Mid-August Testers

[CHDickey]

Oh and Bex, I asked my DH when I could decorate for Christmas and he said,"hunny, already?" he laughs at me every year!! I just love the holidays!

 

[InHisHands]

I don't mind at all if you guys want to add to your signature

CH - Thats wonderful that you can start testing already. I really hope you get your answer soon.. even if it is a .. you and your hubby are healthy and just give it some more time.. type answer.

Bex -- happy BD Wednesday to you!!!!! teehee

Bea, Nic - I'm not sure if im buying into this whole maternity bra thing. Why can't you wear regular bras and when you need a size bigger just buy another one and if you go back down, you already have one??? BTW question.. do you plan on breast feeding, pumping, or formula?

 

[MrsBea23]

CH - That is great news it wa so quick. Waiting to hear how it goes.

Hands - The bras I bought are elasticated so they grow with you the whole way and you can unclip them to feed as well, this way I don't have to keep buying them everytime I go up a cup size. Apparently if your bra is too tight it can cause mastitis so i just thought it would be better to be safe than sorry.
I plan to express for all meals but all my girlfriends have said you just don't have time and it is just easier to breast feed so I will see. I have found a bra type thing that you can wear as you are expressing so it is hands free and you can still move around and do other things at the same time so hopefully this will work for me. I plan of feeding breast milk for the 1st 6 months but you never know lots of women have issues and if I do then it will be formula for me just have to wait and see I guess.
What are you thinking?

 

[InHisHands]

hubby wants me to breastfeed, but that doesn't appeal to me. So i think i'll use a double pump... and try my best to keep up. If i can't, i might use formula when i dont have time. Either way, baby is feeding from a bottle.

 

[Srbjbex]

CH that's great news!!! Can't wait to hear all about it!

I wont let my hubby but home decorations up until December, but the tree has gone up outside our office, getting ready for the Birmingham Christmas market to open in a couple of weeks.

And I am looking forward to tonight

 

[snowflakes120]

I promise I will catch up with you lovely ladies soon.

Quick update: I am going in at 3:15 today for the OBGYN to insert the pills for me to hopefully get this done and over with. I might have another ultrasound as well.

I am saying tons of prayers that this is it. I am so sick of waiting and dragging out this process. I am ready.

 

[MrsBea23]

Oh snow I am so sorry to hear that the initial pills didn't work. So sorry you have to go through this, I really hope today is the end of it all for you

 

[Srbjbex]

Oh Snow - I hope this works for you! Thinking of you lots xxx

 

[InHisHands]

Snow - you are in my prayers and im so sorry that you are going through this. Hang in there sweetie. Hopefully the doctors can help.

 

[NotNic]

Wow you've all been busy on here today!

Snow - I'm so sorry it has been such a horrible experience. Really hope it's over for you soon. Huge hugs to you. xx

Bea - If you could find the link that would be fab. I've found some pretty ones on Bravissimo but I like the sound of bras that grow with me.

Hands - I'm not fussed. I'll see what baby wants to do. I'll try to breast feed but I'm not going to get too hung up about it. Also I can't imagine breast feeding long term. My sisters and I were all weaned early and so were my nephews and nieces. They were all hungry, big babies.

Nothing too new for me. Am feeling way too bloated. I am so uncomfortable. Can't wait to be able to wear whatever I want and not stress!

Bex and Bea just thought I'd share some exciting TOWIE news!! The cast have recorded a cover of Wham's Last Christmas in a bid to be Christmas no 1. Can't wait to hear it!

 

[CHDickey]

Snowflake, praying for you deary!!

Bex- hope tonight goes well

Ladies I will let you know what they say!! Not sure how long I will have to wait for results. Do any of you? I would imagine they would be able to see what the dye is doing, uh?

Anyways was nominated Teacher of the Year at my school today. That was a much better end to a very blah day. Off to class. I am so ready to be done!!

 

[InHisHands]

Hey ladies...just thought i would ring in. I'm not doing well tonight at all. I did feel a little blah this morning and tired.. but by the time afternoon hit, i started getting some throbbing pain in my lower left side, i wasnt tired anymore, and i went in to check my boobs and they arent swollen anymore. Of course im panicing and crying and freaking out.

I have an OCD where i pinch myself when i have a lot of anxiety, and so thus i did that and now my arms have marks on them but yet im suppose to go in for my first appointment and maybe get bloods drawn... but can't without them asking a bunch of questions now...

I feel like such a failure and so hopeless. If baby is alive, i know this isn't good.. but i just don't feel good about it.

 

[NotNic]

Hands you need to breathe honey. Anxiety is totally normal and is probably heightened because of Snow's experience and your booking appointment. Let the midwife know how concerned you are and mention the pain you are having. I suspect it's normal stretching / bloating pains but the only way you can be sure and more relaxed is by having a scan. I hope you are feeling much better today. Symptoms do fade and you might even be further along than you think which could explain why you feel symptoms are even lighter. Let us know how you get on. I too have moments where I worry that something has gone wrong. If there is then I can't do anything about it. I have to keep positive that my body and Pip know what they are doing. Stressing is only going to make things worse so I have to keep calm and positive. I am a huge believer in que sera sera.

