LTTTC #1 - Support Group *Please share your story

[flou]

STICK LITTLE BEAN STICK!!!
Holly cow Flou this is so exciting. Good luck with your Dr's appointment.

Did you do anything different this month, I am hoping that if I copy people that got pregnant and do exacly what they do one day I will get pregnant lol. Is that crazy or a reasonable approach to this whole LTTTC?

We didn't really do anything different apart from around O we bd every 36 hours rather than 48. This was only for the few days before O. But i don't really know why this month and not any other. Just praying it sticks! I hope you get a bfp soon!

 

[DAISYPRENCESS]

Me. I have the bad feeling that 3 cycles of clomid won't work and we will be recommended IVF. I have always been against. I had been always saying that if I was told that this was my only option I would go for adoption straight away. But.....since I have known that it has been just my fault not to have any children, I tell my self why should my hubby pay for it. I'd love to have his children even if I have to use a donor egg. I don't know...... I am just waiting to see what will happen .

 

[MItoDC]

Myshel, seems reasonable to me!

MIto DC - Sorry about the bad SA. You've got something to work with, which is good, but if it's that low you'd be throwing a Hail Mary pass every month except for ICSI/IVF. They did ICSI IVF for some of our embies, however not the ones that got transferred (those were regular IVF). Happy to answer any questions you have. There are also tons of youtube videos about it. It's become pretty routine, I think. There's a thread in this forum for folks having "mixed feelings about IVF." I started it when I was still in the decision stage, and reading people's answers was really helpful. Perhaps worth a glance through?
https://babyandbump.momtastic.com/p...1763-anyone-else-have-mixed-feelings-ivf.html

Pbl - THANK YOU. That thread was exactly what I needed to read right now. You pinpointed all of my concerns, and reading through the responses was very helpful. Our biggest problem is the money. We don't have any coverage for IVF, so a single treatment would cost around $13,000. There are shared risk options that would run us more like $25,000, but those include 6 rounds of IVF with ICSI and if you don't have a live birth you get most of the money back. Hoping to learn about financing options to figure out how much we need to save. We just had a nice long talk about where we can start saving, so we're going to start now just in case the fertility specialist comes back and says IVF with ICSI is our only real option.

 

[Myshelsong]

Mltdo - it is good that you guys are having an open and honest conversation about this.

Daisy - Although it is tough to do and i think we all struggle with it you have to try to stay at least a little bit hopeful that something will work. I know after a while we try to not feel the hope as it hurts to much to be let down but you have to be a little bit positive about Clomid. It works for so many people, maybe you will be one of the lucky ones!

AFM: I hate the TWW, and to top it off we are on a plane on Friday to a friends wedding and I am expecting the witch will arrive mid flight or something just as horrible. So much for fun weekend away, FX she doesnt make an apperance.

 

[DAISYPRENCESS]

Daisy - Although it is tough to do and i think we all struggle with it you have to try to stay at least a little bit hopeful that something will work. I know after a while we try to not feel the hope as it hurts to much to be let down but you have to be a little bit positive about Clomid. It works for so many people, maybe you will be one of the lucky ones!

Thank you Myshelsong,
Yes, I will try to believe a little bit more in clomid. We have not proved to gave any other problems apart from my low AMH, so if this is the only problem there is no reason for me to think that it won't work .

 

[Myshelsong]

How is everyones week going? We are coming up close to the weekend and I am getting excited about leaving for the wedding.
Temps still up and no spotting yet, wondering if my acupuncture is helping to lengthen my LP (normally 12 days with spotting starting 2 days prior).

Daisy - when do you start Clomid?

 

[LornaMJ]

Hi everyone, I went AWOL yet AGAIN. I needed a break. So all didn't go well again!! ER appeared to go well and we were immediately told they retrieved 9 eggs in total. My DH and I went home on cloud 9 however my DH did mention that he thought the embryologist and our FS were in serious talks with each as I left the OR. A few hours later we received a phone cal to say they were really sorry but none of the eggs were viable. I just cried and cried and then went straight out and bought wine. The next day we went to see the FS and were told that they retreived 9 cumulus masses (the cells that surround the eggs) and all were empty. They now believe this is what happened last time. My FS is completely baffled and cannot explain why this happening. She said iit is very rare and they will further research into it. However she then went on to say we should now consider egg donors, there and then I felt my world torn apart. I have felt very low since and sitting in here in limbo as the FS will not be speaking to us about were we go from here until next week!!

