Its June!!!!! 20 week scan next month!!! Whos with me?

[Scally]

Happy Christmas eve!!!!!

Pops- how much did your little man weigh?

Sarah- how are you feeling?

I had two days respite from when the 3 week growth spurt finished and now it seems the 6 week one has started! She fed sooooo much yesterday in the day, then from 5pm until midnight, then from 3am to about 9 this morning! yawn!!!!!!!!
If she carries this on tomorrow i will probably spend christmas day in a separate room to everyone else! We are going to my dads for christmas, and there will be about 15 members of my family, my dad is very anti BF as well as my step mum and many family members so i wont be able to breastfeed in front of them, so i have been allocated my sisters bedroom! I really hope Poppy gives me a break so i can get some christmas dinner down me!

x

 

[Scally]

Kellie- how is your little man doing this morning? x

 

[kellie_w]

How is everyone?Hope everyone is ok, and managing to get some sleep!

Oliver went a bit downhill with his breathing yesterday so we called nhs direct for advice. They decided we needed a ambulance, and despite us saying no they wouldnt back down. Very embarrassing hearing sirens coming for us. At a&e gte doctor said as this has gone on for a while it could now be strep pneumonia so ordered blood tests and a chest xray. Heartbreaking seeing a canula put in such a little Hand fortunately his infection levels are low, so hey suspect it is just another flare up of bronculitus. So pleased as if it had been strep we would have been in hospital for Christmas.

So a huge happy first Christmas
To all our babies. Hope you are have a fantastic time!! Lots of love to you all xxx

 

[Sarahcake]

Omg ally you must be a complete zombie right now! That's some extensive feeding right there, wow! That sucks that you would be banished to a different room to feed Poppy, especially if she's wanting feeding like she has been the last 24 hours. I'm stubborn and to be honest, if they were that anti breast feeding and would be willing to see me spend most of the day in the bedroom alone, then I would be reconsidering going. That's just me though, I get wound up by that kind of attitude.

Kellie, I'm so so pleased that Ollie doesn't have pneumonia, that must have been bloody awful watching him have that canula put in, poor little thing have they put him on / are they planning to put him on any inhalers or anything to prevent it happening again or is that not something used in babies his age?

I'm feeling a bit better today thank you got our tree up yesterday (late I know but we've all been ill!) and I had a soppy crying fit because I was just so happy to have my little family made me realise that despite the odd sleeping hours and tears from me Neil and Logan, we are so hugely blessed to have him.

I hope everyone is well and I wish you all an amazing Christmas period, eat lots of tasty things, have a few drinkies and have a fabulous time. Give your little ones all a hug from me won't you much love to you all xxxx

 

[Scally]

So pleased u r at home Kellie- must have been horrible with the canula. Merry christmas to u and your gorgeous family xx

Sarah- it really is extreme feeding, she has continued it today-my boobs are so sore!
i must admit it has peed me off, and makes me not want to go for long, especially as if i'm in another room i am going to miss so much of Izzy's christmas day! I have taken a bottle and some formula to see if she might take that if she is constantly feeding.
Awww its so lovely you have a little family, you'll have an amazing christmas.
i am so pleased you are feeling better.

Have a wonderful christmas everyone, enjoy the day with your gorgeous little ones xx

 

[pops23]

How can they be anti breast feeding? Not cool, it's a wonderful thing to be able to do for your baby, I would be pissed and do it anyway!

Flynn now weighs 10lb! What a little fatty, he's 4 weeks tomorrow and apparently is growing perfectly, not surprised as he's been feeding every two hours lately, it's exhausting so aly I know exactly how you feel!!

Glad to hear Oliver isn't really poorly Kellie, and hope Luke has a wonderful Christmas, and hope izzy has a great time ally!

Sarah, saw the pic of the tree, looks fab! Happy Christmas all! Xxx

 

[Inoue]

Merry Christmas everyone! Enjoy your day with family and a newborn, mine's currently screaming for a bottle - epic!

As tiny Tim would say "God bless us, everyone"



Xxx

 

[Sarahcake]

I can't believe in actually writing this, I feel sick to the very put of my stomach.

Logan does not have meningitis... But he has bleeding on the brain. And the hospital think we have done it. They gathering evidence as we speak to file an abuse claim. Social services are involved and everything and we don't even know Logan's prognosis although it doesn't look as though the bleeding as actually effecting him.

