Britt, I am soooo sorry. Words cannot express how deeply I am hurt for you. I had the same exact thing happen to me last year around this time. I got so excited and even made the mistake of telling alot of people out of sheer excitement. A week later, I was told that the pregnancy was not viable after blleding heavily for two days. It broke my heart. I had a very hard time dealing with it because I chose to be angry and refused to talk to anyone about how I was feeling. DH didnt even want to try again for a while because of how crushed I was.
I have to admit I was pretty bad. I stopped caring how I looked, didnt want to leave the house, even made up how bad I was physically feeling to my bosses to get out of going back to work for two weeks.
The pain is still with me, and the thought of having it happen to me again terrifies me greatly. But, I also want this so badly that I know the only thing I can do is hope and pray and find the stregthn in myself to forge through the fear.
If you EVER need anyone to talk to, please feel free to PM me and I will give you my email address. I know what you are going through, and when you are ready, it really does help talking to someone who understands.
I wish you the best, and don't forget that it is ok to give yourself time to heal.
- April
Edited to also include Tiffers in on this offer because I just now read what you wrote and am deeply sorry for your loss as well. This is one of the hardest things to have to go through and it breaks my heart each time I hear it happened to yet another woman. I hope you can find comfort in your friends here.