June Baby Angels

[angel2010]

Meli, beautiful picture, and you are right 2013 will be our year!!! As for my last cycle, we weren't trying yet so missing o was no biggie. I was just very shocked at how short my cycle was.

Jennc, I am sure no know is bothered by your religious talk. If it helps you, then feel free. I hope that Feb is your month!

Jenk, Congrats on the new job! I will keep my fingers crossed for you this cycle, but if you get af I will be right there with you next cycle.

I know a few of us had a really light first af, I wanted to let you all know that my second one was not light. Not bad or anything, but if you were worried about your linings, I wouldn't be. Although the cramps aren't bad, I am pretty sure it is actually heavier than normal. Nothing else going on here, waiting for af to stop and debating in my mind whether to buy some cheapie okps or try a more ntnp this cycle. If we don't try or get it this cycle, we will wait until April to try again. It sounds silly, but I really don't want a Thanksgiving or Christmas baby.

 

[vegasbaby]

So I totally wrote this whole post that I thought posted yesterday, yet I don't see it. Strange. Anyway......

Jenn: You say whatever you want on here. I am happy to hear about religious things as it means that there is an afterlife where our babies are happy and healthy and that one day we will be able to meet them.

Meli: What a beautiful rainbow and symbol for us all.

Jenk: Hooray for the new job!

Angel: I feel the same way about not wanting to have a baby around a major holiday. I even think that my dd's b-day is too close to the holidays and she was born mid-February. Of course this means I would have to wait until June to try for anything later than her b-day (she was supposed to be a March baby).

AFM: Fertility friend has finally confirmed that I O'd on Thursday. I am now on CD 47, and expect af somewhere around the first day of my new job (of course). Anyone doing anything fun this weekend? We're not.

 

[StefNJunk]

Stef - I am so excited for you about the house!! When will you move in?? I am sorry that you think you missed your o this month. I have never really had any success with opk's myself. This month I got a bunch of almost positives and it went white. I don't know if I just missed the positive or if I just didn't o. Not knowing is very frustrating!!

Some good news. I got a new job yesterday. I start Monday. Its part time but it is in my field. I was laid off back in June so I have been off for awhile. I am quite excited to get back to work. New year, new job, next step.....new baby!! I agree with Meli - 2013 will be our year!!

We close on the 31st, so we'll be starting moving everything after that. We have the house we're renting until the end of February, so that gives us time to get some of the work done we need to do first. And not knowing is VERY frustrating! OPKs worked great for me last time, but this time the same brand looks different, and I'm wondering if they're a bad batch because the control line was even very light every time. Congrats on the new job! I'm looking for one myself, since the new house is an hour drive from mine and I don't make it enough for that to be worth it!

Meli, great pic and great thought. This WILL be our year.

So completely unexpected and it may be nothing, but I TOTALLY had EWCM yesterday. Was I wrong about o'ing earlier? Maybe? I didn't get any more OPKs, so I'm not sure. If this EWCM isn't lying, there may still be a chance this month since we got to bd last night. Trying not to over think it or get my hopes up too much!

EDIT >> Completely forgot to mention that Thursday night I had a dream that I had a blazingly positive OPK result, so the EWCM on Friday was even more surprising.

 

[Middysquidge]

Hi Everyone, feels like ages since I've had the chance to catch up with you all but I've been popping in to read your messages, it seems I have a lot less time when OH is away! He's back now though, sleeping on the sofa, jet lag, bless him!

Meli - I bet the spotting is nothing to worry about hun. Probably just your cycles getting back to normal. I had a really nasty bout of thrush (tmi) this week, the worst I've ever had and the doc reckons it could have been the surgery. My af and ovulation is totally different, cd 17 this month but I'm hoping for a good heavy af this month then all systems go! I'm glad you managed to work out, now OH is back I plan on going running again. I need to get fighting fit! What cd you on now? I also wanted to say thanks for the rainbow picture and the positive spirit! I love it!

