Need someone to talk to, BCP, FS :(

[Lirpa11]

Hello

I just want someone to chat to this seems like a never ending thing. We are now over the 1 year mark TTC

I didn't have AF for over three months, saw a fertility specialist and got prescribed provera to start a new cycle. We have since started cycle tracking and my estrogen was through the roof.

I had an U/S today, and they found a large cyst on my right ovary. The nurse called and said I need to go back on BCP for 21 days as we can't do anything with the cyst there

I've had my cry but getting through the afternoon at work was hard. Why can't they just fix me and why do we have to have problems. The BCP will set us back another month at least... Who knows when we will have a baby.

Add the fact one girl on facebook is winging about her morning sickness (I'd trade her anyday!) another girl is saying she wishes she could have a sleep in (has two very young ones)... I just want for us to finally have a baby. After 8 years+ together, married for 2.5+ years, we have a house, two stable high paying jobs.... We're more than ready. Why does it have to be so hard I should already have a 2-3 month old by now.

This is so hard

 

[mangoberry]

Hello

I just want someone to chat to this seems like a never ending thing. We are now over the 1 year mark TTC

I didn't have AF for over three months, saw a fertility specialist and got prescribed provera to start a new cycle. We have since started cycle tracking and my estrogen was through the roof.

I had an U/S today, and they found a large cyst on my right ovary. The nurse called and said I need to go back on BCP for 21 days as we can't do anything with the cyst there

I've had my cry but getting through the afternoon at work was hard. Why can't they just fix me and why do we have to have problems. The BCP will set us back another month at least... Who knows when we will have a baby.

Add the fact one girl on facebook is winging about her morning sickness (I'd trade her anyday!) another girl is saying she wishes she could have a sleep in (has two very young ones)... I just want for us to finally have a baby. After 8 years+ together, married for 2.5+ years, we have a house, two stable high paying jobs.... We're more than ready. Why does it have to be so hard I should already have a 2-3 month old by now.

This is so hard

Hey, Don't feel sad. I know its a very hard thing to do, trust me I have been going through the same thing every month - it hurts so much when AF shows up.

We have been trying for almost 9 months now and have been married for ~6 years now. We did not start the TTC journey as we thought that we would like to get settled and then start trying, who knew its going to take so long. Planning to get my DH's SA if nothing happens this month.

So, when did you go to a fertility specialist? I thought that they only take you in if you were trying for more than a year(if 30+ years) and 6 months(if 35+ years). I would need to go to one soon if nothing happens in next 3 months.

 

[Lirpa11]

Hi Mango.

It is usually 1 year although you can still ask for DH SA I'm pretty sure. That's a simple test and as long as you are willing to pay I don't think they can deny you.

We were referred to a FS as I was 8 weeks no AF at the time, and the cycle before that was 7 weeks long. My general doctor sent me in for blood tests and ultrasounds and said I likely had PCOS and referred us to a FS.

It just seems to not end at all. And I never thought I would have PCOS. I thought pregnancy would just happen fast, but nope

I changed doctors as well because my first doctor just didn't seem interested at all. They didn't explain things or offer advice or anything. The new doctor is a lady, and is wonderful. She asked if I had someone to talk to about TTC, and if hubby was supportive, and said I could go there any time, and.. Yea. She was so nice and understanding and straight away wanted blood tests to check my horomone levels and ultrasound to check down there.

That may be linked to not having AF for months though, if everything was working perfect we may have had to wait another few months.

Took my first BCP tonight. just over a year without any birth control and here we are again *sigh*

 

[mangoberry]

Hi Lirpa,

Thank you for explaining all very clearly. I really hope you get your BFP soon Please feel free to PM me, and add me on skype if you would like to talk. Yes, you are right we are going to get DH's SA done this month if I get my AF which I don't feel anything different this month so I know its going to show up :angry:

 

[W8ing4Ryan]

Awww... i'm really sorry to hear this, but we are here for you

I just started on Provera a couple of weeks ago, did by CD3 testing, and now just waiting for those results before we take another step forward.

Just like you, DH and I felt we took the right steps -- we got married, focused on getting our home, have wonderful and stable jobs, and now that we feel we are at the right place in our lives (emotionally, financially, etc), it just doesn't seem to happen as quick as others when this is now what we want... it's so weird like that.. but have to trust that things will happen at the right time when they're supposed to... i know, i hate it when people say that too, but at this point, be encouraged that you ARE doing something about it, whether it's tiny steps or huge leaps, you are moving toward something and that is better than not trying at all

 

[KatO79]

Awww so sorry Lirpa11

I'm pretty close to the 1 year mark myself, after this cycle actually. I am first eligible for a referral to a clinic after this cycle and am looking forward to being able to start treatment in the not too distant future.

I know how tough it is seeing AF every single month and how hard it is emotionally. I've cried a lot myself this past year out of frustration, wondering when it'll happen. It's so hard when your dreams of a baby are taking much longer than you thought and it seems like almost everyone else is having an easier time getting their bfp's. And people who were "spoiled" and got pregnant easily complaining about it while you're just dying to be in their shoes. It just doesn't seem fair, does it?

I've been trying to tell myself recently that we're constantly one month closer to having our baby and that everything we're doing is one step in the right direction. That it'll all be worth it when I finally get my bfp and some months later have my baby. Maybe try reminding yourself that you're doing all you can and are resolving the issues and are getting closer to having your baby.

I hope you are soon feeling better and that your will soon happen for you

 

[KLeigh]

So sorry to hear all of this
My heart goes out to you.

 

[Lirpa11]

Thanks for the replies everyone

Well, I've been on Bcp for 17 days now I have an US booked after 17 days to see if. Can come back off Bcp then it's back onto TTC and blood tests every few days again. I guess we are closer which is nice and surely it will happen soon! It just stinks when so many others have their babies and I should have mine now too and I haven't even got a bun in the oven.... *sigh*

Has everyone else doing? Any good news for any of you?