I feel physically sick and were both wrecks. We would never ever harm that boy ever. Please don't mention this on Facebook, our families don't even know yet. I don't know what happens now but it can't be good

 

[Scally]

Oh my god Sarah, I don't even know what to say, oh shit! Shit shit shit!

One, how bad is the bleed on his brain? Where? And what r they doing about it?

Two, huge hugs to them thinking u have done it, what is wrong with these people????? U would never harm a hair on his head! I really hope it is sorted quickly!

Three- could it be caused by his birth, it was so traumatic, maybe they were too rough with him, have they even thought of that???

Oh my god sarah, I can't even begin to imagine what u r going through, if u need ANYTHING please let me know, I don't know where u live but I'm sure I could get there if u needed anything.

I know I have never met u, but I class u as a friend, and I know u would never do anything to your gorgeous baby, u r a great mum xx

 

[ttc_lolly]

Sarah oh god, I can't even begin to imagine what you're going through how is Logan doing? What happens now? I hope you're all ok hun

Ally that is mental you have family members who are actually anti BF I can kind of understand people being uncomfortable around a bfing mother, I don't agree with tgat even though and think if they are so uncomfortable then they should leave the room! I hope xmas wasn't too difficult on you with your family and Poppy growth spurting!

Millie is 1 month old today also happy 1 month to gorgeous little Flynn! Where has the time gone!? We are finally taking her to be registered tomorrow. OH was so busy with work before we've had to hold it off until he was available to come with (we aren't married). She was weighed last Thursday and was 9lbs 10.5oz so im guessing she's now well over 10lbs, my little chunkster

We had a brilliant xmas, the girls were both spoilt by our families and our lovely new house looks like toys r us threw up in it

 

[Sarahcake]

Thank you both anybody that knows me or Neil know that we would never ever harm him. We're just not that kind of people

We don't know much about the bleed itself, they are being pretty cagey with info to us. All we know that it is enough to potentially cause issues, but currently, it isn't effecting him - when he's awake, he is his normal alert self!

I can see why they would assume, but it really bloody sucks to be on the receiving end of that blame

The birth has (funnily enough) been ruled out. That is by far, the biggest trauma his head has received. According to Neil, 2 attempts at suction were made - the first the suction was attached and the doctor pulled hard, and the suction flew off his head taking the dr off his chair! That can't be good for him surely?! And it may be a case of any slight knock may have opened that wound up.

At the moment, all of his Obs are stable and he has still been growing well. He put on 13ozs this week ffs! How is that a sign of neglectful abusive parents?!

Thanks for the support guys, it means a lot to me. I'm not going to spend the night praying to whatever deitys are out there that he is ok xxx

 

[kellie_w]

Oh sarah..... I really dont know what to say. I am devastated for you, have had to read your post over and over as I cannot accept what I read. How the hell can they do this to you?! I only know you from over the Internet but know 100% you would never ever harm logan, its so obvious how he is your world. Im so angry that its just like from before he was even in the world they had it in for you. I wish I could help, I really really do what happens next, and how is logan treated? Please please come on here and talk to us uf you need to. Sending you the biggest hug, and im not religious at all but praying some how that this gets sorted and someone sees sense and sees how you and neil are perfect parents.

Hi lauryn and ally! Hope you both are ok, and your girls are doing ok xxc

 

[Sarahcake]

Thanks Kellie the specialists are in today to look over 'the evidence' and decide how they proceed with treatment. He's lovely and alert this morning, just taken a 140ml feed which is the most he's had in days, he's now asleep on my chest. Got the social services day team round today to take yet another statement from me.

I was hoping I'd wake up this morning and find its all been some horrid cruel dream but sadly not just trying to stay string for our family when honestly, I'm constantly on the edge of a breakdown

 

[Scally]

Surely the evidence points to birth? i cant believe they have ruled that out already.... they are so quick to cover up bad births, i have heard it happen before.

Sarah, you and your hubby and your gorgeous son are in my thoughts, please come on here and rant/talk as much as you want, we will help you stay strong, u r very entitled to lots of tears though! Huge hugs xx

 

[Sarahcake]

Thanks ally

To me and Neil, everything is pointing toward his birth. Not sure if I've already written this, but the first attempt at suction was bodged. The cup was put on, the consultant yanked and the cup flew off with enough force that the consultant practically flew off his chair.

