March 2015 Pots of Gold

[MamaTex]

Hi ladies, I hope you dont mind me posting in here?
I had a mc on the 10 may this year, I was 9wks 5 days. Lost it naturally at home and we haven't heard from the hospital or doctors since.
I am currently 4 weeks (edd) but I had a period on 3rd June, so hoping that this one will stick. I am absolutely terrified that it will happen again and the lack of support from my doctors surgery has put me off ringing them to book in
x

You have to be your own advocate. I am always polite, but very firm when I have called into a doctor's office or gone in. Good luck and best of health over these next several months!! I am scared just like you, but we are all strong ladies!!

 

[silmarien]

similarien, it's awful when they don't listen to you. Some doctors are so amazing, but then others can just be so horrible. I'm sorry you're still pretty down. I have to admit it took me a lot of time to get over my first loss. I copied much better with the CP's.

All I can say is stay positive & think of how much better your new will be in a happy home. Best of luck!

During my 2nd cp I went to the doctors & that gp didn't even believe I was pregnant so she didn't offer any help while I was in so much pain.

I have learned to totally take it easy. I won't push myself, work too hard & definitely won't over stress. I'm also taking acupuncture

Really don't want to loose this little one.

Glad to know I'm not the only one whose docs didn;t believe me, but terribly sorry you had to experience this too! I'm trying to remain calm, and distract myself as much as possible. And sleep a lot. Fastworwarding life the only way I can til I get to the 12th week!

 

[Lbrum]

Hi Ladies. How are you all feeling? I've been really good at being positive but for some reason I've struggled today. There's no reason at all why but I've just been feeling negative all day. Trying to snap myself out of it. Worrying about it won't help anything but I'm so scared!
Oh well, 5 weeks tomorrow, counting down to the 12 week scan

 

[silmarien]

Hi Ladies. How are you all feeling? I've been really good at being positive but for some reason I've struggled today. There's no reason at all why but I've just been feeling negative all day. Trying to snap myself out of it. Worrying about it won't help anything but I'm so scared!
Oh well, 5 weeks tomorrow, counting down to the 12 week scan

Lbrum I know just how you feel especially the countdown til the 12 week scan (I'm demanding a 6w scan and if they don't agree I'll raise all holy hell to get one). I hope tomorrow is a better day and that time speeds up for all of us!

I flipped out today because the HPT I took immediately when I woke up had a slightly lighter line than the previous ones I've taken. I'm still crazy upset but I'm hoping it's just a fluke. So, obviously, I'm having an "anxious" day which is normal, after I lost my first via MC in May.

I also have a severe anxiety disorder (panic attacks and agoraphobia), diagnosed when I was about 24, so that sure doesn't help! Especially since I had to cut my anxiety meds down to bare bones doses so they don't hurt the baby (I'm happy to do it, anything for my baby, but anxiety is NOT good for the baby either, so the doc greenlighted a smaller dosage of my meds to keep taking).

I'm 5w3d and the days are moving like molasses in Antarctica. I just wanna be 8 weeks! Then magically 12 weeks! Then I wanna know the gender STAT! I need to work on patience, because a mother's anxiety never stops, esp after the baby is born.

I have my first checkup on July 15th, and I'm terrified they won't do an ultrasound. I might throw a major fit if they don't agree to do one bc FOR THE LOVE OF GOD I NEED TO HEAR A HEARTBEAT! By then I'll be 6w3d (or later, I really just had to estimate because I didn't have a cycle in between my MC May 21 and this little bean July 4, when we found out at least).

I'm basically terrified of everything. Will my indoor cycling hurt the bloodflow to the fetus? Will my medications hurt my baby even if they're doc approved? Will my HCG levels drop like last time? Am I bleeding now? Did the HB stop? Is my baby dead RIGHT NOW? And so on and thus forth. It's a scary place inside my head lol.

I hope you other ladies are doing better! H&H to all of you!

 

[kits]

Hey similarien, have you tried acupuncture?

It's helped me a lot, relaxes me big time. For the first time in a long time I'm able to not panic. I've had a few losses so I'm well aware of the possible outcome but I'm ok with that my ACU has helped me so much with stress, obsessing & panicking with TTC & now with staying calm. Feel total seen heaven after each session.