Vegas - That's exactly the same as me, a baby in June would have been perfect for us in terms of the age gap but it wasn't to be! Now it'smlooking more like a November/December baby at the earliest same as our other LO but I'm sue you'll understand that we'll be grateful for a baby any month any gender now Oh seems to have had a good time in Vegas, once the show started and he got into the swing of it he liked it but he is happy to be home, he is a homebird and always will be. Like you I wish they would let the other halfs go to but nope! It's encouraging that you caught the second month you used the clearblue digis now, looks like we all should be pros at these opk malarkies now eh! I managed to get another box going cheap with a short date so I'm sacking off the cheapies once I get to my expected peak time! I so wish it was March/April so that you were trying too but I guess it will come round and no doubt I'll still be here trying! Also, congrats on ovulating finally, cd 47 phewf! Typical that AF will likely come first day of new job, that was like me getting it Christmas Day! Bloody witch!

Angel -I totallu get what you mean about the cycles being eally all over the place. Before this I was so scary regular I don't like it now! You're ttc ths month now arent you? Earlier than expected? Good luck chicken! Thanks for waht you said about second AF, I'm about to get my second one and found that really reassuring! It doesn't sound silly to avoid certain times of year to have a baby, it sounds very sensible actually! I'm just far too impatient to think like that! x x x


Jennc - dont you worry for a second about the religious talk, I'm not a believer myself but my oh always says it's good to have faith and itcertainly helps you through a tough time, it's only thinking positively, I wish you all the best. I'm sorry that you are still feeling really tearful but don't worry that 30 is too old to concieve is sooo isn't! I know it's hard cos you haven't got a baby but you will, my mum had twins at 44 and my OH's mum was 44 when she had him! You're still young try not to stess yourself out x

Twilight - awww I know what you mean about waiting, I was waiting all spring and summer last year, me and my sister wee going to try at the same time but now she already has a 3 month old and I'm still waiting, grrrrr , but it has to be right x

Jenk - Congrats on the new job sweetie! That is really great news! Well done! I bet you get a BFP now, so it all gets hectic! Also, good luck with ttc, I will let you know how I find the digis, hopefully it won't be long till we all have some BFPs!

Stef - I have everything crossed that this month is your month, new hosue, new baby, new house, new baby! I'll be thrilled to see a BFP on here! Go Stef!!!!

AFM - Just looking forward to next month, have OH back now, clearblue digis, house viewing tomorrow and raring to go! I was thinking I would quite like to say that I am following ladies from the June baby Angels thread in my sigi, I know it's cheesy but I've become so fond of you all and really would be happy if any of you got a BFP! Would anyone object to their name being in my siggy with a flashing BFP thing next to it when they get it? No worries either way!

Big hugs everyone x x

 

[Megan1986]

How is everyone doing? I have been pretty MIA lately. Waiting to test on Jan 31

 

[jenkb123]

Vegas - Glad to hear you finally o'd!! The timing isn't ideal but at least you aren't still waiting and wondering!! Are you getting excited to start your new job?? My first day is tomorrow. I am pretty excited!

Angel - I know what you mean about birthdays/holidays. I definitely would prefer not to have a Nov/Dec baby. Between the holidays and tons of other birthdays it is already a crazy time. Since it took us so long to get pregnant the first time and I have no idea how long it will take this time I won't stop trying if it doesn't work out this time or Feb. Fx'ed that February is your month so you don't have to wait longer!!

Meli - I will keep you guys posted for sure. Still waiting. If af doesn't come before Tuesday I will test again. Didn't test today and I won't test tomorrow. Bfn on Saturday. Currently cd35 somewhere around 16dpo.

Stef - Moving into your new house will be so exciting!! You planned it well. Having that month to get things ready and move things more gradually will be so much less stressful. Good luck finding a closer job!! That sounds like it could be a bad batch of opk's. It is so hard to know if there is something wrong with the opk's or something wrong with ovulation.

Jasmine - Glad to hear your OH is back!! I would not object at all to you putting that info in your siggy. We are like a little family in this group!! I am so glad I found you guys I hope we all get our flashing bfp's this year!! Hope the house you are viewing is nice! Since Vegas and I both got new jobs (and Stef is going to get one) you and Stef should both get new houses!!