Now we've spoken to a new consultant today, a much more neutral one who is willing to investigate this further. He's been strait and said that there could be fault on our side, but at the same time, it could be to do with the birth.

I asked should he be seeing a neurosurgeon like now, and he said that the surgeon has looked over all the scans and doesn't think he will need surgery for this to go away.

He is being rescanned next week as the results of that can help date the bleed. If the bleed is still there with no change, it means it's an old bleed - so the birth scenario is very likely, if the bleed is rapidly clearing, that means its a new wound. Now the birth could still be a factor, it may have weakened that particular area so that a normally inconsequential knock could be enough to make things bleed as its already weakened.

We just need to wait an see being interviews by social services and the police in half hour and were scared shitless as with them, it's very much guilty until proven innocent will keep you updated x

 

[ttc_lolly]

Oh Sarah I hope the interviews go as well as they possibly can I really don't know what to say. I hope you get some answers soon x

 

[pops23]

Sarah I an absolutely gobsmacked, how could they accuse you of this when all you've done is love and care for your son, I am here for you whenever you need to rant, stay positive that the truth will come out, it has to be the birth, they need to consider that!! Xx

 

[Inoue]

... Im speechless Sarah. I cannot believe they automatically jump and put the blame on you, what a charge to accuse?! Im so so sorry your going through this, I pray the doctors and social put 2+2 together and figure out a plunger on a delicate babies head wouldnt cause trauma if they put mass amount of force it. You have a great case regarding the birth story so calmly speak to the team and put your point across. It wont help but I remember a lady on here who was accused of hurting her son because he had light bruises on his body while in hospital, her and her husband were nearly done for it but they fought back and it ended up being staff who gave the bruises when they were picking him up to roughly.
I hope the bleed on the brain gets sorted, that should be the medical/socials prerogative first off. It must be so scary for you to see, your coping so well hun. Even though all of us on here haven't met you, we know there is no way in hell you would hurt little Logan.

If you ever need to talk/vent, get advice then come and speak to us. There is no judgement here. Your in my thoughts and prayers and I hope this is settled asap so you can get back to being a normal family

Xxxxx

 

[Sarahcake]

Thank you ladies for your support but it breaks my heart to tell you that Logan got taken into the care of social services tonight and we have been banned from the hospital unless we have a supervisor from social services which we have to book in 2 hour slots.

The reasoning behind that, is that his injury couldn't have been sustained by anything we have said - so it's being classed as an 'unexplained injury with clear malicious intent' which sounds vile. It truly is a case of guilty until proven innocent here.

We're working on Neil's dad being able to take him as his carer until both sides have gathered evidence for a court battle over his residency but if he gets discharged before Tuesday, he will be placed directly with foster carers and not Neil's dad.

The most important thing is Logan is stable and they think that the bleed will not require surgery and will dissapear on its own.

The trauma at birth has been ruled out as apparently the injury happened in the last 7 days. We were however catagorically lied too by the dr who said that if the birth caused him problems, they would have absolutely have dissapeared by the time he was 4 weeks old - that is a lie, they can remain undetected for months, even years.

Right now, Neil's dad has consulted with a paediatric nurse friend of his who is typing out an email to the tip neurosurgeon at great ormand street hospital asking for a second opinion - something of which we are entitled to ask for. We are on the solicitor hunt as of Monday. I'm requesting all of my medical records and details of the birth which I will sit and go through, highlighting and annotating each and ever part I feel is significant. We arnt giving up and if thy don't think they have a fight in their hands, well they are just stupid.

I'm at home now after refusing to go back there and it feels horrible without him. Sleeping in the front room as I can't take the sight of his empty Moses basket and changing table right now. this is the worst pain imaginable.

 

[Scally]

Oh my god I am so sorry to hear that Sarah, it must be horrible being at home without him. I really hope Neils dad can take him as a carer until they realise they have made a terrible mistake accusing you both.
Have the said again about re-scanning him next week to see how it is doing? (whether its gone or still there)
I just dont know what to say, i am so so so sorry, if u need anything please let us know x