May 2013 Babies

[EMTAmanda]

I had to take my 7 year old to the ER last night. They said HE has a very severe bladder infection which is highly unusual for boys especially his age! hopefully it's just a fluke thing though. My poor guy he's in so much pain.

We his 26 weeks on Friday!!! I can't believe it!!! I'm on the upper side towards 30 weeks now!!! Today is also our angel's due date I'm not even sure what emotion I have about that...i just don't know what to feel or think...

 

[Courtney917]

Hope your little guy feels better soon!

 

[MizzPodd]

Hope your son starts feeling better

it's a tough time becuz you may feel sad or angry or confused or..... Just don't know. I felt like you too... I think I will let more emotion out once I get through this pregnancy. Stress is something I can't lose control of at this point. Your angel is smiling at you

 

[EMTAmanda]

I just don't know if I am supposed to be sad at a lost life we experienced a blighted ovum so even though a sperm and egg fertilized and implanted the baby didn't form or I pretty much absorbed it and it was an empty sac at our 9 week ultra sound. So I never saw a baby and had a grave feeling of doom for the pregnancy as soon as I tested positive like I just knew something was wrong and I kept telling hubby and my mother but they tried to reassure me. I don't really feel sad today I still feel like it kind of never happened like I still haven't wrapped my head around it or something and if that baby did survive I wouldn't have this one which I am soooooo in love with already. I just feel numb about it. Like I know it happened but I never even saw the baby so I feel like I was treated by my Ob at the time that it wasn't really a pregnancy loss or a big deal because there was no "baby" forming in the sac when we saw it. But I did pass the sac naturally and see it in the toilet and that feeling will never leave my mind...I'm just confused

 

[CupcakeBaby]

Amanda I think it's definitely something you're going to feel confused over.

We lost our angel at around 7 weeks (I passed them at 9 weeks)

We saw them on screen at 6 weeks - a blob with a little heartbeat.

But from that scan I knew something was wrong and for the whole pregnancy I'd felt like it wasn't right.

My due date for that one is about a month away and I don't know what I'll feel like ok the day either.

I am so in love with the little girl in my belly. And every scan we've had of her she's been a proper baby shape and been kicking and now we see and feel her kick and I feel like she has a little personality.

Of course we were broken hearted to lose the first one. But I think because it was so early on (didn't feel it at the time but compared to how far along I am now to lose a baby at 7/9 weeks seems early.) and we saw that 6 week blob but not a baby shape I'm able to not get too upset that it was a baby - does that sound cruel?

The world works in mysterious ways and while it was awful pain and grief we went through look at the light we have at the end of the tunnel.

Of course for later losses due dates must be some of the hardest days ever. Or for any loss if you're not pregnant again.

But I think the joy I feel for this pregnancy will really help my get through that day and realise that I had to go through that to be where I am now.

 

[ILuvBabies200]

Ug the loss has been on my mind as well. One year ago the 27th we transferred 2 perfect blasts. One failed to develop and there was an empty sac. Twin B looked great until my 9 week scan and then had stopped growing. Then trying to m/c naturally was pure hell and I ended up in the ER with an emergency D&C for hemorrhaging. :*(

 

[MizzPodd]

I guess in my case it was a little different becuz I delivered her living and she died in my arms. She was so tiny and cute. Looked juy like her dad. For me, there are days that I feel extremely depressed and everyday I think of her and wht she would be doing if she were here. She would be around 6 weeks old now and it's hard to accept she is gone. I never want to experience my child dying in my arms again
I think with this pregnancy I have felt much positive where as my last pregnancy I had a sinking feeling the whole time. K gonna stop writing... Can't open up those wounds right now. I hate that we still don't have closure but I know I have to take care of all my babies so gotta be tough.

I don't think it's wrong for not feeling too sad if you had an early loss. I think I would have reacted differently if I had an early loss versus a late loss. I felt her kicking in my stomach all the way to delivering her she was a little person and in perfect health

 

[CupcakeBaby]

Mizz, yes that is a completely different type of loss in my opionion - one that I'd never get over and hope that I never have to go through.

I think with early losses (for me anyway) because we're aware that miscarriage is common in first tri you protect yourself a bit. And the babies are so small then that you don't know what you're passing - I think I saw the sac but didn't look closely.

Once you're further than that it's a completely different situation, especially if you labour etc. Xxxx

 

[Courtney917]

I feel the same way about my losses. It killed me at the time to miscarry month after month but they were all very early losses (4-5 weeks). Each month I expected to miscarry so I suppose I built up a wall and simply expected the worst outcome. I was so surprised when this little guy stuck...I suppose it all happens for a reason. We will now appreciate our babies even more bc we know tomorrow is never promised.

