Hey ladies,
Thought id say a hello, I'm still reading everyone's posts

I'm so happy for Hannah and her
AF just ended today. I'm having a hard time deciding on the next cycle. Last cycles efforts proved unsuccessful and ended me with a UTI that has come and gone twice (I'm back on antibiotics and will most likely have to continue 1x a day while TTC to prevent reoccurrence FX). And I think it'll end in a YI too.
Makes me apprehensive to worry if next month I'll do this all over again. Going through all the "ness" that is BD, tracking CM, TWW and then all the BFNs plus the possibility of a UTI and a YI. It's a lot. I want to, hubby wants to it's just hard to get back on the horse ya know? It's only going to be cycle 3, so it's not like a huge effort has been put in so I certainly don't want to give up so soon. It's just well, shitty.
The UTI really blows. I don't get them if I get up right after BD and use the washroom but that's counterproductive for TTC. So then I think well I'll just save all the BD for when I'm ovulating and use the ol get up and go method any other times to limit my possibility but then I'm left thinking we didn't put enough effort in. Bah. It should be fun, romantic spontaneously awesome. Not worrisome for infections and guilt over not putting 110% effort in, even worse if another BFN happens.
I really just needed to vent, I'm sorry. Thanks to anyone who listened. I can't wait to join you ladies with testing and line spotting and tweaking etc. It makes something sad and stressful (when unsuccessful) alittle more fun.

Xox Meagan