Megan - Welcome back. Fx'ed for you this month!!

As for me....I better get to bed!! I start at 8am tomorrow and I am not a morning person so I better not stay up too late!!

 

[vegasbaby]

Stef: I agree with Jenk, having a whole month to move really will make the move a more positive experience. It will give you time to move things into the right place the first time as opposed to just cramming it all in and sorting it out later. Not sure what is going on with your OPK's but it looks like you've got it covered with the bd'ing.

Jasmine: Glad your dh is home so you two can get down to business. Good luck with your home search, I hope you find something you love. By all means, include us in your siggy. I can't see it while in these boards, but we sure can in the TTC and baby boards (where I know we will all be pretty soon).

Megan: How exciting that you will be testing at the end of the month. We are still looking for our first bfp so let us know!

Jenk: Good luck with your first day of work today. I'm pretty sure that my first week of work is going to be awful with regards to getting up, getting ready and getting out the door. Since my dh leaves really early for work this means I am responsible for the dogs and my dd in the mornings and since I haven't worked for three years the dogs and child are not used to being rushed. Let us know how it went.

Nothing to report today. I guess you could say I've started my diet and now all I can do is think about food.

 

[angel2010]

Welcome back Megan!! Good luck this month!! So are you about to O soon, or do you normally have a longer lp?

Vegas, good news on finally Oing!!

Jenk, Hope you have a great day today and you love it! I also hope you get your bfp faster this time!

Stef, I hope you caught O!

Jasmine, because af came 8 days before I expected it, we are ahead of schedule. I am happy to hear your oh had a good time! I don't mind at all if you use my name, and I am sure none of the other ladies will either. I may do the same!


Afm, since af came early I am now expecting to o sometime between the Jan 21st and the end of the year. I have no idea what to expect from my cycle this time. I have decided not to use opks. I am even still iffy on whether we will actually try. If we do, I will just go by cm or try to bd every other day between the 21st and 1st. I can't believe that if I have another short cycle, and I o on the 21st or 22nd, I could possibly get a bfp in Jan! I really wasn't expecting to try until Feb.

 

[StefNJunk]

AFM - Just looking forward to next month, have OH back now, clearblue digis, house viewing tomorrow and raring to go! I was thinking I would quite like to say that I am following ladies from the June baby Angels thread in my sigi, I know it's cheesy but I've become so fond of you all and really would be happy if any of you got a BFP! Would anyone object to their name being in my siggy with a flashing BFP thing next to it when they get it? No worries either way!

Big hugs everyone x x

I wouldn't mind at all, I think that's an awesome idea! How did the house viewing go?

Stef - Moving into your new house will be so exciting!! You planned it well. Having that month to get things ready and move things more gradually will be so much less stressful. Good luck finding a closer job!! That sounds like it could be a bad batch of opk's. It is so hard to know if there is something wrong with the opk's or something wrong with ovulation.

Stef: I agree with Jenk, having a whole month to move really will make the move a more positive experience. It will give you time to move things into the right place the first time as opposed to just cramming it all in and sorting it out later. Not sure what is going on with your OPK's but it looks like you've got it covered with the bd'ing.

I think it was a good plan too, that was all up to my OH, the problem solver! I would've done it the crazy way, so glad he thought of that.

Megan, FX for Jan 31st!

Jenkb, Hope your first day at the new job is going well!

Vegas, good luck with your dieting. Do you have any goals with it?

Angel, FX you get a BFP this month (or early next month!)!

Afm, I guess I'm in the 2ww now. Not sure when to test since I may have o'd late, but I'm thinking I'll start when af would be due if I o'd when I was supposed to... so on the 23rd. Thought about waiting longer... I'm just so impatient!

OH is sick with the flu... so far I've gotten lucky and not caught it! Poor guy has had a rough last week... anniversary of his dad's death, struggling with our car insurance on a claim, signing the papers on the house, trying to quit smoking, now he gets the flu!

