aww bless you Jodie 
I can see why you feel like that but you've tried a new method this month plus O tests, positive thoughts girly 
my mum and dad started trying for me at 18, they were married with their own place obviously etc etc and they waited 10 years for me. My mum has pcos though and was told she would never conceive but she didn't stop trying. She had 6 operations and treatment each month and after 10 years she fell pregnant with me and went on to have my little brother 10 years after that! but I would never ever go to the doctors purely because of my age, Jesse's 23 so he isn't a problem but I would feel embarrassed walking in there.. It's silly. It's the way were made to feel by people saying 'it's kids having kids' and all that BS. Raaah
I use to have my tongue done but I use to swallow the bars in my sleep and I woke up to it completely closed up one day, I was NOT going through the after pain of a fresh tongue piercing again for no one
I often feel like me and Jesse should go to the doctors and see if they can do some tests, not really for me as much but mainly Jesse.. When I was pregnant before it was with my ex so although I KNOW I can get pregnant I'm worried that I can't by Jesse
OK, hun, then you have to cut yourself some slack! How could you get pregnant if you were BDing around an inaccurate O prediction? Don't fret just yet because this is really the first month you've done it "right", you know? Through no fault of your own, of course, but you probably weren't BDing very much when you were actually Oing because you were probably waiting until closer to what you thought was your O! Try to be positive, sweetie, it WILL happen, I can just FEEL it for all of us!
just Incase.. I'm so desperate for this bfp, as we all are so I'm sure you can all back me up when I say I'm DESPERATE. I think you want it even more after a loss.. So if it came back that there was a problem then it would literally break my heart!
I'm just telling you where my head was at the time and the thoughts that were running through it and why we went ahead and got him tested.
also I went Christmas shopping today. Went in babies are us, had a push of some prams/strollers. Cant wait until I have a baby to go with it 
Jesse wanted to start buying small bits as a incentive to carry on but I don't think that's a good idea at all! Last time with my ex we went out and bought sterilisers, prams etc before my 12 week scan (stupidly, I know!) and then my poor mum had to go taking everything back bless her. I try to not mention my previous pregnancy to Jesse much. I want him to feel like he's the first to go through it with me, which he technically is. But I've shared the feeling of a bfp with someone else before (even though it wasn't a pleasant surprise to say the least and definitely not planned) oh how things can change in a couple years
Gran Gran" (my mom's grandmother name choice, as my siblings already have children) and "I Granddaddy". We wrapped them up as gifts and let them open the gifts at the same time. I felt stupid after losing the baby, like "what was I thinking buying clothes for a baby I couldn't even keep safe?" so I know how you feel. I couldn't return them as they had been personalized, so my mom's holding on to them until a baby does come! 
or 
and write girl or boy in big letters and just post a pic I guess
it's tradition in my family for the parents of the mother-to-be buy the pram. It's called the cosatto ooba. I would love it in pink obviously but the blue one is so cute too and they do it in yellow. It's super cute
And I really can't wait for the baby shopping for prams and the like, OMG it will be so much fun!!! I'm getting all excited again just thinking of it! 
Oh and the pram I really want is £900
So exciting!!!
it's nearly 1am here too so goodnight lovely have a nice evening! 
