IVF until we all get our bfp! 2012-present *13 w/twins & 1 w/triplets!*

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Well ladies......we have a BFP!!!! Just did a FRER and got a pretty dark line! I also took a ept which you had to do a squint to see the line, but just as long as the FRER was dark, I will consider it a positive!
Will do another with FMU in the am!
 
Hi everyone!! Sorry I have not been on as much as I would like but trying to adjust and get a routine! I have not gotten much sleep so that doesn't help and Dylan is more needy and always wants to be held. My family is now gone and note getting much helps from DH.

Mo - I am sooooo happy for you!! What a great pic :)

Woohoo stinas :) when is your beta?

Angie - how are you feeling!?

Az - Dawson is so adorable and he will do great during his surgeries!! You are so strong and you have so much support here ;)

Hi Jenn, Lindsay, bubu, getting, MrsC, sekky and everyone else!!!
 
Mo - Thanks!! I am curious to see as well! I guess my beta will give us a hint. We shall see! I hope so, but at this point I dont mind just as long as it sticks and is healthy!

Michelle - Hes a cutie!!!
 
Yay Stinas - great news! Can't wait for your numbers on Thursday! :hugs:

Notopt ... not heard much from you - how are you and your little girl?

Michelle - how come DH isn't helping much? I'd have thought, being the second time round, that he would know what to expect and would want to support you (having a toddler as well)?
 
Congrats Stinas <3

Hi Mrs C....Im hanging in there...I had surgery to remove some placenta that was left behind and of course my infamous polyps I like to grow....other than that Im good thanks for asking <3 love all the pictures of the girls...cant believe how big they have grown :-)

Hi everyone.....I do think of all of you even though Im not writing much....but I do read and pray for each and everyone one of you <3 xoxoxo
 
Wooohoo!! congratulations Stinas!! When is your beta. I hope its twins .

Thanks Mo and Stinas . I feel comforted with your replies. I had an appointment yesterday and really felt fine. It was only late in the evening changes started showing up. My next scheduled appointment is on Thursday but I would go in tomorrow and then ask to be monitored more frequently. I would have liked to go in today, but DH had to travel out of city for work and I don't have a car. So tomorrow it will be.

I have been tested for the usual stuff they do for recurrent pregnancy loss and found nothing. Is there anything in particular I could ask, because if it doesn't happen this time too, I sure need some answers. Please give me some ideas. I have had a chemical pregnancy EVERY time. So There sure has to be a reason why the embie doesn't like to stick in there and I do want to know.

Are there any things I could ask to be monitored after the embryo transfer. These are the medications I would be on after the ET. I have been on all of them except the VitK in earlier cycles.

Predinoslone (excuse spelling mistakes)
Progesterone suppositories 2x daily
folic acic 5 mg
Metformin 500mg 3x
Aspirin
Vit K 50000IU once weekly (did not use in earlier cycles)
Omega 3 once daily
Enoxaparin injections daily.

My progesterone levels have not been tested. RE says suppositories are usually well absorbed so there is no need to worry. And is there a need to test Estrogen levels in the tww. I have read something about leptin levels and something to do with implantation. Has anyone got any idea on it. Me and DH do not have any chromosomal abnormalities or auto immune disease.
 
Yay officially on here Stinas :)!!!!! I'm so excited!!!!

Honey- fingers crossed that you don't go through that again girl!!!

Michelle- that sucks about the sleep and lack of help from DH. Why isn't he pulling his weight more??? Exactly- it's the second time around...

Hi Kath- xoxo

Hi everyone else!! AFM- Reiken is now 4 months old. He's doing so great! Shots are tomorrow :( and we are getting ready for our trip to Florida next week to see my aunt and cousins. School starts next week but I have an additional 6 weeks of maternity leave that I have left thank goodness lol!!! I do NOT want to go back... Ever lol. Hope everyone else is great:). It's 3:30am right now and Reiken decided he was hungry (usually sleeps through the night now). This is DH's shift but I'm wide awake lol. Figured I'd write to you:) xoxo
 
Az - good luck with your little man's surgery. I had no idea it took so many surgeries to get it all right. I hope he forgets them all when he grows up.

Mo- thats a super cute scan pic.