 

[Middysquidge]

Hey everyone, I have put this in my siggy, if anyone wants to copy and paste feel free:

Praying for RAINBOWS for the 'June baby angels' girls including: angel2010, vegasbaby, Meli_H, StefNJunk, jenkb123, jennc, twilightgeek, Megan1986

I didn't think it was fair to include the names of the ladies in this thread that I haven't had conversations with but of course I am routing for them all when I say June baby angels girls. If anyone isn't happy with their names being here, please do let me know and I will remove immediately.

Thanks girls x x

 

[StefNJunk]

Totally stealing Jasmine! Replacing my name with yours, of course, and hope you don't mind me changing "Praying" to "Hoping" for my own sig! Also loved that you did rainbow colors for RAINBOWS, stole your idea!

 

[Middysquidge]

Steal away Stef, I think I'll change to 'Hoping' too actually! x x

 

[Meli_H]

Hi everyone! Sorry I wasn’t able to check in this weekend. I wish I could say it was due to all the BD’ing we were doing, but, unfortunately, that’s not the reason. More on my weekend on a separate post…this one is too long…sorry for that!!!

Jasmine,
I’m glad OH is back! I’m sure you missed him. It’s been almost one year since the last time DH traveled for work. I could use some alone time right about now lol. I’m looking forward to next Wednesday--I’ll be home alone for a few precious hours after work as DH is taking my stepson and stepdaughter to a Muse concert to celebrate stepson’s 14th birthday. It’s a surprise for my stepson. We’re also having a surprise bday dinner for him this Saturday, so this upcoming weekend will be busy, but fun…
Sorry to hear about your thrush. One of the ladies in the office was telling me that she suffered from thrush often since she gave birth a couple of years ago. She started taking Aloe Vera juice (aloe gold brand) 3 months ago and swears by it. It’s supposed to be a great homeopathic remedy for so many things, I think I am going to order a bottle for DH and myself.
I think your changing your sigi is a great idea , so great in fact, that I’m going to copy you LOL


BTW, before I forget, just wanted to put it out there for you ladies: If you ever find your way over to Los Angeles to sightsee, let me know! I would love to meet up with any of y’all if the occasion ever arrived.. I live in Valencia, CA--about 5 miles from the amusement park Magic Mountain. We have 2 guest bedrooms available (the plan is to turn one into a nursery-hoping the need arises soon lol). Y’all have been so supportive and I will always be grateful! I have never had ‘online only friends' before, so this is all new to me. I’m sorry we all ended up on this board, but sh*t happens and at least we have each other to commiserate with.


Megan
Welcome back! So, based on your testing date of Jan 31, I’m guessing you O’d and have been doing a lot of bd’ing these past few days lol! I think our cyles are pretty similar right now…


Jenkb
I hope your first day at work is awesome!!
FX that af doesn’t come and you get your BFP!! How exciting--we could have our very first BFP of the group very soon!


Vegas
That stinks that you’ll be the one with the responsibility of getting the dog and DD ready in the mornings since DH leaves early for work. I’m the one that leaves early because I work near downtown LA, but live 60 miles away, in Valencia. I take the train--there is NO WAY that I could drive to work every day! I don’t have the patience! The plan is that my mom will babysit for us, but she lives about 5 miles from my work---soooooo that means I will be the one to get up and get the baby ready, and take the train with the baby. My mom will meet me at the train station for the baby drop off and pick up. Lucky DH works from home 4 days out of the week. Sometimes I come home and he’s still in his pj’s!! SO NOT FAIR!
I laugh when you say DD and the dog are ‘not used to being rushed’ -it’s probably an understatement! That’s great that you haven’t worked for 3 years. I plan on taking a maximum of one year off of work when I have a baby, but who am I kidding? I’ll be lucky if I can hang for 6 mos--my mom says that once I have the baby, I will change my mind and won’t want to go back to work. I say--dream on..you’re not getting out of babysitting this one lol! I tease...she is the best grandma EVER! I have 2 nephews and one niece, and they love their nana to death. I loved my grandparents also, but their generation was different, and I didn’t have the same relationship with my grandparents, as my nephews and niece have with theirs. It’s a beautiful thing.

