LTTTC #1 - Support Group *Please share your story

[Purpular]

Hey!

Nice to meet you all I can't believe how many struggles I've read about in this section; so many variations on different themes yet they all end in the same net result. It makes me feel a bit silly for feeling so alone and abnormal all this time.

Me and my DH have been TTC with varying degrees on intensity for 5 years now and we've not even had a sniff of success. I had PCOS diagnosed when I was 21 and even then they told me it was unlikely I'd conceive naturally. When you add in the fact I've only had a handful of periods since I was 16, I suppose we never really had a chance. Maybe we weren't really TTC at all, maybe it's just fornication when you know there's no real chance of a baby!

This summer I finally went back to the women's hospital for some help. I'd put it off so long because of the emphasis they'd put on my weight last time. That was stupid and selfish of me I kind of felt cheated that they'd blamed me and said loosing 5% of my weight would certainly bring my periods right back. I lost 10% and not a peep! I stopped actively dieting and now my BMI is 31 again. Better pass me the salad... I don't know who I thought I was spiting by not keeping the weight off. I was just a bit hurt that everybody thought it was my fault and was in denial that a bit of extra weight would be enough to stop my cycles altogether.

Anyway, the FS I saw this time was a lot more understanding (although I do wonder if this is because I'm older this time and we're now married). I've had more bloods done and am scheduled for an US and HSG. I've been warned there's no treatment until BMI is under 30 though so I'm back - along with DH - on the wagon.

I'm going to carry on reading everybody's stories if that's ok with you all. For every different solution somebody's tried (win or loose) it's another weapon to fight with. That's comforting and definitely better than sitting pretty and doing nothing!

 

[Rhapsodi]

I wanted to join in here. I think I belong here more than anywhere else.

DH and I got married in Aug08. We were NTNP until April 2010 when we started trying. We had/have a clear blue monitor and were/are using it to predict O as well as checking mucus and trying to temp (which has never seemed to work for me but I still try). February 2012 I started on progesterone to help with a LP defect. I will be honest I've been horrible about taking it consistently but I do try. I hAve taken breaks just because I have needed the mental breaks. Each month AF comes I loose more hope. In May of 2012 we had my nephews placed into our foster home (we decided in AUg 2011 to start the adoption process, home study/license approved in Feb 2012). So we are dealing with that stress too. They are still with us and will be for quite a while it looks like.

DH and I have set many if not by this date then this. Each time something has "come up" and we thought it best to wait. This time it's no exception (DH was going to be laid off luckily he found a new job and started this week, I am possibly going to be laid off in the up coming months) so timing for us has never been good. But I have made an appointment to discuss our options. Our DR (well actually she is a NFP only PA) thinks I have endo. So I'm interested in seeing what happens.

In September 2013 I started Gluten and dairy free. And I have noticed a huge difference. We also do artificial free. I've lost 15lbs this year. Looking to loose more eventually. I've been considering also trying the Natural Fertility Prescription but I'm going to wait until my appointments in Jan. I'm also looking at starting acupuncture in the new year.

So yes I'm "new" to this site but I've been trying for nearly 4 years now. I've decided this is my last year. If I'm not Pregnant by Jan 2015, I'm going back to NTNP, grieve that it just isn't in the plan for us and move on. Because I'm just at the point I feel like I have no hope. Too much has been stacked against us for too long.

Thanks for reading my story.

 

[MItoDC]

Welcome Rhapsodi. It's not a fun club to be a part of, but we're all here to support each other on our long roads.

What made you decide to go gluten and dairy free? I've been gluten free for about 4 years after finding out I had a gluten intolerance, but I still have dairy in my diet. Just curious since I'm willing to try anything!

 

[Rhapsodi]

The thing that made me make the jump to GFDF was an article I read I think it was from Iva Keene from Natural Fertility Prescription. She said a big reason behind infertility is food allergies. We started Feingold diet for one of my nephews and noticed he does well on GF so we were almost there anyways so I did it. Dairy was tough but I had cut back due to Dr. furhman so recommendations from Eat to Live (something I'd like to get to) then one day I had a huge craving (then I caved and had 3 glasses of milk) then next morning I was extremely congested. So from that moment on I've cut it. I've had a few lapses and can see a huge difference with it. Less clotting, cramps less severe, pain during BDing is much less noticeable too. So it's a must for me.

