LTTTC #1 - Support Group *Please share your story

[swimmyj1]

I'm really hoping ur beta is + can't wait for ur labs in 3 days!
Sorry about your family I tend to just stop trying with family like that is causes me more stress than it's worth. But I also don't use fb for birthday stuff I just send a card lol (I know old school)

My fingers are still crossed for your other 2 embryos. Did they say they wouldn't send you anything if they did freeze??

My ff moved my o date to cd 15 cuz my temp shot up again today. So who knows with this darn cycle. Guess I just have to wait 😞 Idk why but I'm just super impatient this cycle. probably gonna have to take the next 2 cycles off due to vacations I have planned during o time and DH won't be there lol.

 

[Myshelsong]

You can totally ovulate different days with different follicles. As long as they are close in size and mature it can happen.

The red bitch showed up today. Super pissed off, and to top it off we are having issues getting our police reports for the adoption process. So freaking pissed off today, I am raging!

Fingers crossed for everyone. I am going to go drink that last half a bottle of wine without a glass.

 

[swimmyj1]

Myshelsong - thanks for letting me know i ended up calling my clinic today and they said the same thing. It usually happens with 24 hours of the 1st egg's release but it can take longer. Sorry AF showed up that just stinks. Fingers crossed the adoption stuff gets well on the way!

 

[KatO79]

I'm really hoping ur beta is + can't wait for ur labs in 3 days!
Sorry about your family I tend to just stop trying with family like that is causes me more stress than it's worth. But I also don't use fb for birthday stuff I just send a card lol (I know old school)

My fingers are still crossed for your other 2 embryos. Did they say they wouldn't send you anything if they did freeze??

My ff moved my o date to cd 15 cuz my temp shot up again today. So who knows with this darn cycle. Guess I just have to wait �� Idk why but I'm just super impatient this cycle. probably gonna have to take the next 2 cycles off due to vacations I have planned during o time and DH won't be there lol.

In my case, I think a card would be more effort seeing as how my narcissistic brother and his enabler wife (plus my narcissistic sister) live in the US and I live in Denmark They don't send me cards and also use FB, probably for the same reason I checked the wife's FB page again and she's thanked everyone except me and this one woman, the same one woman that my brother also failed to thank in the same way he did me for his birthday. So I'm guessing this woman has also said/done something they're mad about. Such and unhealthy way of coping to just give people the silent treatment! I can't decide if I even want to bother sending them birthday greetings next year but then they might just use that against me to confirm to themselves I'm a selfish human being All that because I just asked my brother to please not get personal again with me during a discussion! Although I know his wife is also a bit mad I mentioned they needed help with having their daughter but when her husband is acting like an insensitive jerk about my "Please don't tell infertile couples to just relax because it doesn't help" post on FB, of course I'm going to mention it (plus had no idea it was such a huge secret for them, especially as she was 46 when it worked for them). I'm basically getting all the blame even though my brother started the whole thing!

No, I heard it as we'd get a letter if they were viable for freezing so it sounded to me like we'd get no letter if nothing was frozen. DH heard it as we'd get a letter either way but knowing how distracted he can be, I'm more inclined to think how I heard it is the most correct

Hope this cycle works for you

Myshel: Sorry about AF Hope you soon get those papers in order

 

[KatO79]

So it's bad news guys - my HCG is around 34 and she says it's definitely a chemical but wants me to come in on Monday for another HCG test, so devastated right now

 

[DBZ34]

So it's bad news guys - my HCG is around 34 and she says it's definitely a chemical but wants me to come in on Monday for another HCG test, so devastated right now

I'm so sorry, Kat. I know how hard it is. Be good to yourself right now.

I'll be holding out some hope that maybe your HCG will go up and she's wrong about it being a chemical. Maybe you just have a slow grower...

 

[KatO79]

So it's bad news guys - my HCG is around 34 and she says it's definitely a chemical but wants me to come in on Monday for another HCG test, so devastated right now

I'm so sorry, Kat. I know how hard it is. Be good to yourself right now.

I'll be holding out some hope that maybe your HCG will go up and she's wrong about it being a chemical. Maybe you just have a slow grower...

Thanks DBZ34 Unfortunately she was almost 100% sure. She said at 14dp2dt (which equals 16 dpo) I should be around 100 so 34 means chemical. Just read most chemicals are due to genetic issues with the embryo.