Good luck with your diet I first plan to get back on my regular workout schedule, and then I’ll tackle my diet. Baby steps for me lol!

Angel
I agree with Jasmine, it doesn't sound silly to avoid certain times of year to have a baby, it completely makes sense to me. Like you, I really didn’t want a ‘holiday’ baby-I was hoping to avoid an edd during the months of Nov-January, even Feb-April! Now having had my mc, I will take my happy and healthy rainbow baby with a birthdate of whenever! I don’t care! I just want to be pg now! I tell myself that I’m ossessive about all this ttc business because of my age, but who am I kidding? I am the most impatient, instant gratification junkie that I know--so whether I was a 25 y/o ttc, or the 40 y/o ttc that I am, I would still be impatient lol!

Thanks for adding the info about your 2nd af cycle. I mentioned to my dr. the fact that my periods have been lighter flow, negligible cramping, orangish color sometimes, and she attributed it to the baby aspirin I’ve been taking daily for the past 6 weeks or so. I don’t believe her. What does she know?? When I told her why I was taking the baby aspirin, she was confused and said she had never heard of that b4. Whatever. She’s just a general practitioner, not an ob-gyn dr.

FX that you catch your o and the egg this month!

Stef
Sorry to hear about your OH’s week--it certainly sounds horrible!
FX for your BFP I’m sure a BFP will take his mind off of all those other stressors. FX you don’t catch his illness--be careful!!! DH is somewhat of a germophobe, and he’s turned me into one now. I used to have a horrendous immune system and caught colds at least 3-4 times a year. I’ve gotten better, but still, when I do catch a cold, I pretty much get ‘banished’ to the guest room (which I don’t mind--tv and bed all to myself?? A night off from sex? NOW THAT'S A W E S O M E lol !! Although, I can’t act happy when this happens, I have to protest my 'banishment', and I can’t 'banish' myself, he has to suggest it or else his feelings get hurt lol!). If I’m preparing meals, I can’t talk over the food to avoid contaminating it, he wipes down everything behind me, I can’t talk to him in his face to avoid spewing microscopic infectious particles..blah blah blah. I used to think it was overkill, but now I think he has some valid points.

 

[Meli_H]

Soooooo, this was my weekend that was supposed to be full of BD’ing!

(BTW, this is the first time I’ve used the OPK’s 3x a day when testing for o. For those of you really serious about catching the o, I totally recommend testing 3x day once you catch the beginning of your LH surge. I tested Wednesday FMU, negative. Thursday FMU negative. Friday FMU, I saw a teeny tiny line….so then I tested again Friday mid-afternoon, and the line started getting darker..I tested again 10pm that Friday night, then FMU Saturday morning, then Saturday afternoon, and the Saturday afternoon OPK was the actual positive (where the 2nd line was darker than the control line). I still kept using the OPK’s Saturday 11pm, then Sunday FMU, then Sunday afternoon, then Sunday night. It was interesting watching the OPK progressively get lighter and lighter as my surge was ending. Finally this morning FMU (Monday) was the first opk that was completely negative-no hint at all of the surge. So, based on that, it seems that I O’d sometime Sunday (supposedly 24-36 hours after the first positive opk, which was on Saturday afternoon).

