I'm having a bad couple of weeks... I've posted a few threads and I bet everyone thinks I'm a moaner... I want my baby more than the world... but I'm seriously doubting my parenting skills... I haven't stopped smoking [which is starting to get to me] All I keep thinking about is how wrecked my body is going to be... I'm more Annoyed at OH not giving me attention.. This pregnancy is not going how I expected... after my history of MC's I thaught I'd atleast be happy.. But I just want this pregnancy over and have the baby here, then my job is done... OH's family make me feel like I'm only here to make another grandchild... Part of me wants OH to have full custody so I can just run away... I couldn't do that to the LO I love so much already... what is wrong with me???? SORRY FOR THE RANT!!