So hoping IVF #2 will give me my super sticky, healthy BFP.

Hope you're well.

 

[wannabemummyb]

I'm so sorry Kat xx

 

[swimmyj1]

I'm sorry kat im still hoping its not a chemical. You never know, my cousins started really low and was a slow riser but she has a beautiful baby girl. My fingers are crossed. If not I really hope IVF #2 is your perfect shot.

I'm already feeling out .... progesterone makes me very wheepy and hormonal. Trying to stay positive. Thank goodness I'm working a ton the next few nights to keep my mind busy. Can't be worried about bfn if you are working 12 hour nights 5 nights in a row lol

 

[KatO79]

I'm sorry kat im still hoping its not a chemical. You never know, my cousins started really low and was a slow riser but she has a beautiful baby girl. My fingers are crossed. If not I really hope IVF #2 is your perfect shot.

I'm already feeling out .... progesterone makes me very wheepy and hormonal. Trying to stay positive. Thank goodness I'm working a ton the next few nights to keep my mind busy. Can't be worried about bfn if you are working 12 hour nights 5 nights in a row lol

Unfortunately I do think it's a CP, especially when the HCG was about 1/3 of what it should've been at 16 dpo (34 instead of 100 or more). The only thing that has been helping keep it going has been the Crinone I think but since I've stopped (don't have anymore anyway) it's only a matter of time. I'm just hoping to get the bleeding over and done with so I can start looking more forward to IVF #2 in January.

I hope your cycle turns out much better than mine

 

[swimmyj1]

thanks Kat I'm sorry the first one didn't work out

 

[KatO79]

thanks Kat I'm sorry the first one didn't work out

Thanks swimmy It is though a good sign that I can get pregnant and means that IVF will most likely work for us. Just need to get luckier next time and have a healthier embryo.

Started bleeding today so hoping the next days go quickly so I can put this behind me and be in a positive and happy mood for IVF #2.

 

[Myshelsong]

So sorry Kat. Big hugs to you, you deserve a good bottle of wine.

AFM got some surprising good news, DH fragmentation numbers improved drastically over the last 3 months! He is now at the 20% mark which is considered fair to good. Blew my mind when I go the results back considering we were at the 40% mark before and were told icis IVF was our only shot! Calling the drop see what this means and if we can do either regular IVF or maybe another IUI instead.

 

[DBZ34]

So sorry, Kat. BUt, you're right, the thing to take away from this is that you *can* get pregnant. Hopefully, the next one will be it for you.


That's great news, Myshel!! I hope this means you can do IUI or regular IVF! Good job, DH swimmers!


Swimmy - Good luck! I hope this cycle is it for you! When are you planning on testing?


AFM- 6DPO today. Feeling more positive than last month and doing progesterone from 4DPO this cycle. Hopefully, it will help firm up my lining and make it easier for implantation to happen. I'll be testing on the 20th/21st at 15DPO, so I'll know whether to expect AF for Christmas or not. (Worst Christmas present ever if AF does come. Last thing I want with a house full of people, but I guess we'll see.)

 

[KatO79]

Such great news Myshel When will you be able to start trying with IUI or IVF?

Thanks DBZ, so true yeah. I hope you get your BFP this time! Although I'd say that a CP is worse emotionally than a BFN I know my CP has set a damper on Christmas this year, more so than my BFN last year for Christmas

AFM started spotting yesterday and it's turned into red bleeding today Had a large portion of honey snaps, an apple cocktail and some beer yesterday during lunch since we were out shopping for Christmas gifts. I sent and SMS to my childish friend yesterday but no response. We're seeing her and her boyfriend on Saturday to see the new "Star Wars" movie and I don't want her asking in the excited voice "Are you pregnant, Kat?" So went with the SMS, also avoid hearing any stupid or annoying questions, I can better deal with that situation via SMS.

On a positive note we're going to see a house for a 2nd time today since we're thinking of buying it. DH has been approved to loan enough money so we can afford it.

 

[DBZ34]

Oh, a CP is definitely harder than a BFN, for sure. And unfortunately, they don't get any easier to deal with, especially around the holidays. Make sure you're taking care of yourself.

