hi all sorry if this has been repeated but I am doing this on my phone so its difficult to read through all the posts on here. Anyway firstly, as its been a while since I have been on here, hope everyone and theirs bumps r all ok??
ok so some advice from anyone that has experienced prenatel depression would be greatfully appreciated but just to give u all some background of things going on in my head, mainly to get it out there as I havent been able to really talk to anyone about it.
so, for the past few weeks, I have been having extremely emotionally, exhusting days. When I went to the drs about my sciatica, he asked me how the pregnancy was going and I burst into tears and told him that it had been happening alot and the past seems to be coming back to haunt me.
i havent had things bad growing up, however, both me and hubby being from broken homes and his parents and my father not being the most supportive whilst growing up or during their first grandchild pregnancy, it has left me feeling really low about what will happen with our child if it happened to us.
i am finding it a struggle to get out of bed in the morning and the thought of going back to work for someone that I was friends with for 20 years that has had no interest in me or my pregnancy from the start, making my life harder by cutting my hours and telling me that i could be made redundant a few weeks ago, they then put me back to full time when it suited them as they were on holiday but since getting sciatica and having an hour drive each way and a desk job making my back worse I have been signed off for the past 2 weeks. this so called friend of mine hasnt once asked how i am, their only concern is when i am going back to work. this is also the same girl that yeasrs ago, watched me get beaten up at 13 by a 17 year old and walked away refusing to grass this girl up, ok so she may have been scared, but to not even come round to see me in hospital or at home or to phone to ask how i was dug deep in my soul and hurt more than the cuts and bruises i was left with.
i have had previous pregnancies that didnt work out, first which resulted in a miscarriage after my abusive ex boyfriend decided that he would kick me in the stomach through a door then with my husband now, falling 2 weeks after we met and not too long after i had that miscarriage, emotionally neither of us were ready to have a child together after everything that had gone on before we met and not knowing each other more than 5 minutes, we made the tough decision of having an abortion. which to this day, i regret it and think about how things could have been if we hadnt have gone through with it.
this pregnacy was planned and although i am excited and we r both looking forward to meeting him/her, i still cant help feeling down about what kind of life i can give them.
im sure all these things are completely normal emotions and i probably sound pathetic and have nothing to feel bad about compared to how rough other people may have been through but how do i get back on my feet? im scared to go back to work and keep my cool as the thought of how this so called friend has treated me makes me want to rip her head off, with my serious anger issues at the moment, my hubby must often wonder how he puts up with me.
sorry for the long rant, i feel better just getting it all written down but anyone going through or coming out of similar feelings with any tips of picking myself up to face the world again will be much appreciated.
thanks all xxxx
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daisy. My thoughts are with you! I hope you can keep those babies in there for as long as possible!!
Hi ladies.
and due 28 January!
I get terrible pains in my cervix but it's baby A, I saw her on the ultrasound doing it when I felt the pain. But pressure..I would be a little nervous about that. Call midwife
though I'm sure this is a temporary blip.
