Multiple IVF failures...what now?

[septbride]

Oneof, six embryos is awesome!

Whatthe, good luck with Dr. Davis!

 

[oneof14]

Whatthe, anytime, I am here to help! You are absolutely accurate about co-culture and the quality of embies. I should just shut up and be happy, but the fear always manages to come into play!

 

[Lucie73821]

Oneof-congrats on the 6 embryos!

 

[oneof14]

Thanks Lucie! I read your journal and I'm happy AF showed, sorry you have to wait another cycle before FET.

 

[whattheiveff]

Oneof - How are you feeling? What time is your transfer tomorrow? Thinking of you!

 

[oneof14]

Thanks Whatthe, I am feeling good, still tired from all the monitoring last week. Im scheduled for transfer at 1:45pm tomorrow. I'm going to acupunture at 10:30 am and maybe after.

I am so scared about tomorrow and the 2ww, it honestly is the worst. I keep telling myself it will all be OK no matter the outcome, but if only I can believe it. I asked my DH for the 10,000x if he will be disappointed in me if I get another BFN. He no longer aswers me, as he has responded already that I am crazy. He only says he worries about how I am going to react, cause he cant stand to see me so sad.

I know you totally understand the feeling. I just feel so helpless. I know its seems weird that I feel down and out now even before transfer, but I can help it.

 

[whattheiveff]

Oneof - I totally know the feeling. Its all such a rollercoaster. Are you going to try to keep busy/distracted during the 2WW? Have you heard of Circle & Bloom fertility meditations? You can download it on your IPOD and I actually really liked it...it was one of the only things that relaxed me. Best of luck tomorrow!

 

[oneof14]

Whatthe, I have not heard of it, but I will certainly look for it now. Yes, I am trying to keep myself busy, but its hard, you know. I thank you and I will post as soon as I can.

 

[L4hope]

Thinking of you Patricia! Hope transfer went well.

 

[MoBaby]

Cant wait to hear things Patricia!!! FX for you!! Now the wait! EEK

 

[oneof14]

Hey ladies, just got back from my transfer and it went well. We transferred 3 8-cell embryos. The doctor said they are beautiful. I'm not required on bedrest, which is good because I think too much when I am. Tomorrow going to get my hair and nails done and we are going to dinner tomorrow night. I feel better than I have from my previous transfers. They are still watching the other 3 embryos, so well see if I have any frosties, I'm not holding my breath.

Right now, I'm resting and ordering in and praying.

How is everyone else doing?

 

[Lucie73821]

Glad it went well one!!!

Got my detailed protocol yesterday. I will start BC on cd 1. Baseline is scheduled for April 24. Transfer will be May 16th. It feels great having actual dates!

Hope everyone is doing well!

 

[oneof14]

Yay Lucie that's great, it is nice to have a actual plan, so you can see the light at the end of the tunnel and that is your pregnancy and take home baby.

 

[septbride]

Oooh oneof, that all sounds so good! Ordering in and praying sounds pretty perfect as well. Well done.

 

[L4hope]

Patricia glad to hear transfer went well!! Sounds like you have a great day planned for tomorrow. Hope and pray this is your cycle!

Lucie that's great you have a plan in place!

 

[whattheiveff]

Awesome news Oneof! Looks like coculture really helped! Fingers crossed for you!

 

[oneof14]

Thank you ladies.

Whatthe, I said the same thing to my DH about co-culture. I was so happy to hear the Dr say that we have 3 beautiful 8-cells embryos. I was also happy that they made the decision for me. He didn't give me an options, which is good for me. It certainly was a huge difference to my previous cycles.

I can't wait to hear about your consult with Dr. Davis on Monday. Curious to see what you think of him and Cornell.

 

[MoBaby]

Wow!! 3 embryos!! Ready for triplets lol congrat on pupo!!!

 

[oneof14]

Mo, not ready for triplets at all, lol. The thought scares me. With my age (38) I expected to transfer more. My dr said some transfer 5

 

[oneof14]

Whatthe, good luck with your consult tomorrow!!