Hey Ladies.
First off let me apologize for not being around since my LO was born.
Second let me say thank you to those who sent me messages checking up on me.. I appreciate it!!!
Let me TRY to update you all, sorry if it's long I'll try to keep it short.
So I had my Daughter Cianna (SEA ON NA) Alicia January 28th, weighing 8lbs even after 25 long hours of labor. She failed her hearing test and hubby and I were so scared and worried. I went home the following day and things were great despite the hearing issue. A few days later I had it extremely bad, I would look at Cianna and just start crying, I didn't eat for 2 days, she wasn't latching on for breast feeding and I was just a mess. I felt horrible looking at this beautiful baby and knowing that she may not be able to hear anything.
Well the next day I started to feel better, still worried but I had to shake myself from the way I was feeling because I didn't want to become depressed. Hubby stayed in Atlanta with me for a little over a week then HE had to leave for NY to work. I was fine all the way to the airport but the moment he opened up the back door to kiss Cianna goodbye I broke down crying. I couldn't move I just had tears flowing down my face. Since we fly for free and on standby I waited at another spot in the airport until he gave me the OKAY to leave (meaning he's actually on the plane) at that spot I cried and cried some more.
From the airport i went over to my parents house whom I adore and of course they were estatic to have Cianna staying with them. Every single day I turn the camera on my laptop on so that Hubby can see his daughter and just talk to her, so she can remember his voice. Now I'm leaving my parents house on Friday because it seems like Cianna has about 15 mothers and 8 fathers none of which is myself and hubby. And they have her so spoiled already so now when she cries she actually screams bloody murder.
The breast feeding has gotten a bit better but still not great, I TRY to breast feed her twice a day and the rest of the day she gets bottle fed, she is super greedy and it's ALL in her face (the weight)
Anyway I have not scheduled her hearing test due to some insurance issues. My jobs insurance actually took care of my delivery but I also have medicaid and I'm waiting on medicaid to send me a letter or a new card with HER info on it so that I can make the appointment because apparently I can't make the appointment unless I have some reference code which is associated with the insurance. Her hearing has since seem to improve, I now find myself being more quiet when she's asleep because it seems like she now hears when the door slams or when my cell phone rings. So I have high hopes that she is not deaf and that it was indeed the fluids.
Her 2nd doctors appointment is March 1st and March 6th is her 1st plane ride, we have to go to NY to spend time with Daddy, I am missing him so much and he is missing his daughter severly.
This little girl wakes up every 2/3 hours at night for a feeding by the time I fall back to sleep she is up again, so sleep has become my best friend whenever she's down. She's a night owl and I'm not lol.
Anyway this is long enough, thank you for reading, and thank you ladies of BNB for caring, I truly LOVE this site and you ladies as well.
Here are some pics of my chunky baby lol.
The first and last picture is from yesterday and valentines.