I think I'm done...

[Sherileigh]

I'm an exclusive pumper, have been since Luka was born. Wasn't great, but was fine. Now, since moving and having problems with my pump, I've been manually expressing for the last week and it's driving me nuts!!! I'm just not sure I can do it anymore! It's taking over my life...I just feel so guilty now...I feel bad about even thinking about stopping. I just don't have enough right now while I'm waiting for my replacement pump parts....I'm just exhausted too.

 

[JayleighAnn]

Oh hunny I have a manual pump your welcome to whilst you wait for your spare parts? Or is that what your already doing? xx

 

[TigerLady]

Oh, hon! I'm so sorry! I wish I was closer as I would lend you pump parts!

You have done so well up until now -- very few moms would do what you have done. You should be proud! If you have to quit, don't feel bad. You have done so much already. But I hope you find a way to make it through if you really want to.

 

[Lu28]

Where are you hon? I have a medela swing with all but the horn you could use? You've done amazingly to get as far as you have though. I hope you manage to come to a decision you're comfortable with

 

[Maffie]

Could you hire until your pump is fixed?

 

[Sherileigh]

OH MY GOD...they sent me the wrong f*&ing part!!!! I'm going to call them and lose it!!!!!

 

[TigerLady]

I'm so sorry hon!!!

 

[Lu28]

OMG hon, I am livid for you

 

[Sherileigh]

I called them and told them the whole story again and told them I want a new pump and I want it ASAP. They're flying one out overnight, so will have it tomorrow!!
So hopefully I can get my milk supply up again! I have some Domperidone, so hopefully that will do the trick!

 

[TigerLady]

Good luck, hon! I hope you are successful. Luka is very lucky to have you as a mommy!

 

[Lu28]

That's great news

 

[Sherileigh]

Ok, so i got the new pump and it's still not working!! Is it possible my milk can't come out by pump anymore?? I can still get some out by manually expressing...I've tried my sisters pump too now and nothing's working. WTF?

 

[TigerLady]

That's bizarre.... and the new pump was brand new? or just parts were??

I had a problem with my pump and had to slowly replaces every part, one at a time, until I found the culprit!

 

[florabean1981]

i hope you get to the bottom of it soon

 

[Sherileigh]

It's a brand new pump...new tubing, new connectors! I'm just baffled!!

 

[TigerLady]

Oh no! You had any further luck?

TBH, don't kill yourself over it if you don't have any more luck, hon. You have given him BM for nearly 6 months! Most BFers don't last that long, let alone exclusive pumpers. You have done an amazing job. You should be very proud of yourself. If your body is finally done, then so be it!

 

[Sherileigh]

I am proud of myself...but just not ready to give up. Stupid me...I just love knowing that I'm providing my son with his food. I am continuing to manually express. And will give the pumps another go...or just see how long I can get away with manually expressing. I tried him at my breast last night and as he has 4 teeth now he bit me...HARD! Won't be trying that again!!

 

[TigerLady]

Wow, you are an inspiration, hon!!

I really hope you get this sorted!

 

[Lu28]

How's it going hon?

 

[Sherileigh]

I'm still manually expressing and getting very strong hands because of it! lol. I'm now mixing bottles 1/3 formula, 1/3 frozen (obviously thawed) EBM, 1/3 fresh EBM. Lol...like a cocktail. Just trying to get him used to some formula....will try to continue with EBM and formula as long as i can. If I can get my supply back up (which is doubtful with just manually expressing) I would be thrilled!! Will try the pumps again in a few days...just to frustrated now! And I'm getting quite good at doing it manually!