Anyways, we bd’d on Wednesday night, then on Friday night. We didn’t BD on Saturday night--we went out to dinner and the movies with our neighbors, came back home and I was so tired! BUT, I had told him the plan earlier during the week--and the plan was to BD Fri, sat, sun, mon & tues. I woke up around 11:30pm Saturday night, right as he was turning off the tv. I was like --“hey! What’s up with the BD we were supposed to do tonight?” He mumbled something like “Why didn’t you tell me earlier? You were sound asleep and I didn’t want to wake you up. Now I’m ready to knock out. We’ll BD in the morning”. I was so upset, I just let him go to sleep. Like, since when does he care that I’m asleep if he’s in the mood? He’s never hesitated to wake me up before, especially if it’s during a weekend. So he sleeps in until noon. I finally woke him up, all irritated because I am convinced that we totally missed the ideal time to BD! We had an aborted attempt around that time, then took a break and went back to it around 3pm. Sunday night, we went at it again, and again mission aborted! I was **so** pissed!!! I had a total meltdown last night and I let him have it. I was like “you are the BIGGEST horndog on this planet and on these 2-3 days, the most IMPORTANT days to DTD if one is ttc, and you cannot bite the bullet, get it together and F**** me? WTH???

OK, so maybe I DID turn it somewhat clinical during this fertile period, but Geez! DEAL WITH IT and GET OVER IT!! I did MY part to get you to that place, now YOU MUST PERFORM! So this morning, I got to work and I’ve been thinking about it, trying to bring myself back from the ledge. When I got pg the last time, it was the first month we were trying, we BD’d 2 days before and the day of O (I think) and that’s when I got pg. I know it only takes one time to get pg, but based on my age (40) and his (45), I think we need to go above and beyond to get the BFP! To me, above and beyond means BD’ing the 5-6 days of the fertile window! Not just twice!!! I am so afraid that I didn’t catch the egg…

BTW, I used the softcups for the first time. They were completely easy for me to get them in, however, getting them out was a different story, lol! I think they were in me completely snuggly! The first time I took it out, there were 2 tiny pinpricks of blood on the tissue, the second one that I removed, had a tiny bit more blood pinpricks, but I think that I probably irritated my cervix as I was removing them. I will use softcups in future.

We also had a more involved conversation about me donating liver to my uncle if I don’t get pg, and he basically said, he doesn’t agree with my decision, and if I do agree to the procedure, it will probably the beginning of the end between us. Great-more stress right??

Anyways, I don’t know how I went from nonchalantly ttc, getting pg first try, having mc, to current period of desperately ttc! I don’t know how I got here, but I **SO** DON’T want to be that person. I need to relax and take a chill pill, I need to pray for lots and lots more patience….

Thanks for letting me vent! Rant over…

 

[Middysquidge]

Meli, is there any chance you can bd tonight? I think based on your opks you might have ovulated today and eggy will be around for at least 24 hours if not 48! I will reply properly to everyones but I just wanted to get that in quick! Sorry it has been like this this month but it can be a really stressful time for us, the men so don't get it x x x Big hugs x x x

Take a look at my chart this month, I got my first positive opk (internet cheapie) 4 whole days before egg even came out of the hatch, you soo still have a shot!

My Ovulation Chart

 

[vegasbaby]

Meli: I'm so sorry your weekend didn't go as planned. I feel like I was in the same place you are now with this last (failed) pregnancy. With my dd, other than going off the pill, we weren't trying and I got pregnant six weeks later. This past time I went off the pill and was pretty chill about things until my period just didn't show up for a couple of months (sort of like now). So I started temping because I felt I wasn't in control of my own body and didn't like not knowing what was going on and this was a way to track things. Also, I was mad at my body for not allowing me to get pregnant right away like it did the first time. I started to demand sex on certain days and if he was too tired I would get upset. If he couldn't finish (or didn't finish where he was supposed to) I got even more irritated. As we all know you aren't going to get that bfp if you aren't doing it at the right times, nor will it happen if the job isn't completed. Temping alone wasn't working because my cycles were a bit off and O day was within a 10 day window, so we would be worn out before we ever got there. I started adding supplements, special lubricants, and then the OPK's. I was obsessed and stressed. The month I got my bfp I chilled out a bit. I did use the OPK's, but I didn't demand sex and in fact, our timing was terrible, but I think being more relaxed about it did the trick (but who knows). I found that all the TTC stuff was hurting our relationship as it was about a result and not about the two of us anymore. In a way I am glad that I have to wait because we can do what we want, when we want, without a goal in mind. I am afraid that I will become obsessed again once we are back on the TTC wagon, but I think for at least a month or two he will be understanding considering what we have been through. Also, the last two months of our last TTC journey, I just stopped mentioning ovulation or my cycle as it was taking all the fun out of "it". Anyway, I just wanted to share that as I think it is quite common to become so focused. Don't beat yourself up over not dtd every day. I think you certainly have a good chance this month, and if it is not to be then you can try again. The important thing to note is that you can get pregnant because you have gotten pregnant before and only a few months ago at that. Our bodies have been through a lot as have our minds and this can all lead to less than ideal conditions, so if it doesn't happen right away it is just because your body isn't quite ready yet and not because you didn't do something on the right day at the right time. I know we wish we could control everything, but we can't. If we could, none of us would be in this section of BnB. I truly hope you caught the egg this month. I'm ready to start seeing some BFPs on here!

