IVF Cycle #1 - Anyone else?

[Mrs B.]

I have everything crossed for you yearning!! I hope you get a positive on Thursday!

buny, that's so exciting! Will you be able to see much on the u/s this early on? I assume baby will look rather blob-like!

pbl - is it actual bcp they give you *shudders* I hate what bcp did to my body - messed my cycle up for about 18 months! Oh well, must do what the docs say. How you getting on?

AFM - I'm doing ok (apart from AF being here so I'm in pain and rather grumpy... but otherwise ok!). Got my consultant appointment on Monday, where I hear they like to take pints of blood and run lots of tests! I'm expecting everything to come back normal (as I've already had the tests previously) and then I'm assuming the whole process starts at the beginning of the next cycle? Scary! Unfortunately, as AF has just arrived, I'm going to have to wait until mid-Oct for my next cycle to start

 

[YearningHeart]

Mrs.B - Awwww dont worry I know the period pain sucks but that phase will be over soon. Ohhhh Best of luck with you!!! Let us know how your Mondays appointment goes

AFM - I had the shock of my life. I had brown spotting in the afternoon followed by light pink spotting, after few hours I had very bad cramps, it was like killer period pain I had to take pain killers for it. The spotting turned into blood. I was bleeding!!! It is very light red and its a little with the very bad cramps. When I saw it I felt like bursting into tears but held it in until I told DH then my tears just came. Im so worried now, I just spoke to the nurse (I called them because I was scared and in pain) and she said it is either implantation or AF is coming! My beta test is on Thursday. I hope its not AF. I feel so miserable now and it feels like its the end

 

[pbl_ge]

Yearning, Lots of women bleed when pregnant, so it may not spell the end. Remember there are women who don't know they're pregnant because they get something like a period! Ditto on the cramps. You just don't know until the beta test. We're rooting for you, and hope it's implantation bleeding!

 

[bunyhuny]

Yearning- I had bright red bleeding with TERRIBLE cramps on 7dp5dt and pink the next day. I also had some spotting a couple nights ago (12dp5dt?) when I had a BM. Doctor told me not to worry, that it can be totally normal.

 

[StorkStalker]

Hello everyone.. I hope I am not late to the thread.. I am also on my 1st IVF round after what seems the Longest Time TTC (5 yrs), 2 BFP: 1 mc at week 7 4 yrs ago, 1 laparoscopy for fibrome removal and 1 ectopic with tube removal last april.. I am very scared (and scarred).. Today was the second ultrasound and last time the technician said I had no right ovary (after the tubal removal because of the ectopic) and today he says he sees one and that it has many follicles growing, as well as in the left.. I am on the long protocol, and today will be day 8 of gonal F 150 dose.. Follicles range from 12mm to 21... I don´t know what to expect.. I thought I had lost my right ovary with the tubal removal.. My doctor is very criptic and also the language and cultural barrier is no help, we live in France due to DH´s work, and our 1st language is Spanish, 2nd English, and French is not going great.. So it´s been a roller coaster with everything...

I have been away from B&B for almost 2 years bc I was so depressed I couldn´t even read posts in the LTTTC board anymore.. but none of my friends gets it bc most of them are on their 3rd or 4th baby... Or very early into TTC so still not feeling the angst..

I hope everyone´s IVF goes great.. I wish everyone a BFP at the end... For me I wish I could get a BFP or at least some embryos that can be frozen...

Also, my hair is falling like crazy.. is this because of stress or is it Gonal F??

Thank you all and good luck..

xoxo

 

[YearningHeart]

pbl/buny - Thanks for the support I think I just over reacted lol
The cramps have reduced a lot Its very minor now as well as the bleeding. I had very small blood clots last night and tiny this morning. I hope its nothing serious. Buny: Did you get blood clots?
Anyhow I do feel much better and I feel dumb the way I acted yesterday. I just have to pass time today and tomorrow first thing in the morning Im at the blood test clinic.
How are you both doing? Hows your BCP going pbl?

StorkStalker - Heyyy how are you? Hey dont stress! (I know thats rich coming from me) but seriously stress does not good. Its exciting process! Your on day 8 of Gonal F not long left. The injection phase does pass quick, when I was on the injection phase it seemed forever but now I think it went fast.
I know coming on B&B sometimes can be depressing especially when things arent working out, but we are here to support you. When I feel down I force myself to come and then I feel so much happier. I dont share my story/feelings or even details of my IVF to anyone other than my DH. Yeah few people know but thats only like Im doing IVF. So coming here for me helps a lot, its nice to share stories and realise that you are not on the boat alone
I wish you all the best and I hope you too get a BFP without a complication. Hope its a good time for all of us!

 

[Mrs B.]

