Losing my mind

[Chris_25]

Angel:I think you should keep your foot down and demand for IUI if your DH has some issue this time.
Conceive81:Keeping my fingers Xed for you.Hope AF does not show up.
I am so annoyed with my insurance.I called them up before going for progesterone test and they said it will be covered since it is just diagnostic.But now they are not covering the claim, I called them up and they said they wont cover once infertility has been confirmed . But more then that i am worried that my Doc said if Clomid does not work this cycle he wont prescribe me anymore Clomid.I cannot go for a fertility treatment at present.I am really lost, maybe i will give up.I just pray Clomid works.

Ugh cool don't give up! It could take a bunch of rounds, but I know the feeling

 

[Chris_25]

I understand love abut insurance issue.We already have ttc tension and to top it now insurance The whole process is so frustrating.And i am so annoyed with my stupid body,cant it just produce an egg each cycle.I mean it is not rocket science

My stupid fuckin egg comes out every month and fails to cooperate! I'd love to know what goes on in there.

 

[Conceive81]

Yes, would be my first IUI.

Love, you are right.

Why couldn't my ovaries have held off til Monday? Now if we start a discussion before then, he will say I'm ruining his birthday because it will likely become a fight.

I asked him today if we can do IUI in December; he asked if we can wait til the holidays are over. HOW much longer do I have to wait???????? 20 year olds are having babies, are enrolling their kids in school, and I am going to be 34 at the YOUNGest if I get pregnant right now.

I just feel like eating someone's face tonight, and since I'm at work, it's not pretty. grr.

I know you're in a tough position, because on one hand, you feel that you don't have much time left to have a baby, and on the other, he seems to be hot and cold about the idea. I wish I had a solution, but I do have a thought. I just feel that you are doing so much and working so hard at this, which may be an indication of how it will be for you as a mother. Something to think about, something to talk about with him...not fair to you, my heart goes out to you.

 

[s_love]

Angel I wish I had answers for you... I wish I had answers for all of us. How the hell are we supposed to relax with all the variables that go along with not being able to conceive naturally on our own? I mean I had always heard that ttc was stressful in itself but add all our problems in... Geez. I swear we all need to meet up and go on a TTC stress free vacation- where we drink and beat the shit out of punching bags.

 

[Conceive81]

Angel I wish I had answers for you... I wish I had answers for all of us. How the hell are we supposed to relax with all the variables that go along with not being able to conceive naturally on our own? I mean I had always heard that ttc was stressful in itself but add all our problems in... Geez. I swear we all need to meet up and go on a TTC stress free vacation- where we drink and beat the shit out of punching bags.

Love, that's the best idea I've heard so far. I could totally use a punching bag session. Between the back issues, work stress and family, I swear I would obliterate one!

 

[sadangel777]

sign me up for that.

i dont know what to do. thought we had a compromise but not if we never have sex that counts.

 

[Chris_25]

I agree love we should

 

[s_love]

sign me up for that.

i dont know what to do. thought we had a compromise but not if we never have sex that counts.

Angel maybe you need to bring that up to him, that he has to hold up his end of the compromise.... By having more sex or talking to you about why he can't finish. The only thing I can think of that seems logical to me is that he's not good at handling the pressure of ttc and it's effecting his ability to finish.

Either way it's unfair to you : (

 

[Conceive81]

sign me up for that.

i dont know what to do. thought we had a compromise but not if we never have sex that counts.

Angel maybe you need to bring that up to him, that he has to hold up his end of the compromise.... By having more sex or talking to you about why he can't finish. The only thing I can think of that seems logical to me is that he's not good at handling the pressure of ttc and it's effecting his ability to finish.

Either way it's unfair to you : (

Agreed!

 

[Conceive81]

My day started off with horrible AF cramps that lasted about an hour but no AF yet. Then, 2 pimples on my boobs! What's up with that? Then, my lunch came back up. Then I just started sobbing because AF is really starting to piss me off. This isn't fair.

 

[Mona2012]

Hi,
I have been going thru the same frustration....it feels good to join this forum and see that i am not alone!

 

[horseypants]

i'm still irritated cause my last af looked like mc spotting and still hasnt completely left the building. im feeling more f&%$^#@ than ever before. i have a doc's appointment the week after thanksgiving and hopefully will get some answers soon.

 

[Conceive81]

Hi,
I have been going thru the same frustration....it feels good to join this forum and see that i am not alone!

Welcome, Mona

 

[sadangel777]

Welcome, Mona!

Conceive, have you tested yet?

Horsey, I hope you get some answers soon.

I'm doing better today; I think the trigger shot made me super emo on Saturday. But still, DH won't admit he has a problem. Says it isn't always as explosive, and is hurt that I don't believe him. I guess putting the spotlight on him isn't going to help. But I think I'm taking December off of the hormones because it doesn't seem to be worth it. ... I'll get back to TTC in January, I guess, and hopefully his problem will resolve.

 

[aknqtpie]

I was going to ask if you had tested too Conceive... I got AF cramps when I got my BFP as well.. actually had them for several weeks after! I think you need to test!!!

 

[aknqtpie]

Angel - Glad you are feeling less emo today.

 

[s_love]

Welcome Mona!

Conceive, are you sure that's AF symptoms? I'm with angel, have you tested?

Horsey, I hope you get some answers. Is this the same doc you've been going to or a different one?

Angel, I'm sorry y'all are taking a break, I know it's hard to step away but maybe a month is just what y'all need and your body can recover. Maybe hubby can get into the pattern of BDing without pressure!

Well ladies, today I woke up with a splitting headache and AF is on day 4... Which never happens. Normally it's only 2-3 days. Also one of my husbands friends in Afghanistan lost his life when his truck hit an IED yesterday. My husband is torn up over it and doesn't want to talk about it and I can't do anything to help tomorrow is my appt with the specialist and I'm very excited but def not showing it since my hubby is so upset.

 

[aknqtpie]

Horsey - I hope you get some answers soon as well.. I wonder if it has anything to do with your progestorne levels? I know you were tested for that. Fx'd you can get it resolved.

love - I am sorry about your DH's friend that was killed yesterday. It breaks my heart when I see that happening, and we have lost a lot of soldiers from our two Army bases in AK, so we hear it often. Give him time to grieve, men usually aren't as open with talking about stuff like that.. at least I know my DH closed himself off when he lost his friend and when he lost his mom. Will he be going with you to your FS visit?

 

[Chris_25]

Conceive-give it a few more days then test.

Angel as hard as a break might be I think it's a good thing and I feel like i'm in need I just need the courage.

Love- I'm sorry to hear about DH's friend that's so sad give him time men are very difficult when it comes to emotions. At least my husband is! Hope your headache gets better.

Horsey-I hope you get some answers!

Mona- Welcome to this forum and we all understand the struggles and heartache!

AFM- I am having a crappy day and just so down and depressed. I'm not sure what to do with myself and am so alone. Many family members suck, many friends suck work even is sucking... My husband will never know exactly how I feel because men are different than women. I have no one i'm going back to the doctor next week even though he doesn't wanna see me until a 3rd round of IUI but I want answers and some different medications if AF comes this month! I am due on Sunday...
I just can't be happy no matter what and I don't want to celebrate the holidays. I just pray this happens :/

 

[aknqtpie]

Chris ... I feel you on the husband thing. I can't cry in front of him, because his thing is "snap out of it".. I don't blame you for not wanting to celebrate the holidays. I hope that your IUI does what it needs to this cycle. Have you done it already, and when do you test?