Dana_Scully
Zachary's Mommy
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Am I the only one feeling this way?
Found out friday that my Boo Bean had stopped growing at 7 weeks and I was 9 weeks pregnant. I was so happy, had started a baby journal, took all my vitamins, was careful about what I ate... but it didn't make a difference.
I didn't miscarry yet... going in for a D&C on monday... where I'm gonna ask for another US because I'm in denial. I'm scared it's gonna hurt... apparently they won't put me to sleep. I really don't want to be awake for that!
My husband is also taking it very hard, he saw the baby at the US, and he said it was the most sad and horrible thing he ever saw. Our baby with no heartbeat.
We try to keep ourselves occupied, but as soon as we run out of things, it just creeps back into our minds, and the pain comes back. I was so sick for the past weeks, throwing up and aching everywhere. I had little strings of blood in my mucus, barely anything. When I went to the hospital, I was so sure they would give me my US and send us back home, saying to stop worrying so much.
The worse thing will be going back to work. I work with small children... I don't know how I'm gonna bear it now. I don't feel like being around anyone, especially not children!
I'm sorry for this rant... I don't want to talk to anyone about this. Unless it's happened to you, you can't really understand, you can only imagine...
Found out friday that my Boo Bean had stopped growing at 7 weeks and I was 9 weeks pregnant. I was so happy, had started a baby journal, took all my vitamins, was careful about what I ate... but it didn't make a difference.
I didn't miscarry yet... going in for a D&C on monday... where I'm gonna ask for another US because I'm in denial. I'm scared it's gonna hurt... apparently they won't put me to sleep. I really don't want to be awake for that!
My husband is also taking it very hard, he saw the baby at the US, and he said it was the most sad and horrible thing he ever saw. Our baby with no heartbeat.
We try to keep ourselves occupied, but as soon as we run out of things, it just creeps back into our minds, and the pain comes back. I was so sick for the past weeks, throwing up and aching everywhere. I had little strings of blood in my mucus, barely anything. When I went to the hospital, I was so sure they would give me my US and send us back home, saying to stop worrying so much.
The worse thing will be going back to work. I work with small children... I don't know how I'm gonna bear it now. I don't feel like being around anyone, especially not children!
I'm sorry for this rant... I don't want to talk to anyone about this. Unless it's happened to you, you can't really understand, you can only imagine...