Linds - Good luck with the shots and have a great time in FLorida. Lucky you have more time off of work.

bubu - I just read your long post about your SIL. I totally understand how some women can be jerks. And about wanting to give someone the gift of "grandma" and "grandpa" , I am totally with you on that. It has been like my wish/ dream too. None of my parents or DH's parents are grandparents yet, but I guess there could be a pregnancy announcement in the family from my SIL or sister any day and I am dreading that day more than I should. I pray that our struggles end soon and we will all live our dreams soon. I hope you get a Christmas BFP or sooner if you make any change of plans.


Sometimes I just feel it is stupid to get my hopes up every time for every new cycle, but I cant help it and then I feel broken at the end of it. It has been 3 cycles of IVF/FET and 2 earlier chem pregnancies that didn't work for us. This time , it is not even ER yet and I am trying to prepare myself to face a loss again. Believe me , I am not getting better at it, I just suck at coping with the loss. On Sep 9th, it is going to be 2 years since we lost our first little one. I can never forget all the blood that was in my bedroom and bathroom that day. Late into the night before that day, I got very hungry in the middle of the night and DH was so sweet, he went into the kitchen and cooked a full meal for us. It was the last meal I ate for my little one. 2 years since , it is not so hard to think about that day, but it sure is impossible to forget.
 
Honey - I am so sorry for what you have been going through and I pray this is your cycle!! Having to go through this multiple times isn't fair. :hugs:

Kathy - now that you had the surgery, what is the next steps for you??

Lindsay - I cannot wait till Dylan's sleeping through the night; I have only gotten one 5.5 hour stretch of sleep! And I get the never wanting to go back to work; it's hard even thinking about going back!

As for DH I keep hearing that I am not working right now so he should get to sleep. And he says he doesn't so infant diapers....wth!?!? And earlier I really lost it with him cause I was gone all day, dr appt and stopped at my work with the boys, then the store, came home took care of the dogs, got the boys taken care of; he came home and bitched that there was a load of laundry I didn't get to in the dryer. That was it I couldn't contain myself; I swear I could have just killed him :(. I feel talking to him at this point is just a waste of time cause it won't change anything.
 
Honey - I think that your follies and levels sound OK for 7th day of stimming... they aren't that big and maybe not all of them will continue to develop. In my February cycle, I had 1.721 pg/ml E2 in my blood test. That was on the morning of my 9th day of stimming - I triggered the next night. (OK - it was also the cycle where they retrieved 23 eggs, 18 of which were mature) - the other cycle, my E2 has been around 1.400 the day before trigger (with 12-14 eggs retrieved).

I also totally get you, getting your hopes up ... and then feeling broken when it doesn't work. But I do think it is important for us to believe and to keep hoping. This time round, the nurses were telling me to think and feel positive and I did. I really think we should try to stay positive and keep hoping (as my friend once said, have "Mummy Karma") ... and if it doesn't work, then we have to deal with it if and when it happens.... and it doesn't get easier, sadly. Weirdly enough, ER itself isn't that bad, and with each time, I get into a bigger and bigger panic about it (hate needles, hate IVs ...) - nonsensical really. I guess the fear just builds up, because we have had so many negative experiences... I am so so sorry that you had to go through that 2 years ago :( ... and I have no doubt that it is a memory you will sadly always carry with you. Even when the transfer works, you get your BFP, and you have your LO in your arms - you will still remember Nr. 1 ... and you will miss him/her ...

But for your new baby's sake (and there will be one!!), try to stay positive, get the positive vibes going inside you ... allow the fear to be there, but don't let it consume you (hah, I'm one to talk!). Maybe, by September 9th this year, you will have a BFP to be happy about... maybe it is even your LO from two years ago making another attempt to come to you ... :hugs::flower:
 
Bubu- What gets me worried is that in my last stimming cycle, I just kept growing small follies and just loads of small ones. When my Gonal F was upped a little to get them to mature, E2 levels shot up too high, I believe they went up to 18000 at ER and then up to 21000 a little later. That really was really scary. Then my hematocrit values were up to 45 % and I really felt I was going to die. It made me so sick and felt the life sucked out of me. Trying to be as careful as we can. We need the follicles to grow now and I hope they do.

haha..look who is talking! Bubu, that what we are here for. To talk for each other and be the pillar of support for one another. We are done grieving the first baby and we have come to accept her (we like to think of baby No 1 as a "her" ) as a part of family. Something like a child who has grown up and lives on her own, if that makes any sense. She is part of our daily conversations and part of our life, only we haven't ever met her.
 
Wow! 21000 e2 levels! I hope they don't shoot up that much. I think you're on the right path though and they are doing the right thing cutting meds back.
 
