Oh Lock, I understand x I had to talk to my OB about not feeling 'connected' to this baby at one point. With us moving countries (today!) all my energy has gone into that and I sometimes feel guilty for not focusing on the baby. And to be honest, when i found out I was pregnant (planned but happened a lot quicker than exoected) I wasn't excited. Just scared and annoyed I'd have to go through the roller coaster of pregnancy again. The way I see it is when baby Claire arrives it will be such a joy and you will be so in love you won't remember this tough time. Like a birthday party without all the hype before! It must be so hard having marital issues while pregnant, I know when I'm pregnant our marriage is certainly tested at times. It's hard! Sending you lots of xx