craftymama
Mama of 3!
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Ugh.... I have myself just beyond stressed out...my sister is at my gpas and keeps calling me crying and telling me how bad he is, and it only makes the desperation that much worse, so I have walked for hours today...sat on the ball..I even sat and jumped up and down in place in the middle of a park while my son played. I can't get the contractions to stay, yet they're obviously progressing me, and I'm afraid I'm going to give birth at home..something I know that dh and I are not prepared to handle... I came home from the walk to the park frustrated yet again that my contractions stopped, feeling a panic attack come on, and decided to take a shower and ttry to calm down. Got in, stood there for a good 5 min and just bawled. Then I put soap in my hair and soon as it was in and I was about to rinse the water pressure stops. I just stood there staring at the shower head, and again started to cry. They came to flush out the hydrants and it completely knocked out our water. Finally after 15 min I got to finish my shower, and I feel even worse than I did when I started it.. I never thought I'd be in this place, so desperate for pregnancy to end, but here it is. I give up..DH is home, so I think I will go lay down and cry until I fall sleep.. ugh..