I see - well I really hope that your doctor's can help tomorrow and calm your nerves! I had mild OHSS in February and know how crappy that was - I remember yours last year and can't imagine how that must have felt!

What did you name her? I think the idea is nice - she is a part of your family, is a part of you and just didn't get to live with you!
 
Honey and Bubu- my heart aches for you and what you've been through. You are so so strong!!!

Michelle- I want to back hand him myself! He doesn't do infant diapers?!! What if u said that? He would wear a diaper until he's 1? Lol or live life naked?? So stupid. Even if talking to him seems like a waste, maybe getting your point across would still be a good idea so it's at least not a secret to him. He can't plead ignorance then. Xoxo wish I could help :(
 
Honey - I am so sorry for what you have been going through and I pray this is your cycle!! Having to go through this multiple times isn't fair. :hugs:

Kathy - now that you had the surgery, what is the next steps for you??

Lindsay - I cannot wait till Dylan's sleeping through the night; I have only gotten one 5.5 hour stretch of sleep! And I get the never wanting to go back to work; it's hard even thinking about going back!

As for DH I keep hearing that I am not working right now so he should get to sleep. And he says he doesn't so infant diapers....wth!?!? And earlier I really lost it with him cause I was gone all day, dr appt and stopped at my work with the boys, then the store, came home took care of the dogs, got the boys taken care of; he came home and bitched that there was a load of laundry I didn't get to in the dryer. That was it I couldn't contain myself; I swear I could have just killed him :(. I feel talking to him at this point is just a waste of time cause it won't change anything.


Hi Michelle ....I go for my post op on the 6th....should have all instructions by then. Since all recurring bloodwork came back normal....they better come up with something because Im not sure I can go through that again. I read that taking Metformin thru pregnancy can increase chances of maintaining the pregnancy....I spoke with my obgyn and he was kind of pissed that they made me stop as soon as I got my bfp especially after stopping from the first time and then the misscarriage happened.....the second time I wasnt taking the metformin and didnt get pregnant.....the third they made me stop and we all know what happened there....I told my nurse before stopping but she said there is no need to take them now....obgyn said if I have any pushback to give him a call he wants to speak to them asap :-) glad I have him on my side <3

Tell DH to put his big boy undies on and get the stepping....no need for you to ask him to help...both of you made that gorgeous baby...he can help!!! Im sorry that you are feeling frustrated....I wish I could be closer I would love to help <3 :hugs:
 
Stinas: Congrats!!!!! :happydance: Can't wait to hear your beta!!! FX that it is twins for you.

Honey: I hope the OHSS stays away. Sounds like you have lots of great follies and hopefully some great mature eggs.

Anmlz: Can't wait to hear when your ER is, must be close! Good Luck!!!! Hope you get lots of mature eggs too!

Michelle: Sorry to hear you're part of the rotten DH club! Sounds like your DH and mine were cut from the same cloth. :( Mine won't do poopy diapers, he'd let them sit in it before he'd change them. I lost it on him about it telling him that was neglect. I agree the talking to him thing probably won't work I've done it several times and it only improves things for a short period. :hugs:

Lindsay: Still so jealous of Reiken with the STTN, I long for the day when I wake up and it is morning. When do you leave for your trip? Good luck with the flying I hope it goes smoothly.

Kathy: Sorry you had to have surgery again to remove polyps. When can you start again?
 
Michelle your dh sounds like he's a real PITA... I'd have it out with DH if he ever said any of that to me. And about changing diapers well he is in this just as much as you! I can't believe men are actually like this. I don't think my DH would be because he is already eating to do everything for me and gets up early already for our pups.

Kathy all my tests were normal as well. As far at the metformin: my friend was on it and it was stopped soon after her bfp from Iui as the re said she didn't need it anymore. So I don't think that's to blame for the mc. It's frustrating to not have answers. Sorry about having to have polyp removed; now the environment should be perfect in there.
 
Hi Jenn.....not sure when I will be able to start....hopefully they'll tell me on the sixth....

Mo....from the way my obgyn was saying if they can't find a reason and they are not going to do anything different what makes them think it will not happen again........everything is normal but a soon as I stop the metformin I begin to bleed and then a couple of weeks later I lose the baby. The fact that I didn't take the metformin during the second transfer and didn't get pregnant but both times that I did is the reason why he wants me to continue it.....especially because of my pcos.
 
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