We have since looked into the possibility of egg donors however here in NZ they don't have egg donor banks therefore you have to advertise asking for one and the waiting list can be up to 2 years!!

All in all been a shitty few weeks and I am over all of this now. We are just devastated and I so want to see a light at the end of all of this. After ten years I am running out of steam!!!!

 

[Myshelsong]

Lorna I am so very sorry to hear that.
No wonder you needed a break, I have no idea what I would have done if that was the news I had been given. I know there is nothing I can say to make this hurt go away but know if you need anything we are all here to help and support you.

Rant and Rave and get it out. Good on you for picking wine, I would have downed a bottle of rum and lived in my room for the next 6 months.

 

[flou]

Lorna. I'm so sorry for what has happened to you and your DH. I hope there are better times ahead for you.

 

[DAISYPRENCESS]

I am so sorry to hear that Lorna. It is good idea to have a rest I do it sometime and it helps a lot with not getting obsessed. Can I ask you whether they told you particular reason for having empty eggs? Do you have hormonal problem?

Mishelsong - I am waiting my period on 5th of December. So I am starting clomid on 6th. Sooooo excited.

 

[LornaMJ]

I am so sorry to hear that Lorna. It is good idea to have a rest I do it sometime and it helps a lot with not getting obsessed. Can I ask you whether they told you particular reason for having empty eggs? Do you have hormonal problem?

Mishelsong - I am waiting my period on 5th of December. So I am starting clomid on 6th. Sooooo excited.

No answers yet, will find out on weds hopefully. There were no eggs at all just the cells that surround the eggs. I hope they have tested those cells to give us and them an idea. Will keep you all updated as you never know it can be something we can all learn

 

[pbl_ge]

Lorna, I posted in your journal, but wanted to say again how sorry I am you're going through this. Sending healing thoughts to the antipodes.

Daisy, almost time for the Clomid!

Myshel, any signs of AF yet?

Hope everyone else is doing well.

 

[DAISYPRENCESS]

Lorna, I posted in your journal, but wanted to say again how sorry I am you're going through this. Sending healing thoughts to the antipodes.

Daisy, almost time for the Clomid!

Myshel, any signs of AF yet?

Hope everyone else is doing well.

Thanks pbl. Yes I am counting the days . Gl and to you too.

 

[Myshelsong]

Pebble: AF starting the day after the wedding so yesterday. Right on time for my flight back home lol. Oh well that is what happens, I am trying not to cry because we had such a good weekend.

On to next month!
Hey does anyone know where to buy CLOMID without a perscription. I know I shouldnt even consider this but I hate waiting for appointments and thsi one is taking forever ...

 

[Regalpeas]

Lorna sorry to hear youre going through this. Praying there is a miracle in store for you.

 

[pbl_ge]

Myshel, sorry for af. No idea about the clomid. That would be illegal in the US, so I'm scared to even google that!

 

[Myshelsong]

I know it is a bad Idea I just feel so desperate ...
oh well the Hubs said in no uncertain words I was not allowed to buy anything online like that. It was probably a just got my af kinda idea, where you madly think about any and all things you can do different next month.

 

[pbl_ge]

Don't worry--I think we've ALL thought about it!!

 

[flou]

Hi ladies just thought i would let you know that i had a mc yesterday. I had a cyst on my ovary which ruptured and i also mc. I'm going to take a break for a bit over Xmas. I feel devastated and heartbroken but i will get through this with the help of my DH and family. I just hope it will be third time lucky for us in the new year.

 

[pbl_ge]

Oh, Flou, I'm so very sorry. I hope the break helps you heal and get ready for a sticky bean. Will be thinking of you.

My first scan was a little ambiguous, so I'm very nervous until my follow up next week.

Hope all are well. Has anyone heard from Dovkav?