Mummy Bean
Parker & Dougs Mum
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So glad i found this bit of the forum, makes me like not such a bad mother.
a bit about me, im 25 and have a 1 yr old son who was a complete surprise baby following a boozy weekend and a forggoten pill.
It wouldnt take a professional to know why i prefer to have boys, as growing up my mum left before i was 6 months old, and we had a strained relationship until i was 12 when i cut her out of my life completly. and alongside a list of various 'step mothers' and poor relationships with any females. Ive always gotten on much better with blokes, and bar my two best mates all my friends all male, ive never been girly, hated pink or dolls and was all about cars and getting dirty (sorry bad sterotyping here...but the truth).
so when we discovered i was preg i have to say i was worried about having a girl, when i dreamed of having kids i always saw myself having boys. Well at the time we had a lot going on, we suudenly had to sort our selves out and buy a house ect ect so al of that took for front of my mind, after a perticully bad week we got a private scan and found out we were expecting a boy...as i walked out of the room i actually cried with a relief i didnt realise i would feel. me and hubby talked it though and realised we were on the same page (he being 1 of 5 boys)...but we spent the rest of the preganacy enjoying it knowing we were getting our son.
fast forward im preg again but with out the distraction of last time the gender of this baby is always on my mind. I worry about it soo much (and im not a worrier). I tried being relaistic knowing there a 50/50 chance, so when i go shopping i look at Girls clothes and toys but none of it gets me excited like the boys stuff, iv tried focusing on more girly activities and girly names but only ever feel dissapointment.
I speak openly with the hubby about it, and to my friends who agree they could only see me with boys (which doesnt help). i just feel bad as im sure we all do...as a happy healthy baby is all that should matter...but that doesnt seem to get through to my brain.
Well i have 5 weeks to go untill we find out and my emotions are a mess, part of me thinks maybe i should stay team yellow...as surley all these feeling will go away when i have my baby in my arms, but other part thinks i should find out asap so i get my self used to the idea and bond with my possible daughter.
well enough of me rambling...hope to get to know you all, hope you all have fab pregnancies.
a bit about me, im 25 and have a 1 yr old son who was a complete surprise baby following a boozy weekend and a forggoten pill.
It wouldnt take a professional to know why i prefer to have boys, as growing up my mum left before i was 6 months old, and we had a strained relationship until i was 12 when i cut her out of my life completly. and alongside a list of various 'step mothers' and poor relationships with any females. Ive always gotten on much better with blokes, and bar my two best mates all my friends all male, ive never been girly, hated pink or dolls and was all about cars and getting dirty (sorry bad sterotyping here...but the truth).
so when we discovered i was preg i have to say i was worried about having a girl, when i dreamed of having kids i always saw myself having boys. Well at the time we had a lot going on, we suudenly had to sort our selves out and buy a house ect ect so al of that took for front of my mind, after a perticully bad week we got a private scan and found out we were expecting a boy...as i walked out of the room i actually cried with a relief i didnt realise i would feel. me and hubby talked it though and realised we were on the same page (he being 1 of 5 boys)...but we spent the rest of the preganacy enjoying it knowing we were getting our son.
fast forward im preg again but with out the distraction of last time the gender of this baby is always on my mind. I worry about it soo much (and im not a worrier). I tried being relaistic knowing there a 50/50 chance, so when i go shopping i look at Girls clothes and toys but none of it gets me excited like the boys stuff, iv tried focusing on more girly activities and girly names but only ever feel dissapointment.
I speak openly with the hubby about it, and to my friends who agree they could only see me with boys (which doesnt help). i just feel bad as im sure we all do...as a happy healthy baby is all that should matter...but that doesnt seem to get through to my brain.
Well i have 5 weeks to go untill we find out and my emotions are a mess, part of me thinks maybe i should stay team yellow...as surley all these feeling will go away when i have my baby in my arms, but other part thinks i should find out asap so i get my self used to the idea and bond with my possible daughter.
well enough of me rambling...hope to get to know you all, hope you all have fab pregnancies.