Just thought i'd explain my journey & say hello!

[fluffet521]

LOUISA!!! That sounds sooooo promising! I can't wait to hear the results of your next test! Keeping EX for you, hun! Let us know as soon as you find out!



Shara! You did ride that pony a lot this month! You are so freakin' funny, I love you to pieces! Also, you know that sperm can survive for up to 3 days, so don't lose hope yet, ladybug!

Tara, hang in there! And keep thinking positive. Are you saying you're already having cramps? I had cramps during the TWW with my angel and with Peanut, too. Don't count yourself out yet, girlfriend!

 

[HopingCarter]

My AF is also due on Christmas but I am 8 dpo. The cramps this time around are unmistakable - I just don't want to get my hopes up.

I mean I'm going a bit paranoid too…thinking chemical, miscarriage, ectopic and BFN. Trying to stay positive…

Sending baby dust our way!!!

I know just how you feel. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for your bfp Tara. I had cramps in the TWW with my first pregnancy too, as I was for sure it was AF that's why I didn't think I was pregnant. It happens to more woman than you would think but they still go on to have healthy babies and I'm hoping that's the same deal for you.
TEAM on

 

[Kika7]

Grrrrr! The freeze screen and post disappear just happened to me again I think I know what causes it now... I click on backspace to fix a typo or to edit and it happens ...but not always, sometimes it doesn't freeze...so so so annoying...

Sooo...starting from the beginning:

Tara, fingers crossed for tomorrow, cramps is a good sign, I had cramps with my angel and to be honest I've never had cramps before or after my short pregnancy...

Anywho...

Louisa, wow, how exciting! I'd test tomorrow morning (first pee, after a night's hold) if I were you

And a pony, wow, I wouldn't know where to buy or accommodate one even if I wanted to....and just before xmas too...happy days

Shara, poor Romeo, and ugh for not BD...but there's something else--> sometimes we get pregnant when we expect it the least and against all odds too so don't count yourself out yet may be you ovulated yday or may be you'll ovulate tomorrow and hopefully Romeo is better and you guys manage to DTD...or may be your eggs is getting fertilized as we speak by patiently waiting spermies from 2 days ago...

Kim, how's little peanut doing these days? We had sex like crazy when I was pregnant cause we felt like it and cause we researched that it's safe. I don't think sex killed our baby and if I'm to ever get pregnant again I'd go with my instinct and desire (unless advised otherwise by doctors)

Now the bad news

I've been feeling really sad lately, I can't get excited at all about xmas, my oh keeps saying it's our first xmas together and it's going to be amazing but there's nothing amazing about me being "empty" on our first xmas. I wish we didn't lose our baby and then it would have been amazing ...but now ...

...the second bad news is-->

We aren't even trying I don't know what to make of it and what to say...I don't know when and if we'll try again so ya im going to have the worst xmas of my life and feeling so sad and helpless.

And I don't like coming over here when I'm feeling all doom and gloom and here is supposed to be happy and excited and not sad and depressed... So I'll try my best to log in everyday...but if I don't then I've not had a happy day

Wishing you all bfp's this and next week and the week after next for shara...

Hugs all and I'll see you around

 

[fluffet521]

Aw, Kika, I'm so so sorry you've been feeling sad and depressed lately. I can't say I blame you. Bless your heart/cottons, you've got a lot on your mind! Is OH completely against trying? Does he know how happy it would make you if you guys were trying? If not, I would try talking to him about it. It couldn't hurt! I wish there were a way we could cheer you up. Just know that your SSMs love you and we are here for you, my dear!

 

[LoolaXx]

Shara- sorry to hear Romeo is unwell, bless him :/ but u agree with Kim, swimmers from previous sessions could have survived long enough to make it so I have faith chick!

Kika- I'm so sorry love.. I don't know what to say. Why would your OH not want to try? I hope he changes his mind.

and thanks guys. My plan was to take a test as soon as I got back from the last of our Christmas shopping this afternoon but I peed as soon as we got in then remembered- grrrrrr!!!! I then took one about half hour later but nothing, so I'm waiting until the morning I feel soooo hopeful though, the second line on the test this morning was unmistakeable compared to what I thought was a positive last time. This May not be, and it could be a weird shadow or something wrong with the test but I hope not! Xx

 

[fluffet521]

You should upload the pic, honey!

 

[LoolaXx]

Ok give me a minute (or 10 )

 

[LoolaXx]

It was difficult for the camera on my phone to pick up still, my camera couldn't focus on something so close to the lens haha but I tried, let's see if I can work it out

 

[LoolaXx]

Don't think I can do it on my tablet I just realised I'm only 6dpo!!!! It must be too early surely

 

[fluffet521]

Remember, everyone is different! You might be creating enough hormones to give you a BFP! Not to get your hopes up, but I want it so bad for you! For all of you, really!

 

[LoolaXx]

Here we go ...

 

[Kika7]

I can definitely see it!! Your only 6dpo but let's see how it goes if it's twins you create more hormone ... Sleep well tonight and hold your pee till the morning and let us see the morning test tomorrow

I wouldn't talk to oh or ask him anything yet cause on top of me being sad I'll get mad if I have to beg for making babies. If he doent want it then may be he's not the one for me cause I will spend the rest of my fertile years trying with or without him.

He had said we'd try in December yet it's December and he still pulls out or uses condom. I won't say anything before xmas (so this month is gone) but after that I'll ask what the plan is and why it's changed ...and it does irritates me so much that I had left everything and everyone for him and he would change the plan. May be i should just go back to England and keep trying for a baby with a donor...