CH - huge congrats on your nomination. Really pleased for you. I might have missed it, but have you had your tests already or are they coming up?

Mrs Bea - did you have your midwife appt this week?

Sorry I swear baby brain is striking here already!

 

[CHDickey]

Oh hands, keep the faith. Hugs to you!

Testing will not be complete until tomorrow at 12:30. Not sure how long on results though!?!?

 

[InHisHands]

Thanks Nic. My husband was caring last night, but he refused to take my concerns seriously. He just shrugged them off to pregnancy hormones and dealt with me as if i was just being hormonal, which made things worse.

I had called my dad and he said "well i had a feeling...." and wouldnt finish the thought and when i pressed him about it... "are you saying you think this pregnancy will end in a miscarriage?" his reply was "im tired".. and i said, well thats a yes or no answer.. and he was like "well for me it's not, im tired, leave me alone" ... so i hung up with him and just burst into tears. That so was not like him!

Last night was awful!!!

Before i went to bed last night the throbbing had went away. I woke up in the middle of the night due to some slight cramping and was just sure the end was near...

and then my right boob started to throb throughout the night slightly and i woke up and they are swollen again. I wiped and there was no blood.

I know these are good signs... but I'm still highly emotional right now and want to cautious about getting hopeful again. I'm a nervous wreck!!! Who would have thought pregnancy would do this to a person?

BTW Nic, you are right. I know snow's lost is part of it. It was such a shock and im so deeply sadden by it and i know that is effecting me and my thought process.

Snow - sweetie, i love you, and please know that your little one is missed by more than just his or her parents. I've cried many tears over the loss and wish i could just give you a big hug.

CH - just one more day!!!

 

[Srbjbex]

Oh Hands - its sounds like you are feeling so stressed at the moment and that is not going to be helping!! Please try and stay positive!! If it is any comfort to you, I had no paid, or throbbing or anything before my mc, I just started bleeding.

What I am trying to say is everyone is different, there is no way you can tell what is going to happen and you just have to trust your body to do what is right.

Get your self some cuddles

 

[NotNic]

Hands your post just made me a little teary! So sorry that last night was so hard for you. I never share my concerns with my hubby because he is the emotional one. It's easier for me to manage myself, rather than manage the both of us. Reading between the lines I don't think your Dad meant that he thought you would lose the baby. I think he was referring to a feeling that you would suffer from anxiety and stress about this, and that you would need support and reassurance. That's no bad thing at all. I guess he was too tired to explain himself and thought by talking about it, it would make things worst. However what you really needed was someone to calm you down and reassure you. This is when our different timezones cause us a few problems as we were all off line at the time!

CH - Good luck for the tests. I would expect that you would have results within 48 hours. I would have thought that the dye results would be pretty immediate but they might need to look at a few other factors before giving you the results and any recomendations. Can't wait to hear how you get on. How exciting to feel like you are being proactive. The not knowing part was the hardest thing for me in TTC. I didn't know whether I could get a BFP or not and having to wait would have been tough. In fact I was due to go back at the end this month if I didn't get a BFP. I'll be moving on to my 2nd tri then! I don't think I would have been able to handle 3 more cycles with out going ! xx

 

[InHisHands]

Thank you all for your support. I will try to relax but honestly im on the verge of crying constantly... im really hoping my hubby is right and its just pregnancy hormones.

I'll try to get my PMA back, promise.

 

[NotNic]

That's okay hun! All in your own time. On the positive side you will be a raspberry tomorrow. I was so chuffed to be a raspberry! Plus it's not long til your appointment either. Maybe you should see if they can give you any tips to help you relax. You know how you said there is a point on your stomach that you rub to help with ms? There's probably an accupressure point (ear lobe springs to mind) which helps with anxiety too, and might be a bit better than your pinching. I had eczema (sp?) as a child and when I'm really flustered at work I find myself scratching my wrists and inner elbow, where I used to have big flare ups. It's like my brain deals with the stress and adrenaline with that action. I'm trying to train myself to stop that!

 

[snowflakes120]

Well, girls - it worked! FINALLY! I can move on and forward now. I feel much better now that I know the worst is over.

It wasn't so bad. I will spare the details. But it happened last night and very fast. It was done and over with in no time at all. It was much better than I had expected it to be in my head. Had some pain. Didn't sleep well. Was up alot. My husband was so awesome and great last night - I could not have done it without him there.

Dr. did do another ultrasound yesterday before inserting the pills and my empty hole remained the same size and still empty. So basically looked the exact same as 9 days ago.

Thank you girls for all the prayers and thoughts. It really means so much to me. I am deeply appreciative of you girls. I am so happy to have you girls in my life. Your support and love during this very hard time for me just has helped me immensely. Group hug!! xoxo