Losing my mind

[aknqtpie]

Sorry Love... What branch of the military?

 

[Coolstar]

So we are sending troops to Israel, just found out my hubby is probably deploying- for the 5th time!- mid 2013. I hate this part of our lifestyle

Oh love . I know ttc in itself is so tough and hard on us and top of it deployment .

 

[s_love]

He's marine corps, going on his 8th year. I've been through 2 with him... I was hoping there wouldn't be a 3rd, but that was wishful thinking... He's a deployment junkie though... He likes it and wants to go. I kinda want to cry.

 

[aknqtpie]

Fx'd that something will change and he doesn't have to go. Why are they sending them to Israel?

 

[s_love]

More unrest in the Middle East... Apparently a couple of different countries, Iran included, are attacking Isreal. Not sure if it will actually be declared a war... Not sure how much man power they are sending that way, especially with all the military cutbacks lately. It's not 100% that he will go, but I know he will volunteer with another unit if he wants to go bad enough... thats what he did on his 3rd deployment. He actually sounded excited when he came home today and told me about what he heard.... I will never understand how someone can be excited about deploying.

 

[Chris_25]

So we are sending troops to Israel, just found out my hubby is probably deploying- for the 5th time!- mid 2013. I hate this part of our lifestyle

Ugh sorry

 

[Chris_25]

More unrest in the Middle East... Apparently a couple of different countries, Iran included, are attacking Isreal. Not sure if it will actually be declared a war... Not sure how much man power they are sending that way, especially with all the military cutbacks lately. It's not 100% that he will go, but I know he will volunteer with another unit if he wants to go bad enough... thats what he did on his 3rd deployment. He actually sounded excited when he came home today and told me about what he heard.... I will never understand how someone can be excited about deploying.

Some guys get an excitement out of that like a rush and I will never understand it either! Hopefully he won't go though.

 

[sadangel777]

So sorry to hear that, Love. Fingers crossed that he doesn't go.

I had my follicle scan today, one folly, and it was already 20 (cm, mm?) so they had to trigger today, meaning Monday will be too late. I have to jump him tonight or tomorrow and he will def suspect since he knows I had an appt today, so who knows if he will be able to perform. Darn.

 

[Coolstar]

Angel: I hope your DH have no issue today and can BD properly.Don't tell him about the trigger or that you are about to ov.

 

[s_love]

Oh angel got my FXed for you!! I hope everything works out!

AF came for me this morning... Provera day 9... Going to finish my pill tomorrow.

So Im pissed yet AGAIN at this clinic... I called to schedule my HSG this morning, they only do the HSG on Thursdays and of course only within 8 days of your period... well that would be next Thursday which is Thanksgiving so they cant do it, and even if it wasnt, my doctor never ordered the test so until she does I cant do anything... well shes not technically my doctor anymore because she referred me to the specialist! And the lady told me that I will need to be on BC for the test since it will be so far out and I need to get on it within the next 7 days.... wtf. Seriously, can nothing just be easy?

 

[Coolstar]

Love: I could not get it why do they want you to take BC?I asked it since your AF has already started.

 

[s_love]

They said they had to ensure I wouldn't get pregnant by then... I told her I didn't ovulate last month and I know I won't without meds and she sd that's not good enough. So now I'm trying to get in contact with the old doctor to get all these meds. I'm so frustrated.

 

[Coolstar]

Oh now i understand.I know how you feel.We don't ov on our own so actually we don't need to spend on BC (Wish i had known about it earlier would have saved some money).Talk with your doc and see what she has to say.
My periods started today (luckily).I called my doc's office and they told me he will give me a call when he is free.I have couple of Q's to ask him.Let's see what he says.Even i am very frustrated with the whole process . I really want to know that if i don't ov why i always get a thermal shift and positive opk.I am so confused and sad

 

[s_love]

I know exactly what you mean. It's like we don't know our own bodies anymore! Last month I got +OPK and a thermal shift (although it wasn't big, it was still there) but then was told I didn't OV... It's like our bodies say 1 thing and then science says another.

I just finished a 5k with my husband on base ( I am not a runner- but finished with my personal best time of 33 minutes!) but there was a million people there who were running with strollers or pregnant women walking... Just made me sad

 

[aknqtpie]

You have a better time than me! My personal best on a 5k is like 37? I love running in races, it is fun.

And screw those people with strollers... they get in the way!!!

Sorry it made you sad

 

[Coolstar]

Oh love i totally understand .Today i opened my FB and i saw one of my classmate delivered her 2nd baby.If age is not on my side the same goes for her also but she is poping out here and there.
I talked with my doc and i asked him the question about my BBT chart and he told me that i do ovulate but that's not viable for pregnancy.It's so confusing I mean if progesterone is low doesn't that mean i am not ovulating.He gave me 2*50mg (Couldn't he give me one 100mg pill)?And also told me if i don't have a good level next time he will stop clomid totally . I cannot afford to go to a FS, my insurance is not covering it.I told him to give me some progesterone supplement to boost my level but he wont listen.I guess i should have little faith on him and God.

 

[s_love]

I would never compete in a real race, but these are just fun runs and all proceeds go to wounded warriors and to help military families. I think running around marines is a motivator because they fly right past me! I know my hubby can run 3 miles in 22 minutes but he was nice and stayed behind with me. Lol he always jokes that I need to run a 31 minute mile- that's what female marines are required to run the 3 miles in. Lol I'm close!

 

[s_love]

I'm worried about how much we are going to have to pay for the specialist and meds and any procedures I may need.. Our insurance doesn't cover it either. But hubby sd we will do as much as we can if this is what I need.

 

[horseypants]

i love this photo, love - is it you two?

 

[s_love]

No this one isn't ours. We have one just like it but my legs aren't that good looking : )