Lulabug - Waiting It Out

[LulaBug]

Hi everyone

Hope this first post on my brand spanking new journal finds you all well.

The obligatory introductions....well, I'm Abbie, 32 and mum to 4 little perfect humans.
3 boys and 1 girl.
Ethan - 8
Max- 3
Carys - nearly 2
Jack - 7 weeks on Wednesday

I live in Suffolk with my husband and my younger 3 children, whilst Ethan remains with his father.

So, being in the WTT section, especially so soon after having Jack, why am I here?

I want one more baby and we've decided that we are going to try around next summer to finally complete our finally.

I don't know if this stems from being an only child and wanting a big family or whether this would have been the case, if my situation was different, but none the less... I want one more baby before I am ready to stop.

As crazy as my children make me, they're worth all of it and I love the bond they have with each other. My younger 3, being close in age, it's a lot more noticeable due to being at similar time scales in some of their development. Ethan gets the best role of all of being the super big brother and he relishes it.

Would it be the cherry on the cake if my last baby were to be a girl? Only for the simple reason of I feel sorry for Carys being the only girl in a family of 3 brothers and all male cousins so having a bit of female company in having a sister, would be amazing but hey, the main goal is for a happy and healthy baby so whatever happens, boy or girl. It doesn't matter.

I don't really have a lot of family around me and sometimes talking to friends when they've got their own stresses going on, it's ok but not always a road I want to go down so I figured doing this journal would be good.

Join me as I wait rather impatiently to bake my final pudding, for all of life in between

 

[LulaBug]

Jack is 7 weeks old today. The time has flown which I don't know why surprises me as with Ethan turning 9 in May, that has equally flown by.
I've been a member on here for nearly 10 years and it doesn't even seem possible for that either.

The road of WTT will be fun. I'm looking forward to seeing where life takes up til we decide to TTC.

At this point, Jack is not playing ball whatsoever with regards to wanting to sleep at any time of the night so I'm up til really awful hours, such as 3-4am before he gives in and even then, he's not sleeping for any great length.

He's my first baby out of all of them that I've encountered sleeping problems with as my other children were pretty good or maybe I just notice it more now? I don't know.

I got my first AF post c section and ohhh my god, it's so heavy. I hear this is normal. I got it quite quickly as well, being nearly 7 weeks post delivery. I'm sure I got my AF a bit later than this with my previous children. Oh well, I'm not complaining. It's good that my body is doing what it is meant to.

Carys had her physio appointment today as there seemed to be concerns regarding the fact that she isn't walking independently yet but the physiotherapist wasn't overly concerned with her as she's pretty much almost there. It's more a confidence thing with her. She's doing a lot and it's not that she's weak, which is the first thing they tend to check when it comes to late walking.

Got roast chicken in the oven so got that to look forward to for dinner.

Hope everyone else is doing well, almost done with Wednesday and soon it'll be the weekend. We had a little bit of snow but nothing major but I bet it'll tip it down at the weekend

Xxx

 

[LulaBug]

I’ve just realized that this journal is in the wrong section. I’m blaming baby brain.

Would admin be able to move it to the relevant section?

 

[LulaBug]

Myself and Jack had our post natal check yesterday and we passed with flying colours lol.

He's got his jabs on Monday and I'm not looking forward to it. I know it is for his benefit in the long run but I still hate it The needles look so big.

We are still trying to sort out sleeping patterns at this point as well. Hopefully we can crack it soon.

Everyone seems to be pregnant in my town at the minute. There is this huge baby boom and I'm just sitting both missing my bump and looking forward to TTC again.

I will seriously be making the most of my TTC journey when we do start as it will be our last. My husband will be having a vasectomy afterwards and I'll be happy to finally stop at 5 children.

I can't believe how different they are but yet come from the same place lol

 

[LulaBug]

Feeling fed up today. People really know how to make you feel down.

I feel like I can't talk to anyone about wanting another baby, without people thinking I'm crazy.

I'm not saying I want to get pregnant again right this second. This is why I'm at this point just waiting to try. It's too soon after having Jack and there's other things to sort out first. Even so, just because I've already got 4 children doesn't mean I'm not allowed to have any more, so why do people feel the need to make me feel bad for wanting one more child? It's going to be our last anyway but so what if it wasn't?

Just feel like people aren't happy unless they're just judging

 

[LulaBug]

Jack had his first set of jabs today. He was a little trooper. He did cry but he settled soon after when I gave him his bottle.

Carys has conjunctivitis so it was a second trip to the doctors this evening to sort out some eye drops for her.

All in all, a pretty manic day what with Max being at nursery too.

I do sit and wonder how life will be with another baby if/when it eventually happens but I like to think that with a bit of tweaking, you adapt the say way you do when you have the others

 

[LulaBug]

We've decided to officially start TTC in the New Year. I'm so excited