyway .

 

[Napua17]

Sweet: YES, she called in some Vicodin, but Ill pick it up.....and take the Norco I have stashed!!!

 

[JViti]

Sweet: YES, she called in some Vicodin, but Ill pick it up.....and take the Norco I have stashed!!!

dont take norco with vicodin...its the same thing just a different strength. unless your trying to get a major high then its ok lol jk

 

[JViti]

o yeah i think im done with facebook...first 4 posts i see...my SIL's post of her US pic, my BIL's psot of the US pic, my MIL post of the US pic, and my FIL psot of the US pic...right in my face...thanks people, I got the pic on my phone, i dont need to see it everywhere I look...

If this baby is a girl, I'm buying a hotdog and sewing it on her...lol

I need a fix...anyone got leftover heroin from the new year? all i got is ecstasy and thats not high enough...

 

[Napua17]

Sweet: YES, she called in some Vicodin, but Ill pick it up.....and take the Norco I have stashed!!!

dont take norco with vicodin...its the same thing just a different strength. unless your trying to get a major high then its ok lol jk

Isnt that our aim here in this thread?? Stoned off my butt???



No, I wont take them together, the Norco is stronger.

 

[Napua17]

Becky I'll trade you???.....hydrocodone does NOTHING for me.

When I had surgery for the cyst and ovary last year, they ended up giving me some and I FINALLY went to sleep. It was great. I wasnt fuzzy or weird....just slept and woke up feeling awesome.

I have 30 I ill never take. The Norco just knocks me out.

 

[Napua17]

o yeah i think im done with facebook...first 4 posts i see...my SIL's post of her US pic, my BIL's psot of the US pic, my MIL post of the US pic, and my FIL psot of the US pic...right in my face...thanks people, I got the pic on my phone, i dont need to see it everywhere I look...

If this baby is a girl, I'm buying a hotdog and sewing it on her...lol

I need a fix...anyone got leftover heroin from the new year? all i got is ecstasy and thats not high enough...

Hahahaha!!!!

OMG, yes turn off Facebook for a while......7 more months to be exact!!! lol!! Screw them and their pregnant happiness.

You can have my heroin, you need it more then I do. Becky has Oxi for me anyway.....