Stork - Welcome! If I had to guess, I'd say the hair loss might be a stress thing... I can't imagine trying to speak with doctors in a third language!! Good luck!! to you x

Yearning... so glad you're feeling a bit better and the cramps and bleeding have reduced now. Don't feel bothered about the way you reacted - it's natural!! You're obviously going to be worried about bleeding and cramps right now. But the others are right - it doesn't necessarily mean anything bad at all. The fact that the cramps and bleeding have lessened suggests its actually a very positive sign!!! FX for you!!! I hope we will be hearing good news from you very soon!! xx

 

[pbl_ge]

Buny, I'll have everything crossed for you on Friday! Let us know!

Yearning, no AF yet is a really good sign! Will be stalking tomorrow between meetings for your news!

Stork, I'm sorry your TTC journey has been so rough. I definitely understand having to stay away from BnB. It can be a real double-edged sword. Right now I'm re-evaluating how I interact with it and other TTC ladies, too. I've never heard of hair falling out, but have you searched for Gonal-F side effects? It might be one of them. FX it isn't too bad. Do you know when ER will be yet? Hoping for you!

Mrs.B, is waiting another cycle a good or bad thing? Are you taking super good care of yourself to increase egg quality and all that? I've been glad to have the extra time for that purpose. Hope the waiting is okay for you.

AFM, CD1 today, so I start the BCP on Saturday. Here we go!

 

[YearningHeart]

Stork - Like Mrs.B mentioned that hair loss could be due to stress, that reminds me someone I know she also was going through LTTTC and due to stress she did loose hair, make a trip to the doctors to check just to be sure and take lots of rest and keep yourself busy so you dont have time for stress. xx

pbl - I will find out tomorrow at 3:00 in the afternoon and Il post then. My bleeding has come back again, it comes and goes but I dont feel the stress, I just came home from outside, I spent some time with friends so today seems like it is going fast. After my blood test I have booked myself with things to do so the wait does not kill me. Anyways enough of me!!

Yaaaayyy Im really excited for you! It is exciting to start the pills!! I was also on BCP. How long you going to be taking them? Trust me it will pass so fast. Take it easy and enjoy! Hope it all works out for you! xx

 

[bunyhuny]

YearningHeart- Hey hunny. I can't remember if I had any clots or not. I don't think I did... ??? I remember it being bright red that night and then pink the next day, but I was freaking out so much I don't really remember any more than that.

 

[YearningHeart]

buny - Thanks for the reply. The clots have more aless gone, now its just bleeding with cramps. I guess if I get a BFN it wont be that much of a shock as I am mentally getting prepared for the worst. Curiosity kills.

 

[Mrs B.]

pbl - another month waiting for me isn't good, but it's not the end of the world. I've been taking good care of myself and doing everything I can to have good quality eggs from the beginning so there isn't anything else I can do. It just means another month to wait, and another painful period! However, I do work at a Uni and the students are back soon... and with the students comes lots of germs! Yum. So at least I should be able to get any colds etc out the way before the real ivf stuff starts. They may well start me on BC right away... I get the impression that can start at any time in your cycle?

Yearning - FX you get good news today!!

 

[YearningHeart]

Thanks Mrs.B, I just had the blood test. I will post when I get the result. I am so nervous. I cant think and I have no feeling of if I am preggy or not. I feel 50/50

xxx

 

[YearningHeart]

Hi ladies, I just got my results - a BFN

I guess I kind of expected it as my bleeding increased a lot this morning and I had blood clots. Im just so so gutted!

I wish you guys all the best!!! I hope you guys see a BFP and those who got a BFP, I hope you have a happy and healthy 9 months. Thank you soo much for your kind words and support it meant the world to me.

Love you all! xxx

 

[pbl_ge]

Oh, Yearning. I have no words. Take very very good care of yourself now.

 

[Mrs B.]

I'm so so sorry yearning Will you be trying another cycle of ivf? xxx

 

[bunyhuny]

Oh! So, so sorry Yearning.

*Update* Temp dropped today and I have had spotting and cramps all day. Doctor says to be prepared for a miscarriage. I'll go in and have another beta tomorrow, but spotting seems to be getting heavier so not feeling hopeful. Doesn't look good, ladies.

 

[YearningHeart]

Omg Noooooo huny i hope its not a misscarriage. No no no, Im praying for you sweetheart. Dont let it get to you. Stay strong! Keep us updated. I hope we dont hear bad news. Wishing you the best!! Xx

Im feeling much better, DH is taking me out for a posh dinner. My mind feels fine much better than I expected.I do want to start another IVF cycle, I just dont know if Im ready right now. These injections and medicine was a pressue mentally but lets see. Tomorrow Im going to speak to the nurse, their going tl book an appointment for me and we will see from there. It would be a massive miracle but I really hope I can get a BFP naturally before next IVF cycle.
Thanks ladies for your lovely messages. Xxxxx

 

[bunyhuny]

 

[pbl_ge]

Oh! So, so sorry Yearning.

*Update* Temp dropped today and I have had spotting and cramps all day. Doctor says to be prepared for a miscarriage. I'll go in and have another beta tomorrow, but spotting seems to be getting heavier so not feeling hopeful. Doesn't look good, ladies.

NOOOOOOO!!!! Don't give up yet! Will be praying for good news.