I need help!

[gabbyskyy]

So, it sounds like you're gonna relax a bit this time around and just bd and hopefully the timing is right. That's what I'm gonna do. I'm sick of the headaches of the obsessing and then a complete let down with all the bfn's. It's emotionally draining! Yes, the old bag left me a few days ago. It was short and easy. I'm still kinda weirded out on the pain two nights before it even started. It hurt so bad. I feel like the anticipation of making a baby feels longer than actually carrying the baby. It sucks! I'm kinda over it. Like it is what it is. Obviously the opk's didn't work for me the last 2 cycles so what's the point. I feel like I'm being negative Nancy right now, but I'm just tired. Ya know?

Hope life is going good for you at the moment and you get to lots of bd'ing! How many opk's (IC) do you have? I'm tempted to get the ic's but they're so hard to read with how thin they are. Then frer and other brand opk's are so much$$$$.

 

[babycrazy11]

Hey Gabby... yeah, I think that I am feeling a lot more relaxed this time around so I am hoping that might make a difference. I havent had the huge breakdown in front of DH when af came like I usually do. Really trying to keep my mind off of the negative part of it. I guess that is part of the cycle... being upset and learning to deal with it better each time. cant say what I will be like next month though if I get a BFN again. One cycle at a time. I have been using the earlypregtest.com opk's. I have maybe 8 left. Once they start to look a lil darker then will try them 2x a day. Got a thin faint line last evening so I am hoping that I am headed in the right direction. Hoping tomorrow or friday! fx'd. Hubby wants to go away on sat. but I told him he may have to stay home ... got some "chores" for him to do
I am sorry to see that your not yourself. You really have been the positive one but we all have our moments and you are certainly allowed to have yours just remember.... "when we fall out of bed, we have to pick ourselves up and get right back in... or off the kitchen counter.... wherever you like it!!" You and I will get our BFP's.... IT'S GONNA HAPPEN! Hoping that tomorrow is a better day for you Gabby. I might need you to be postive for me!!

 

[gabbyskyy]

Awww. Thanks.
I feel better today. My husband was getting on my nerves last night. I was trying to tell myself I better snap out of it here because it's time to get excited again. LOL! I think I was just having a bad day. My daughter was home sick and I had a pounding headache.
I'm on cd7 so I'm getting ready to dtd every other day bit I talked about with you. I just have to let the small things ride and not get too annoyed. LOL! Oh gosh. My poor hubby.
So what cd are you on now? Don't let your hubs get away this weekend! At least dtd the day he leaves and tell him he can only be gone for one night! or the second he gets back Hahahaha! chores! LMAO. ....on the kitchen counter. lol!...or the washing machine.

 

[babycrazy11]

Soooo.... I have no idea if I am O'ing or not! HAd a very bad day yesterday. I have been doing the IC's which I already felt werent as reliable as the FR. I am hardly getting a line. Then on top of that I didnt feel like I was getting any EWCM.... I think that I am starting to get it today maybe??? So I am hoping that I am still gonna O, just a day or so later. But, hubby just left. He might get a phone call saying to get the heck home! He left a little "present" before he went but someone came here and I had to get up RIGHT away so I feel like I might have wasted it. gross, I know! I think i had some little mild cramps too so really hoping that O is still to come.

ANNNNNNNNDDDDD.... I saw that ole bitty today who asked me when I was going to have a baby and then said that she tries not to ask that. WELLLLLLL SHE ASKED ME AGAIN!!!!! She said "when are you gonna have a baby?" Like I was supposed to give her a date and a time. Geez. Wanted to smack her! In a very kinda way I said "I thought you werent gonna ask that anymore?!" ..... b*&^h. ugh.
Anyhoo.... how are ya these days. When do you expect O?? Anytime soon?