Mizz, yours is different considering you gave birth to your daughter...you lost your child and I can't imagine the pain you went through as a result (and continue to experience).

Soon....we will all have our rainbow babies in our arms

 

[Courtney917]

BTW I am officially in 3rd tri....look how far we have all gotten!!!! I also have NEW dr appointment today!!

Enjoy your day ladies

 

[CupcakeBaby]

Wooo - congrats on 3rd tri Courtney!!!

 

[Courtney917]

Thanks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[padbrat]

Ahhh some nice news! Congrats Court on getting to 3rd tri! I am chasing on your tails!!

My heart breaks everytime I think of all my 6 losses (second loss was twins - all were lost 10-12 wks). I try to think of my Son having his six Brothers watching out for him and protecting him. The only way I can think other wise it hurts too much.

Mizz you lovely girl is watching over you now... she knew the comfort of her Mum's arms and love xxxxx

 

[Courtney917]

Aww Pad, I am sure your other ones will be looking over their brother.

 

[MizzPodd]

Thank you ladies no matter how small, our angels are all looking over us and their new special siblings to be

Congrats Court!! 3rd tri! Wow smooth sailing from here how was your appt with new doc??

Amanda how's your son doing? Everything okay?

AFM: I'm 24 weeks today ladies!!! Omg I feel so blessed to have come this far. Next goal is 28 weeks! Have appt this Thursday with specialist. I pray this cerclauge keeps holding together. I've never been so serious about bedrest. I make sure I rest all day

Hope everyone else is doing okay!

 

[Courtney917]

Yay!!! 24 weeks!

The appointment went amazing!!! She's a wonderful doctor and was surprised when I told her that the previous office never measured my fundal height. I'm measuring perfectly and baby has a nice strong heartbeat. I'm scheduled for a scan at 28 and 32 weeks bc I'm classified as high risk due to my thyroid condition, previous losses and testing high for the hormone inhibin.

Only downfall is that I may have to travel to a hospital that's a half hour away when I am in labor bc its depends on which doctor is on call when I go into labor. So of course that worries me given how fast my labors seem to be. When I expressed concern she just said if you have any idea that u may be in labor call office asap and don't wait bc this labor may be even faster and possibly early then my last one.

I'm so beyond happy that I transfered. It's funny bc theres a med student working in the office and she asked why I switched so I told her the stories and she started shaking her head bc she was just transferring over from that office_!! The student said she felt that the office was way too corporate and she didn't like the way things were being done!!! Thank god I switched!!

Hope you all have a great day!!

 

[MizzPodd]

Wow Court! See how things turn out when you go with your gut??! I'm so happy you are having a good experience already and that was just the first appointment!! Even the student knew how crappy the other place was!

 

[EMTAmanda]

Well my 7 year old is better (still on antibiotics) but now my 14 month old has a fever and diarrhea and I have a really scratchy throat...I think this weekend we are going to go do our registries our shower is march 24th I'm so excited!!!! I'm taking today to pamper myself a bit by painting my toe nails and plucking my eye brows lol! I've totally let myself go this pregnancy which isn't cool at all! I need a confidence boost!

 

[MizzPodd]

Scan and appt with MFM went good. She said I am maxed on everything as far as the docs helping me keep baby in. So now it's just a wait and see. Still get shots weekly and will have next appt feb 26 when I'm 28 weeks
Baby scan was good. Baby is 1 lb 8 oz! And growing right on time so I'm thrilled that I won't need a lot of appts before feb 26 no poking and prodding for awhile.
Also stich is tight and closed... Cervix short of course but stitch should hopefully hold until 36 weeks.
She said I'm still at extreme high risk for early labor but hopefully I will get to the late 30s weeks.
As far as my pre e, she said as long as my bp stays normal, I should be okay but if it starts getting high, they will want to induce right away. But I think I'm good with bp because it was mild with dd1 too

 

[Courtney917]

Sooo glad to hear that baby has a good weight, that's so important in case you do go early! Things are looking up for you Mizz, your lo is strong and hopefully you'll make it to at least 30. Take each week as a huge milestone....I'm sure you are.

I have my second 3d scan tmrw....hopefully baby will cooperate this time. It'll only be DH and I, we got a sitter for kiddies bc we couldnt enjoy experience the last time bc my three yr old was being a crazy boy lol.