I also figured out I was lactose intolerant Jan 2011 so going DF made sense with that too. I'm not sure if I'm actually gluten intolerant but I feel better without.

Iva Keene has great recommendations. I'm trying to implement all, just haven't gotten that far yet. She recommends both husband and wife do DF/GF, no artificials (which if you do this look at Feingold artificials can hid everywhere, Fringold researches it all), no microwaves, no plastic containers, and a bunch of others.

 

[Myshelsong]

Hi Purpular & Rhap - It is nice meeting you but hope that the journey is a short one for you.

I had a fantastic Accupuncture apointment last weekend, I am no longer down in the dumps. I know this journey gives me swings but I am feeling positive and goign to enjoy the christmas season and all the joy and emotions it will bring.

 

[pipilotta]

Pblge, I just read your signature, I'm gutted for you. So sorry. Sending you big hugs xx

 

[Myshelsong]

Pblge, I just read your signature, I'm gutted for you. So sorry. Sending you big hugs xx

Pebble, I am so so sorry.
Sending you lots of love and big hugs as well.

2014 will be all of our years!

 

[Myshelsong]

Hey ladies I hope you are all doing well just thought I let you know I'm going to be taking a break. Pulled my back out pretty badly and starting af, just need to start fresh for the new year. good luck to you all will be checking in

 

[dovkav123]

Hi myshelsong,
I just read your message. Take your time as much as you need and we'll be here for you when you need us...I hope I'll find you here with a big news soon!

Wishing us all a very happy 2014 and i hope its the last childless year and that by next year we will be mummies or pregnant. This time of year is so hard but lets enjoy this time and keep hopeful for a fantastic new year xxxx


I did 3 HPT they were all BFN. I am still on progesterone and I have tiny spotting. On monday I'll do beta for a final closure...

 

[DBZ34]

myshel. That's a double whammy and not what you need at all. Feel better soon! Take a break, we'll be here for you when you're ready to come back.

dovkav- Sorry to hear about the BFNs. What will you do next? Are you going to do another natural cycle?

 

[Myshelsong]

Sorry to hear about the BFN Dov, I desperately pray that you will get your miracle soon.

Thanks for the support ladies. I am in a dark place right now and being bedridden really gives a person time to evaluate ones live and goals and whatnot. Right one I am saying good riddance to the year that crippled me emotionally and physically and am looking forward to 2014!

 

[flou]

Sorry for the bfn dovkav. I have my fxd for a bfp soon for you.

Myshel i am sorry you are not in a good place right now. It been a tough few weeks myself after my loss and I can relate the feeling of wanting to see the back of 2013. I am hoping that 2014 brings us better luck for both of us and everyone on this thread.

 

[flou]

Pblge, I just read your signature, I'm gutted for you. So sorry. Sending you big hugs xx

pbl i am so sorry. Sending you much love and hugs. I hope you are ok.

 

[pipilotta]

Happy New Year everyone. Let's hope we get some 2014 miracles.

 

[Renaendel]

Happy new year!

 

[DAISYPRENCESS]

Happy New Year to all of you!!! A lot of baby dust for all of us.

 

[pipilotta]

How is everyone doing?
I moved countries and found a place to rent and just waiting for dh to arrive here too. Once we are settled we will start ttc again.

 

[Renaendel]

Doing good. Still keeping a positive mental attitude about my second year ttc. Picking up some old hobbies that had fallen behind. How about the rest of you?

 

[madtowngirl]

Renaendel, I totally love your profile picture!!!!

AFM, I am starting Clomid next cycle. I feel pretty good about it, actually, and my hope has sort of been restored. I'm keeping my fingers crossed.

 

[MItoDC]

Trying to stay positive as we near the 1.5 year mark. We're both taking supplements and hoping that DH's SA in late Feb or early March comes back with better morphology numbers. In the meantime I'm waiting until the start of my next cycle to do my Day 3/Day 21 tests for FSH and progesterone to make sure I'm actually ovulating. We're also starting to save up for IVF, but just recently discovered DH's insurance would cover three tries - unfortunately I'm not on his insurance, so we have to wait for open season in October when we'll be at 2 years and 3 months. We'll just have to see what happens between then and now.

Hoping this is the year for all of us!