That is exciting about the house though. Are you looking forward to seeing the new Star Wars?

 

[swimmyj1]

Kat - I'm sorry you started bleeding I really hope next cycle is your sticky bean! Can't wait to hear more about the house!!! that is so exciting! I would have sent a message also. Much easier to talk about than face to face. Let us know how star wars is. I know i'm gonna go see it but probably not until its been out for a while.

DBZ34 - Fingers crossed for you this cycle!!!

AFM - Took a test today 9dpo and didn't see anything, went to work. About an hour later my DH messages me and ask why I didn't tell him about getting a positive ???? probably just an evap line but now Im nervous about testing again lol. (I was really feeling like I would be out this cycle)

 

[KatO79]

FXed swimmy As for this cycle, we'll be on forced break so nothing will be happening. I think we really do need IVF to get pregnant and I'll first be able to start around mid-January when I get AF around there since I have a 26-27 day cycle.

DBZ, yeah the house looks good although there might be a under-roof problem, a plastic sheet that acts as a extra ensurance of avoiding water coming in, so we need to get that checked. It may require just to be repared a couple of spots but worse case the whole thing needs to be changed out and that would require removing the whole roof first If the latter's the case, then we definitely won't be buying as that would be crazy expensive. There are also a couple of other issues we need to get checked out as well. In the meantime we'll be trying to look at 2-3 more houses this week so we have a back up house. Who knows, maybe we'll find a house we like even better that has less issues

As to the movie not so much as it's more DH's thing I just hope that my childish friend sees that SMS. I may try writing her again to make sure so I can avoid her asking in her totally naive, excited manner

So called and my HCG has of course fallen to 10 so they want me to come in for 1 last blood test on Friday They want to see it go to around 3 I think. I told her I have been bleeding red heavily since yesterday but it didn't matter, they still want me in on Friday. Today was already bad for me as I sat in the waiting room with 3 very pregnant women and then it got worse when a woman came in with her tiny new baby I barely held it together until after they took blood and then cried in the car afterwards.

I asked her if she knew about what the plan was for next IVF and she only could see they'll be putting me on the short protocol.

 

[DBZ34]

Oh, Kat. I'm so sorry. I hate that you had to share a waiting room with pregnant ladies. That is one of the worst things, especially when you're dealing with a loss. Just take it one day at a time. Losses are so hard on their own and when faced with what you were hoping for, it's even more devastating. for Friday too.

Good luck on finding a backup house! Hopefully, the one you want doesn't have too many expensive to repair issues. I hope your friend just hasn't responded to your SMS because she doesn't know what to say and will hopefully not say anything when you go to the movie.


Swimmy - That's exciting!! A possible BFP! Hopefully tomorrow's test will be even clearer (and you'll see the positive yourself)!

 

[KatO79]

Oh, Kat. I'm so sorry. I hate that you had to share a waiting room with pregnant ladies. That is one of the worst things, especially when you're dealing with a loss. Just take it one day at a time. Losses are so hard on their own and when faced with what you were hoping for, it's even more devastating. for Friday too.

Good luck on finding a backup house! Hopefully, the one you want doesn't have too many expensive to repair issues. I hope your friend just hasn't responded to your SMS because she doesn't know what to say and will hopefully not say anything when you go to the movie.


Swimmy - That's exciting!! A possible BFP! Hopefully tomorrow's test will be even clearer (and you'll see the positive yourself)!

Thanks DBZ Yeah it was just really getting to me. First it was one pregnant woman, then 2 then the 3rd came in and just when it couldn't get worse the couple with the baby came and I was just totally thinking "Oh come on, really??" I'm totally sitting in the one semi anti-social corner of the waiting room, that way I'll only perhaps see pregnant ladies on the way into the room where they take blood which is better than having them shoved up my face one at a time sitting close to me.

To be honest I don't think she's responded because she's so totally into her 11 year younger boyfriend (he's moved in with her) that nothing else matters right now She hasn't been asking about how it's going with our IVF in weeks. She's mentally 16 (physically she's 33) so the only thing of interest is her boyfriend and her studying. Her boyfriend is actually much more mature than her I don't know if it's also because she worries about her own fertility now and doesn't want to think too much about it. I fear it'll end in her asking a bunch of stuff on Saturday when we first meet them for dinner close to the movie theater