 

[babycrazy11]

I am suddenly feeling a lil' better. After I wrote this I went and did a test. I got the darkest line today than all week. I dont think that its a + but at least it is darker. So put that together with the cramps and the beginning of EWCM..... I think that I am just starting to O. I am like freakin' "CSI-OVULATION" here today! Crappy part is that dh just got to his mom and dads and I had to call and say "do you think that you can come home tomorrow evening?" He said yes but I know that it rots him because he planned on staying til monday. I didnt plan this! He wants a baby just as much as I do so I know he'll be here to do his part... kinda cant do it without him. WE should be able to make spermcicles in the ice cube tray for times like this. Pop 'em out, defrost for a bit and stick 'em in a syringe. THERE! Done.... hunny go away, I gotta make a baby!

 

[gabbyskyy]

You are too friggin funny!!!!!! Ice cubes would be convenient, but make sure you don't put them in your cocktails! LOL!
Girl you are probably ovulating as we speak! Hubs seems pretty understanding of the whole thing. That's good! If only we could pop a pill and know exactly when we are ovulating! How come they haven't invented that yet? They thought of viagra and can't think of an instant ovulation pill????
OMG! the nerve of that woman! Does she know that you are actively trying to have a baby? Tell her if she asks you again you might have to hurt her. LOL!
Well, today is football sunday and we're carving pumpkins for Halloween. Yesterday we went and saw Paranormal Activity 3.....yes I took my kids....bad mommy! LOL! They have thick skins. I don't shelter them from anything but sex and really violent programs, but a little ghost story won't hurt. The lady at the ticket counter was like"are you their mom" I was like"no I'm their sister". They're good kids and their teachers adore them, so I gotta be doing sumthin right. Now that I've defended myself to the world, if anybody thinks that's terrible they can kiss my ass! LOL!They had a great time!
I hope your hubby gets home quick so you can get to makin that baby!

 

[babycrazy11]

NO I'M THEIR SISTER!!!! !!! Lard thunderin' your funny!! My hubby and I watched the first Paranomal Activity last Halloween nite. I want to get the second for tomorrow. He likes all the SAw movies and that crap... I had enuff of those. He can watch those all day long but I had to talk him into the ghosty movie!!! HA!! whatta

As for the lady that I saw... she is a sweet woman just nosey as hell. I think I got the point across yesterday when I said "I though you werent gonna ask that question anymore!" If she ever says anything again I probably would say that we are trying and make her feel bad. But if I do that I have to prepare for everyone around to know also.... probably not such a good idea afterall.
Anyhoo..... hubby is home and my stomach is crampy so in the hopes that I am O'ing I gotta go get a lil' frisky! My chores are never done!!!

 

[gabbyskyy]

So babycrazy- are you in your two week wait now? Any symptom spotting? i forgot to ask if you ever got your super dark opk? I'm not doing those this month and I'm not gonna test until I'm late. This last cycle was a little overboard with all the testing and peeing in cups.Well yesterday was Halloween and I ran out of candy. I gave out good candy too and my kids came home with all kinds of tootsie rolls. Yuck. Oh and those little lollypops. I feel bad for them. But, I guess it's just the fun of going trick or treating, not the kind of candy you get......yah right. You know I wanted to raid their candy! LOL!

So what's new with you!?

 

[babycrazy11]

wellll... I have no idea if i really ovulated or not. The last opk I did on saturaday where the line was thin but dark was my last one! I thought that I had one more but NOPE, i didnt. I really do think that I ovulated though because i had a bit of ewcm, cramping, the whole high, soft and open cp.... We have been bd'n every day except yesterday but we had it for supper today hehe. I just feel like its all in vain. I dont have high hopes of seeing a bfp. Feeling rather down about it all. Though last week I think i was pretty relaxed. Today i could cry all day long. Everything is going through my head. One of the parts that I am looking forward to the most is telling my parents and I am so afraid that the news we'll have for them instead will be "we have been trying to get pregnant for 7months (or more) and cant..." Not really what I had in mind. I am trying to push that off as long as I can. Unless I am absolutely losing it I am not going to tell them for a while yet. I think that i will try to stick it out until the new year at least. Hopefully by then I will have great news to tell them anyways..... but..... hubby went to the dr last week. He has had some problems with, as the dr called it, his veg (as in meat and vegetables..) He had an injury a long time ago and ever since we have been together has had random pain down there. Turns out one is a different shape and bigger. He has to have an ultrasound down there yup, down there.... I am hoping and praying that this old injury is not going to cause fertility problems but if it had that physical affect then it might. And to top that all off.... he has an enlarged prostate! OMG, he is a yard sale!!!! All jokes aside... kinda worried.