 

[Meli_H]

Hi Jasmine,

Thank you. You make some valid points--I think we will BD tonight. This morning, before I even got to work, he called me and was kissing my a**. He is totally on a mission to get back on my good side--and trust me, that’s not usually like him. In our relationship, I am always the one that seems to eat sh*it (even if I’m right and he’s wrong!) because I hate conflict and I don’t like to fight. The fact that he was kissing my you-know-what, and asking questions like “can’t we try again tonight”? etc etc completely surprised me. I think he ‘gets it’ now and knows that I am obsessed. However, I will definitely chill out-I don’t know how long I can count on his being understanding of my obsessive ttc ways!!
Thanks so much! I will definitely BD tonight as I think you make a good point-there is a small chance that it may lead to something.

Vegas,
Thank you. You are so right--I’ve turned sex into sex on demand lol! Last night, before we started the second aborted attempt, he said “Fine. Let’s get on with it because you’ve been so hostile lately, I’m afraid you’re going to stab me in my sleep if we don't BD” lol!! Yup--I would qualify my actions at this stage as ‘harming our relationship’.

I do think that last night’s blowout, although certainly not ideal, did serve at least one purpose--my true feelings/obsessions were revealed. I am the kind of person that doesn’t like to talk about 'sentimental' or 'sad' stuff like that--but I finally broke it down for him. I do see him attempting to be more cooperative and understanding now that he sees where I’m coming from, but I don’t know how long I can expect it will last!

However, regardless of him and his attitude, you are SO right. I NEED to, and I will, mentally pull back and stop obsessing and beating myself (and him) up over it.

I will keep repeating this to myself over and over--what you wrote here really resonates with me. Thank you for this:

"The important thing to note is that you can get pregnant because you have gotten pregnant before and only a few months ago at that. Our bodies have been through a lot as have our minds and this can all lead to less than ideal conditions, so if it doesn't happen right away it is just because your body isn't quite ready yet and not because you didn't do something on the right day at the right time. I know we wish we could control everything, but we can't. If we could, none of us would be in this section of BnB"

 

[angel2010]

Meli, That does sound strange, what you doctor said, because I take a daily baby asprin.

 

[angel2010]

Okay, just finished reading all the rest.
I am sorry this weekend was what you planned. So if I read right, you bd Wed, Fri and Monday (with possibilities of pre-sperm Sat and Sun). I think you are certainly still in the game for Jan!!
I am really sorry about what he said about your uncle too.

Lucky for me, dh understands exactly how anal and control I like to be and doesn't mind when I say "okay, we are having sex on this day, this day, and this day". Like I said before, I am not using the opks this time, so I hope I do a good job at reading my body!

 

[Meli_H]

Meli, That does sound strange, what you doctor said, because I take a daily baby asprin.

Hi Angel,

I'm not 100% sure, BUT, I am pretty sure that I started taking the baby aspirin after my first AF, but, I've had the little wipes of orangey red blood since my first AF. Meaning, I had my first AF with the orangey red blood, started taking baby aspirin, had second AF and it also had the orangey red blood...
Weird, huh! I guess we'll never know..unless we stop taking the daily baby aspirin...