So sorry you've had a rubbish & down day lbrum. Hope tomorrow you're feeling much better

Mrs C, I have to admit my gp's have been pretty rubbish. My first pregnancy I had a great gp who was very understanding & really tried to calm me down as I panicked from my pain. After that they've all been rubbish in between except for this last one who's been a blessing. She's even rung me twice to see how I'm doing!!! Didn't think any doctors in UK did that on NHS!! Best of luck

Symptom wise I haven't exactly got ms but every time I east I get so nauseous. It's making me eat less & less. Boobs have been gotten pretty sore at times but not really today. Oh Yea, I've also gotten mega lazy.

 

[MamaTex]

silmarien: You are so pretty!! I hope you find more reasons to smile. I don't have an anxiety disorder, but I have a ton of anxiety from my first miscarriage. It has been almost two years if not longer and I have had a rainbow baby. I wish I could say I was able to deal with things better, but nope!! I would like to have an early ultrasound myself and continue getting them. My insurance only pays for two, unless more are authorized and approved, so I will be going to a health college to get a low cost one, just for peace of mind. I am hoping I won't have to do that too much. We shall see. I have my first appointment today and will get an idea of what to expect.

AFM: Very nervous about today. I feel better than I did last week because I got my second draw back. When I was 5+2, my levels were 2741. When I went back about 6 days later, the HCG was 14298. I am happy at the increase, but today if I get an ultrasound I would like to confirm the pregnancy is progressing in the way it should!! To make matters worse, I may not be able to continue seeing this doctor if she deems me too high risk. I personally don't think I am an incredibly high risk (I have chronic hypertension and have one previous loss), but that is not my call to make

 

[Lbrum]

Hey, had a much better day today! Yesterday just kind of came out of the blue. I think I'll be much better when the next week is over as I'm getting to the point where I lost my last pregnancy.

How did your scan go Mama Tex?

And Silmarien, it's nice to know I'm not the only one who's constantly paranoid and worrying about every twinge and everything I do and eat!

 

[silmarien]

silmarien: You are so pretty!! I hope you find more reasons to smile. I don't have an anxiety disorder, but I have a ton of anxiety from my first miscarriage. It has been almost two years if not longer and I have had a rainbow baby. I wish I could say I was able to deal with things better, but nope!! I would like to have an early ultrasound myself and continue getting them. My insurance only pays for two, unless more are authorized and approved, so I will be going to a health college to get a low cost one, just for peace of mind. I am hoping I won't have to do that too much. We shall see. I have my first appointment today and will get an idea of what to expect.

Thanks for your sweet comment! That was like my ONLY photogenic picture I can find. Lol. I usually look like a mess. I'm so sorry for your loss I hope your rainbow baby is a take home baby and that your little bean sticks! I like your idea of paying a health college for more ultrasounds. I might do that too! Thanks for the idea!

How did your appointment go?

 

[yotamama]

Hi ladies my first appointment is July 22. According to lmp I am due march 14. The last 2 pregnancies I couldn't it make it past 6 weeks. My fingers and toes are crossed this will be my rainbow baby after 2 losses within 4 months. My last loss was on January so I am really nervous! July 22 can't come soon enough!

 

[milosmum]

Hello ladies can I join in.

Took a test this morning after developing sore boobies and AF was missing this morning and I got my BFP!
Very nervous as this is pregnancy five but we do have DS who is nearly 3. We have been trying for number 2 since Aug/ September last year and had another MC in March. Just wish I could have the innocent excitement of seeing a positive pregnancy test but sadly thats not how we feel anymore, just nerves until we have our 6 week scan and see if we have a little blob in the right place with a heart beat.

Hope everyone else is feeling well x

 

[kits]

Congrats milosmum & welcome!!

I had my 2nd scan today, got to see the sac but there was nothing in it yet. So glad I got to see the sac

I have my next appointment in 2 weeks & should see a happy heartbeat then. I also got my hcg levels which were 8987 on 10.07.14 (yesterday), my levels on 02.07.14 were 365, so I'm pretty happy with that too

So as of today I'm 5w6days.

Any news mamatex??

 

[Lbrum]

Welcome milosmum!