 

[LoolaXx]

Ooooh it could be it then... But yeah let's see! Not getting my hopes up again this month lol.

Oh as sad as it is, it does sound like you both want different things to be completely honest if he wanted to try in December then why is he pulling out or using a condom. You're right in leaving it until after Christmas though (talking to him)! X

 

[fluffet521]

Ohmigosh, Louisa! I am so excited to see tomorrow morning's test now! Go pee right before you go to sleep and then hold it until you get up again! EX!!!!

Kika, I'm sending you hugs right now. I can't believe OH changed up the plan without consulting you first. And obviously you can't ask him WTH when he's putting on a condom or pulling out. I agree about waiting until after Christmas to discuss. It does sound like you both want different things, but it also sounds like you're prepared to do what might be necessary to get what you want. How long have you guys been together? Oh, honey, I just hate it for you.

 

[LoolaXx]

I'm excited to see tomorrow mornings one aswell but also super nervous because if that faint line is just a one off I will go sooooo mad, lol. Oh guess what? The police knocked on my door today. Saskias old owners owed £400 in vet fees from when she had an issue a while back and they wanted to know if i had any contact details for them. THANKGOD I don't! they're definitely not the sort of people you want to know but I'm so glad I took
Sasky from them! She is such a sweet heart. We cuddled so much today, if she could understand me then I would definitely apologise for not finding her sooner and rescuing her from those horrible humans!

 

[Kika7]

What?! I thought we'd have at least two bfp's today ... May be you girls will upload photos tomorrow...well Monday at the latest then but that's it...I'm having a lazy boring lonely weekend and I wish you were all here chatting and joking...

Oh well, but ya best to spend the weekend with your loved ones away from phone and forum distractions... My loved one is out with friends after I stopped talking to him...I'm counting the days till after xmas when I'm going to ask him what's up with the bd ...

Love you all xxx

 

[LoolaXx]

Hey guys. Sorry I didn't make it on yesterday, we had a day out in London and didn't get home until crazy late. Was lovely though. Anyway my yesterday morning test was a bfn and same as today. I'm so disappointed and confused once again. I chucked yesterday's test away in disappointment but this mornings one I held up against the one that I had a second faint line on, and you can see the line PLAIN as day on the test from the other day, I don't get it. I'm so stumped. I'm sick of the same horrible feeling every month! Worries about if I actually can still conceive or if Jesse can... I know we should get checked, well more so Jesse but he's young and healthy why wouldn't he be able to. Every month I feel like giving up but I refuse to do that, I just wish I didn't get that line the other day, because now I honestly think there's something wrong. Could I have conceived but losing it already which is why I've had no lines since? I have sat in the bathroom most of the morning just looking at the two tests together trying to convince myself that there's another faint line on today's test but there's not

 

[Kika7]

Oh dear, my sweet Louisa...I give you a big hug and I want to remind you that you're only 8 dpo... Please, please, please, just try think positive...it could be everything...it could be twins and one you lost but the other is still to implant...sometimes they don't implant till after 12-13dpo...just be patient and be positive... A friend of mine tried for their first for almost a year and then she went to see her gp about referral to specialist...gp gave her a slip to go test her hormons at days 2-5 and 20ish nest time she gets her period --> well guess what, she never did get it --> she was pregnant already. It's really unfair to take so long but please be patient and wait till 14dpo to test again also try up your vit intake and cut down on caffeine. Jessie is still so young, I don't think anything could have damaged his swimmers at his age, so please don't give up and try get all these negative thoughts out of your system

Just be patient and don't test again before your 14 dpo, ok? Promise? Now come here I'll give you a hug...squeeze...shake...awe...much better, eh? We love you and we'll patiently wait till next week with you and then we could talk about options, right...

Hugs

 

[LoolaXx]

Wow everyone must have had a busy weekend it's so quiet!
Ohhhh kika you absolute sweetheart you just put the biggest smile on my face. Ever. I guess it's just gutting when you finally think this is it and then it turns out to be a one off, but why the hell would I only get one squinter?! It doesn't make sense to me. I don't think there's anything wrong with me as I've conceived before but I guess things can change. Jesse obviously has never had kids but you're right he's young although he use to be a very heavy smoker and he use to smoke weed as a dumb teen so I'm not sure if that even affects anything in the long run, I doubt it? :/ I'll just carry on testing but I know what it will be again, I hate to be so negative but I just know those tests will look just the same every morning! Ttc is sooo hard, each month I lose more hope but despite the 2 lines the other day, I'm only 8dpo. So it's still early days, I'll just hold onto that tiny bit of positivity lol. Hope everyone else is okay. Tara, wherever you are, any news?

 

[Kika7]

I think with smoking and drinking it's all individual. My ex never smoked or drinked but had problems, not major but still not great. A friend just had a baby with her fifty something year old heavy drinking bf and he's never had any problems (according to her)... My oh is 30 + years heavy smoker and has 3 healthy kids and got me pregnant first time we had sex...he quit thank goodness but ya don't worry about it more than you should ... You're suposed to drink water, eat healthy and count the days not pee on sticks...

On another note, I just got the shingles I got it really bad 4 years ago and tend to have it 1-2 times a year since then... So this time it's pretty mild, pain is next to none and it's just the rash that's crazy itchy and also stings a bit...oh well...
I did ask oh when are we going to start making babies and he said in January ...Im not sure about it though... But I'll still stop by and check on you girls even if we don't get to start making babies any time soon ...

Hugs