Hey ladies. Haven't been on here for a few days as have been letting it all sink in. I really need some advice though...
I'm making myself ill with worry. I know it's normal to worry about miscarriage in first trimester, but I think my anxiety levels are out of control. I can't stop myself from buying tests and agonizing over whether the line is getting darker. I'm spending hours and hours googling miscarriage stats and reading posts from the poor ladies that have had them. I feel like I'm going to go insane.
I thought going to the doctor would help, but she didn't even do a urine or blood test to confirm. I don't get to see the midwife until 8 weeks (i'm only 4+2 now) and even then, I don't think they actually do anything to confirm, like a scan, or listen to heartbeat.
I can't go on like this for another 2 months waiting for the first scan. I'm terrified I'll get there and they won't see a baby. I know these are all normal fears to have, but it's taking over my life. I can't concentrate at work at all. I don't have many (if any) symptoms which isn't helping the worry.
I found out my SIL is also pregnant and we're due the same day, which is the most amazing news ever. She's so calm and happy, I wish I could be the same. We knew we were both trying and were hoping so much to get pregnant the same month, but conceiving on the same day (we both got pos opk the same day!) feels like winning the lottery TWICE. Now I feel like for us both to have good outcomes will be like needing to win the lottery a third time... impossible.
What's wrong with me? I'm desperate for some advice
I'm extremely lucky to be pregnant, so I feel awful that I'm not enjoying it.