It's 6:18 on a friday night and I'm sitting at home alone.
DH had a co-worker who was leaving the company so his coworkers asked if he wanted to meet them out tonight at a local brewery.
I really didn't want him to go... But I had to be a good wife.
All through the pregnancy up till like the 6-7 month mark he has refrained from drinking anything. Then he had a few times where he did, and we had a huge fight (not about the drinking per se, but about the fact that he let me down) and I told him I wouldn't expect him to not indulge when there was booze present.
The problem I have still is that he has a really hard time realizing when enough is enough. I don't care if he has a few beers or one or two mixed drinks. It's when he downs a 6 pack by himself in 2 hrs or drinks 1/3 a bottle of vodka in an evening that bothers me.
Regardless- I've been trying to be really REALLY good about holding my tounge when he drinks now. We had some discussions about it a few months ago and now I'm just trying to be civil about it.
We had two different childhoods. His father was an alcoholic, my parents partied once in a blue moon. So we saw different things growing up and had different "normals". So I have a problem when he drinks during the week. Any more than 2 beers or two glasses of wine during the week I feel is unecissary. There is no reason to get drunk during a work week.
And on the weekends~ Be smart about it. Don't get shitfaced friday and saturday and then drink beer while watching football sunday too. It's just not healthy...
I didn't used to think this way. but then again, I didn't used to have the same resopnsibilities as i do now nor have the same recovery issues as I do now either.
I'm rambeling.....
So he's out with some coworkers. They went out and met up around 6.
I didn't want him to go for a few reasons. one- cause our bank account has very limited funds in it. 2, cause its a place I've not been to and want to go with him. 3, I feel like lately hes been distancing himself from me. 4, I am worried that he will again take it too far, and the possibility of him getting a DUI or DWI scare me.
I asked him if he wanted me to play DD, and he told me I'd not like to hang around the guys he's gonna be with.
I asked him if he'd be home before I was asleep, he said probably not.
I told him I'd really like to see him home before midnight, and that I hoped it would be closer to 11. He said "we'll see..."
I know I'm being dumb but I just hate that he is deciding NOW to have a life outside of us. He's not ever been one that goes out with the guys... And now of all times it just makes me a little sad. I can't expect him to always want to be home with me or out with me... but right now at 8+ mo pregnant I feel like he's walking away a bit.
I'm sure I'm over reacting.... Just sucks feeling this way.