And that's great kits, sounds like it's all progressing really well

I took a second pregnancy test yesterday cos I'd read on here some people do it to monitor the progression of their pregnancy. It was as dark as the control line, much darker than when I first tested at 4 weeks so I figure so far everything's ok. You never know what's next but gave me a bit of reassurance! It's also darker than it was at around this point in my last pregnancy

My husband tried to make my first doctors appointment but was told I should see the midwife but not til 11 weeks! I was really upset but them I took your advice kits and got assertive and called them back. She immediately said well, it's any time between 8 and 11 weeks! I was panicking because I don't think I could risk not being able to get in for the scan at 12 weeks. It's like a massive milestone I'm counting down to! Oh well, midwife appointment in 2 and a half weeks!

 

[kits]

Ha! I hope that's a good influence upon my part.

Of course it's a major milestone!!

You should be getting your first scan from the hospital, it'll be one of their nurses who schedule you in rather than a midwife or gp, but I'm not sure if you contact them or not. Here's to hoping you get your first scan very soon! Will be awesome

I'm feeling very nauseated at the moment. I don't want to eat but I'm hungry haven't had the urge to run to the bathroom, just laying in bed dwelling in my nausea..

I've been burping a LOT these past few days, anyone else get that??

 

[Lbrum]

Haha definitely a good influence. Apparently the midwife is from the hospital and she books me in at the first appointment or something.

I've had extra wind too, you're not on your own lol. Plus I think my nausea's slowly starting to kick in. It's if my stomach's empty, but I don't necessarily have much on an appetite. Never thought I'd be happy to feel sick lol

 

[flou]

Hi ladies can I join you? My little bean is due 19th March and I'm currently 4 weeks and 4 days. We have been ttc for just over 3 years for baby number one and we have had 2 losses along the way. Next week should have been my first angel 1st birthday and my 2nd angel should have been born at the end of this month. So this little one has been some good news at a difficult time. But as you probably all are, I'm incredibly nervous about this pregnancy and I am hoping this one is sticky!

 

[bdb84]

I hope you all don't mind me hopping in.

I had a loss in March of '13 (blighted ovum). I found out when I should have been 6 weeks along. It took DH and I a long while to find the confidence to try again, and then it took 6 months to get that BFP. I tested positive yesterday and today, but AF isn't even due for 2 more days so, as you can imagine, I'm incredibly nervous. The only reason I tested early was because my doctor wanted to get me in ASAP to get my levels checked out. I go in tomorrow for that and I'm praying, like mad, that they are where they are supposed to be.

My first goal is to make it to 6 weeks, since I didn't even get that far in my last pregnancy. Once I make it there, a lot of my anxiety will have settled.

Wishing all of you ladies that best!

 

[Lbrum]

Welcome flou and bdb84. We're all nervous, it's just so nice to be able to share anxieties with people who understand. Have either of you guys had any symptoms?

 

[flou]

My bbs are really sore and itchy! I guess because they are changing. I have mid back pain and slight on and off nausea but I think both of these are due to constipation and the increase in gas I seem to have. I've also had some clear/white watery discharge. I had all these symptoms with my previous pregnancies. Just hoping this one sticks! Got my first GP appointment on Thursday. Due to the length of time we have been conceiving and we've had two losses we are under a FS. We only had an appointment last Monday but I didn't know I was pg. They mentioned about me having an early scan and taking aspirin when i get pg again, so I need to talk to the doc about these. How's everyone else feeling?

 

[bdb84]

My boobs feel sore, sporatically, but nothing consistent yet.

I had my blood draw this AM and should hear something by 3 or 4 this afternoon.

I have a question, and it's probably weird or unanswerable.. but I had a blighted ovum last year. Is there any way, aside from an ultrasound (since now is too early to show anything), that I can determine if baby has implanted appropriately? If my HCG and progesterone are normal, will that be a good indicator? Or will I just have to wait until 6 weeks, for a scan, to determine?

 

[Lbrum]

I think some people will do TV scans earlier but they can't always see anything, even if everything is ok so it might actually cause more worry (if it's possible). I completely understand how you feel, it just feels like constantly counting down the days at the moment! I don't really know anything about blood tests, etc as they're not done as standard in early pregnancy in the uk but from what I've seen on here they seem to be a pretty good guide.

I haven't really had sore boobs so far, my main symptoms have been mild cramping and now ms is just starting to kick in. I said this before but I never thought I'd be glad to feel sick

Today was a bit of a milestone too, it's how far gone I was when I had my miscarriage so will be glad to see the back of today. I've got all sorts of little targets I've set myself