 

[gabbyskyy]

HAhahaaha! meat and veggies! I haven't heard of that one before! So are they testing him for fertility or just to make sure the package is ok? I think you've been working him out lately girl! Maybe one's holding more than the other??? Oh goodness. I hope he's ok. LOL! You make me laugh! On a serious note sorry to hear of that. I don't know what else to say about it. lol!

So does your mom nag you about having a baby and becoming a grandma? They say wait a year before seeking fertility help. Maybe Santa will bring you a nice bfp for xmas. It sounds to me like you're probably 2-3dpo???? Come on bfp!!!!! Mama covered all her bases and worked hubby to the bone!!!! No pun intended!

 

[babycrazy11]

hahahaa!! I think that your probably right... I am probably 3dpo?? Af should be due next friday. As for hubby, no fertility testing yet. They are just gonna do an ultrasound to see if it all looks ok. I guess if anything else shows they will go from there. His health is first, fertility second. It's all nuts if you ask me!

My mom is not psycho about the baby comments. She wants us to be ready and only once in a while will make a comment about hoping that it doesnt take us too long. I am pretty sure that she expects it at any time though.

How are you doing?? O'ing yet or close to it??

 

[gabbyskyy]

Oh that's good. It sounds like your mom is pretty supportive???? I don't dare talk about conceiving a baby with my mom since she's against it. She thinks it's ridiculous for me to start all over again, but whatever. She's entitled to her opinion, but it's my life and I'm gonna do what I want to do. I sound like I did when I was teenager. LOL! Still gotta love moms! she's actually coming out to visit me today so I'm trying to tidy up a bit.

So you only have about a week really until you test. Or are you gonna wait for the day of af?

I'm trying to charge my video camera to catch my cat right now! I was chasing him all over the house cuz he has a lolypop in his mouth and won't give it up. He's too much! I have to hide the Halloween candy from him.

I don't know when I'm o'ing but I took some mucinex and it's releasing all kinds of phlem in my nose and thraot, but I don't see a difference in cm. Urgh! I'm cd14, last cycle I o'd cd23 aand before that cd19...soooooo. I just wait.

 

[babycrazy11]

Hey Gabby... yup, af is due a week from today. Definitely going to wait to test because as of right now I really do expect to see the b*&%h. I just dont understand this whole thing. I always thought it would just happen so easily. I cant help but get mad that not only are we the last ones in our families to have a baby... but also the ones to have trouble with it. Although... I think one of my SIL's may have had some problems too and now they have 2 so.... sorry, totally venting! URRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

How are you today?? Any sign of O??

 

[gabbyskyy]

Nope. Negative opk today cd16. Urgh! There's a gal on the mirena thread that just got pregnant her first time trying and it's really depressing some of the gals on there. It's truly a slap in the face for some people, especially when other chicks don't even have to wait.LOL!!!!. I try to remind myself that god has a plan and just because one girl gets pregnant easily doesn't mean she has the best life ever. Ya know? That sounded bad, but still I say it like I mean it.One of the other gals I've been chattin with just got her faint positive hpt and positive opk. Her af is over a month late but the tests aren't picking hcg up well. I'm super happy for her though because she's been trying for 18months and had a miscarriage, so she totally deserves it and I'm super excited for her!!!
Try to have a good time this weekend. I went clothes shopping so I feel a little better. Hey what time is it over there....tell me by the last message time wise.

I have my two, so I can't really bitch and moan. I would hope for you to get a baby in the oven before me. i wanna see you pregnant!

 

[gabbyskyy]

Where are you my dear friend!!!!?????

I'm just sittin here watching football. Our team(49ers) are doing soooo good this season! Maybe we'll have to throw a fat ass super bowl party if things go the way we hoped for!

