Multiple IVF failures...what now?

[oneof14]

I just got a call from Cornell and they were able to freeze 2 of my embryos. Yay!

 

[L4hope]

Patricia that's excellent news! Yay frozen peas!! How are you feeling?

 

[oneof14]

Thanks Lauren, I feel good, well I feel nothing actually. I am trying so hard to forget about everything. I pray I am, but will find out officially in a week from today!

 

[L4hope]

Nothing is good, I still don't feel much. Keep yourself busy this week. I really hope you get good news next Tuesday!

 

[septbride]

Great news!! What a relief to have some in the bank...for next time!

 

[whattheiveff]

Oneof - That is amazing news that they were able to freeze 2!!! You must be thrilled. Have you ever had any to freeze previously? Hope you're taking it easy but also staying distracted! Haha.

AFM, I had my consult yesterday with Dr. Davis. I couldn't have been more impressed with him and the clinic in general. My husband is VERY hard to impress and he totally agreed. We had an APA panel done for immunology issues, I need to get an HSG, Husband is having his sperm tested for DNA fragmentation, I'll need to go back down for the endo biopsy for coculture, and then we'll be good to go. Honestly, I'm really hoping they find something with the APA test or the HSG that could explain why we haven't been successful. If everything comes back normal, we'll still do our last cycle there, but its hard to be hopeful that our outcome will be different (although the coculture stuff is pretty compelling). Anyway, he is suggesting the same protocol as my old clinic, except he'd do a dual HCG/Lupron trigger in hopes of getting more mature eggs. As far as timing, I'm hoping to squeeze in a cycle in June, but given all the weddings I'm in this summer, it will probably have to wait until August. I really hate having to wait that long, because I kind of see this last cycle as something I need to do before I can get started with DE or adoption. The good news is I can do an "out of town start" so hopefully I won't have to be in NYC for more than a week or so. Sorry for the information overload!

 

[oneof14]

Whatthe, I am so happy you liked Dr. Davis and Cornell. He does know his sh*t and im sure he was very prepared for your consult. I too had to do an HSG with Dr. Davis and it literally took 10 mins (I did it on my lunch hour). My DH did the DNA fragmentation test at my previous clinic in Sept so we didnt have to repeat it. I can not say enough good things about Dr. Davis and truly hope and pray we both get our BFP at Cornell!!

I have never had any frosties before and I think it all has to do with the co-culture (although my acupunturist says its the herbal tea she prescribed), I was shocked and thrilled when they called to tell me.

 

[michelle01]

Hi girls! I have been following/stalking you silently, but wanted to just chime in and say CONGRATS oneof on being pupo with triplets I am keeping everything crossed for you that the third time is a charm for you as well And yay on having 2 frosties!

Hope all you other girls are doing good

 

[MoBaby]

Yay for frosties!!! That's exciting!!!

 

[whattheiveff]

Hi ladies, just wanted to check in to see how everyone is doing!

Oneof - I've been thinking about you a lot...hope the triplets are getting cozy in there!

 

[oneof14]

Hey Whatthe, I've been doing good up until today. This morning I'm feeling cramping just like AF is about to show up. I guess will find out of Tuesday. Obv. very nervous!

How are you? I am hoping you are living life and having fun before your next cycle at Cornell.

 

[septbride]

Hang in there, oneof! Cramping could mean anything.

 

[oneof14]

Sept, I keep telling myself that, but I'm not convincing, lol.

 

[septbride]

I understand. This is the hardest part!

 

[whattheiveff]

Ugh, the wait is the worst, but like Sept said, cramping can mean anything. I know its driving you crazy though. Hang in there....are you planning to test early?

AFM, its really hitting me hard that this next cycle will be the end of the road for us with my own eggs. Its almost like I don't want to let myself be happy about anything because I don't want to deal with the fall out again if this doesn't work. Of course I know thats ridiculous and we should all take whatever joy we can find and run with it. I'm hoping I'll get there with a little more time. My husband and I are going away next weekend for Easter and having some spa time which I'm really looking forward to!

 

[oneof14]

I completely understand what you are saying. I am always excited to start, but never fails, during the 2ww I get so scared and depressed, its just so frustrating. You almost feel like WTF is going on with me, they put good embryos in WTF am I not getting pregnant. I totally convinced myself after my transfer that this will work, about 2 days later, I got the that if's going on.

I am not planning on testing early. I dont even have the desire, I am so afraid I'll be looking at the "not pregnant" again on the stick which I can not handle it. Not sure how I will handle it if I get the negative over the phone while at work yet (come to think of it, a positive while at work).. just really praying for a miracle.

 

[whattheiveff]

We're right there with you and hope that Tuesday brings you great news!

 

[oneof14]

The trip involving as spa sounds wonderful, enjoy every minute of your trip and your DH

 

[whattheiveff]

Thinking of you Oneof! Only 1 more day. How are you holding up?

 

[oneof14]

Im freaking out! Im so so scared to find out and I feel NOTHING, no cramping anymore, NOTHING, what does this mean. I keep thinking how can I have HCG in me when I feel nothing. I guess we will find out tomorrow. I will say this, I am so not fun to be around, not sure if its irritibility or nerves or both, but I am a raging bi*ch!

How are you?