Jessie's Journey

[jessieles]

So this is going to be a looooong entry!

I had a lovely Christmas and New Year, I was actually dreading it but it was a really lovely time. I booked myself a counselling session on 20th Jan, and thought I'll go and see someone professional and maybe they can help me cope better with everything. I got my head around the lap and dye and was all set for 27th January.

Then yesterday, I thought to myself, its weird how I havent started spotting yet, because af was due yesterday. So I thought I'll go and get a test, pointless but I'll do it and then I can cry it out and move on.
So there I am sat on the loo thinking what a waste of time and the words.....

PREGNANT

came up on the test!!!!!

I nearly passed out, so 4 tests later and 4 very strong BFP's!!!

I cannot believe it.

We bd about 4 times the entire month, I stopped any vitamins, no clomid, and I have drunk my way through Christmas!!

Obviously we all know, things can go wrong and im feeling very cautious but omg my 1st bfp since last March!!

I'll upload pics now xxx

 

[Babylove100]

Oh wow!!!!!!! This is amazing news hun!!! I am so friggin happy for you!!!!!!!!!

 

[jessieles]

pics attached x

 

[jessieles]

Thanks Babylove- It hasnt sunk in yet, I just really hope it sticks!!

 

[Babylove100]

Got everything crossed for you and sending you super sticky vibes!!!!!

 

[jessieles]

Thanku!!! xxxxxxx

 

[Pickletilly]

I have a million happy tears for you flowing right now! Best new year news ever! So excited for you, this will be one sticky bean xxxxxxxxxx

 

[TinyLynne]

Yes Jess!!!!! What a perfect holiday for you!!! I'm so so so excited for you!!! Of course it happens when you stop really trying! Life is funny sometimes! Fingers crossed that all goes perfectly for you!!

 

[Teeny Weeny]

I have goosebumps! I am so so so happy for you. The biggest congratulations ever. I will keep you in my thoughts for a very sticky bean. What fab news to start the year. Xxx

 

[fairyy]

I am speechless and I have teary eyes.
The best news of this New Year. Wow hun you really deserve this. I am so glad that it happened this way and you don't have to go through all those processes.

What an awesome start to this New Year. I have no doubt that this will be your sticky baby. Loads of I am so very happy Jess.

 

[mirandaprice]

OMG yay!

I'm so excited to see this news! Keeping everything crossed for a very sticky take home baby!

 

[jessieles]

Thank you all!!

Still cant get my head around it all!

Ive done another 2 tests ooops, i think ill be like this for a while haha.

Youve all been amazin support!! xxxxxxxxxxx

 

[Teeny Weeny]

You'll be testing for weeks yet Jessie! ;-)
It really is such brilliant news. I am genuinely over the moon for you. Xx

 

[jessieles]

Thanks Teeny- how are you doing? xx

 

[TinyLynne]

When will you go for a scan?? Do you have any appointments set up yet??

 

[jessieles]

Well, Ive emailed 3 people so far and no-one is replying. grrr. Ive emailed my obgyn, her secretary and her ex secretary as she was helpful las time.

Ill have an early scan but this time i want to wait til 7-8 weeks, when i went last time at 6 weeks i found it too stressful because they couldnt see anything and said it may be to early etc.

I feel way to cautious to be excited at the moment. altho my bfps are quite strong. but saying that they were last time, i just hope 2 blighted ovums in a row is unlikely!

 

[jessieles]

todays test

 

[Teeny Weeny]

I'm good Thanks honey. I've been super worried about a 2nd miscarriage but as the weeks pass I'm getting better. I have a scan next week which will hopefully ease my mind a little more.

I think a scan a little further along is best. If everything is okay at 8 weeks, the risk of miscarriage etc is so much lost and will give peace of mind.
I'm sure that this will be your rainbow baby. The tests look awesome.
What month are you due? Xx

 

[jessieles]

According to babyweb im due 14th September. Eeek.

I know, and google doesnt help when your worrying! Just still crampy at the mo!

Have you felt ok throughout? xx

 

[TinyLynne]

You have a fantastic plan! And those lines are great!!!