How are you doing? I'm cd18 and dd this morning. This is my week, so I gotta stay in good spirits and not be grumpy with hubs. I gotta get it at least every other day! Dude, yesterday I made homemade enchiladas from scratch, sauce and all, and hubs was outside the entire day with the neighbors. I felt like little suzy homemaker! I wanted to kill him because it was half his idea and he was supposed to help me! I didn't realize just because it takes Guy Fieri on foodnetwork a half hour to make a dish it would take me 5 hours. The enchiladas were soooooooo goooooood! So much better tan canned sauce! Yummy! So it was worth it. Plus, I had a couple cocktails while cooking. Heehee Too bad most of the chicks in my neighborhood are boring and bitchy as he&l!

 

[babycrazy11]

I'm here, I'm here! Had a busy weekend. Work and xmas shopping. This is the earliest ever that I have this much bought! YAY! I dont feel hopeful this time again. Really no symptoms. I have had a bit more white cm... yesterday I thought that I was having a weird, mildly crampy tummy and a couple very mild waves of nausea. My right boob is a little sore deep inside. Not sore if I just poke it but if I actually give'r a squeeze it feels sore... maybe I did that myself?? CP is low and firm right now... though I have read so much about that and it seems like its can be unreliable... CP might not change until later in a pregnancy. I really found myself wanting to tell my mom yesterday but I resisted. I just dont think that I am ready to let go of the idea of surprising them out of the blue. She may have gotten a little tipped off the other day. I decided that I would tell her about dh's possible problem and I said that there may be a fertility problem that we dont know about due to this injury he had a long time ago. As I said it I know that I was tearing up. She might not have read that deep into it though. Only a few more days till the comes. Someone should really tell her that Halloween is over.

So enchiladas eh?? Never had but my sis makes them and they really like em. I guess you could O at any time. Are you opk'ing this time around or are you just goin' for it? I cant remember if you said you were doing them or not... I really wish we would both get our this time around!! I think dh and I could use that positiveness in our lives.

 

[gabbyskyy]

Your af is due fiday right? Hey, no symptoms are good symptoms supposedly! Yah I don't think she got the memo that Halloween is over! LOL! She's just super stubborn and refuses to give up the hat and broom. Well I hope she stays away for ya.

So, we dd on Sunday and my second trip to the bathroom after that I was spotting, and it wasn't even rough and didn't lt very long either. So of course I start googling and maybe it was ovulation bleeding????? wishful thinking I think, but it's possible. I haven't been opk'in. But, hubs hasn't been wanting it so much lately, so if we don't dd, then it's not gonna happen! I gotta get him to give it up tonight though because it's cd20 and I o between cd18 and cd24 according to the last 2 cycles. Oh well.

So, you told your mom about the doc appt for your hubby? Did she ask you if you were gonna start trying? Have you looked at the bfp announcements on herre ever. There are women who have been trying for a really long tme and finally get their bfp. I know it'll happen for you! I have a feeling my cm isn't fertile. I never get really ewcm.....maybe like one wipe here and there, but never the way some women get it. If you google "the beautiful cervix project", there's a website where it shows a 25 year old woman's cycle from begining to end. And also of other women who have had babies or mc's etc. It's kinda trippy.

 

[babycrazy11]

Yeah, I told her about the appointment and just made a comment about it being possible that there might be a fertility issue down the road... she did not ask any questions about us trying though... thankfully or I probably would have broken down crying. As for the bfp announcements... no. I stalk the preg test gallery and imagine that someday I will see 2 lines... loser.

I really hope that you O soon!! Is your dh still wanting a baby or is that he doesnt want to bd as much??

 

[gabbyskyy]

He's indiferrent about the baby idea. He's not preventing, but he's not begging for one either. He thinks our family is big enough. LOL. I know wha you mean! I feel like such a dork lokking at tests, especially my bfn's fifty times waiting for something to show up. insanity! I don't have any signs of o, so I have no clue. I'm feeling crappy today. I have so much to do, but can't get motivated.

Hey you can probably take an ept now. I'm so bad I know. I want you to test! I feel like peeing on something......

 

[babycrazy11]

NOOOOOO GABBY!!! I am not POAS!!!!! hahaha!! you nut!!! And if you want to pee on something go mad sure!!! go pee on an opk!!! I want YOU to test... for O.