...No, relaxing will not get me pregnant...lucky CBFM girls!

[SLH]

Shoot me now...my cousin is pregnant with twins

Don't worry, you will be in her position soon. Maybe not with twins, but you will get pregnant. Everyone I know is pregnant!

 

[SLH]

So does clomid bring ovulation forward? hmmm, im seeing fs tomorrow! are there any side effects with clomid?? not done much research as i was not sure about taking it but i will try anything to better my chances, also im sure i saw a post saying its better to take it in the morning than at night?? why is that? i hope you miss xmas, just typical isn't it!

Yup, that's what it does. Just what Gdane said. My doctor said it would cause headaches, hot flushes, and weirdness LOL. Those were his exact words. I'm afraid that I'm going to have a nervous breakdown like I did when I first went on Depo Provera. I know they are two different drugs, but I'm afraid because they both have something to do with hormones, Clomid might mess me up lol. I hope it doesn't though.

It's good that you are seeing your doctor tomorrow on day 2 of your cycle because she might prescribe it to you. I have to take it from days 3-7.

 

[GdaneMom4now]

My sil that just said "that's awesome" said, I know it's hard but you have to be happy for her, she's your cousin.

I said, "M, You know im happy for her, but if I would've said half the stuff you say to me, you would have punched me. I thought you would understand the most out of anyone and I dont' feel like I can come to you anymore. I thought the sad face is an indicator I don't want to hear "that's awesome" right now. I can be happy for her and sad for me."

 

[GdaneMom4now]

Found this...and LOVE it. Made me think of you ladies.

Thoughts on Becoming a Mother
I will be a wonderful mother, not because of genetics, or money or that I have read books,
but because I have struggled and toiled for this child.
I have longed and waited. I have cried and prayed.
I have endured and planned over and over again.
Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation are those who have struggled to attain their dreams.
I will notice everything about my child.
I will take time to watch my child sleep, explore and discover. I will marvel at this miracle every day for the rest of my life.
I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the night to the sound of my child, knowing that I can comfort, hold and feed him and that I am not waking to take another temperature, pop another pill, take another shot or cry tears of a broken dream. My dream will be crying for me.
I count myself lucky in this sense; that God has given me this insight, this special vision with which I will look upon my child that my friends will not see.
Whether I parent a child I actually give birth to or a child that God leads me to, I will not be careless with my love.
I will be a better mother for all that I have endured. I am a better wife, a better aunt, a better daughter, neighbor, friend and sister because I have known pain.
I know disillusionment as I have been betrayed by my own body, I have been tried by fire and hell many never face, yet given time, I stood tall.
I have prevailed.
I have succeeded.
I have won.
So now, when others hurt around me, I do not run from their pain in order to save myself discomfort. I see it, mourn it, and join them in theirs.
I listen.
And even though I cannot make it better, I can make it less lonely. I have learned the immerse power of another hand holding tight to mine, of other eyes that moisten as they learn to accept the harsh truth and when life is beyond hard. I have learned a compassion that only comes with walking in those shoes.
I have learned to appreciate life.
Yes I will be a wonderful mother

 

[TryinFor1]

It is like one of those "here's your sign" moments.

 

[GdaneMom4now]

Huh?

 

[SLH]

yeah, huh?

 

[wookie130]

Gdane- I freakin' LOVE that poem!!! Thanks so much for sharing; I bawled while I read it.

SLH- You're absolutely right that "sticky blood" can cause miscarriages...it was a common fear among the preggo ladies I used to chat with on the First Trimester forums. Most often, the doc will make you take 1 tablet of low-dose (sometimes referred to as "baby aspirin")...so 81 mg/day. I'd go ahead and start now, and you'll be good to go. Problem solved, babe! Also, you'll need to stay away from caffeine, as that constricts your arteries, and you want the blood to keep on flowing freely!

Most miscarriages are not preventable, and were destined to occur for a reason beyond the control of the mother. I lost my baby, and I know I was doing everything right. What I know now that I didn't realize before my loss, is that pregnancy does not always result in a swaddled bundle after hours of pushing and laboring. Some pregnancies leave you feeling very robbed, and empty-handed.

My point being, I guess, is that we all must be brave. Some of us get pregnant, only to suffer a miscarriage...perhaps a late loss, or even a stillborn. Some of us may lose a child later down the road to an illness or tragedy. Pregnancy, like anything in life, holds no guarantees...motherhood is not for the faint of heart, I'm telling you!!!

A part of me is more afraid of losing another child, even more than the idea of not being able to conceive again. If I do ever get another bfp, I'll tell you that I'll be terrified. I won't feel easy about until I leave the hospital with my living baby in carrier. Hell, I won't feel GREAT until the baby is home with us.

Be brave, sweetie. You can and WILL do this...you're finally just starting to get this figured out! The ball is going to get rolling, and you need to stay strong for you and your future baby!!!

I called my OB/gyn office and left a message...waiting to hear back hopefully tomorrow.

 

[GdaneMom4now]

That was beautiful wookie

 

[GdaneMom4now]

Are you mother effing kidding me?! What a dumb bitch! It was all a joke. I want to go and punch her in the face

 

[kitty2385]

gdane

Love that poem, its great, thanks for sharing!

Im due for AF approx 26th december, depends how long my cycle decides to be this time!

 

[Mrs.B.]

I wish I could pick a date, but I would be just calling a random date LOL x

 

[AmeliasMum]

Am I allowed here? Here's a short Bio:

I am 33 DH is 35 (36 in a week) Been married 6 years.
We have 3 kiddos under 5 1/2 (I was pg with oldest DD when we married, shhhh, LOL)
TTC #4 with no known Fertility issues other than my LP being under 13 days.
This is a Clomid cycle days 3-7 100mgs-Baby Aspirin daily-Robitussin days 7-Ovulation
CBFM user for a long time, LOL
Live on our Farm in North Dakota and our Ranch in California. Right now we are on our Farm in ND for the Winter. Yeah, crazy I know.
I am on CD 18 with Peak being in 16 and 17. I haven't gone to bed yet, so I am not sure if my temp is up yet. Again, crazy hours here, LOL.

I don't want to intrude, LOL.

 

[GdaneMom4now]

Welcome amelia, I'm your neighbor to the south. You crazy for leaving california for our winters!

 

[wookie130]

Gdane...what an awful joke!!!!!!!!!!! I'd slug her in the mouth for that one! Cruel!!!!

Hey, amelia!!! Most of us are trying to conceive our first child on here...you may be the first person I've seen who already has children, you luck lady! Welcome to the CBFM madness...I hope baby #4 is baking in the oven soon!

AFM, waiting for AF to arrive. Temps are still up, and I'm on my 19th high on my monitor. I'm either 12 or 14 dpo, and getting BFN's. So, AF should be here between today and Saturday. Ugh, what a wierd month. Still waiting on OB/gyn office to contact me.

 

[GdaneMom4now]

apple blossom has a son too

 

[SLH]

Wookie, thank you for those kind words You have made me feel a lot better. Everyone here has. I can't be worried about something that hasn't happened yet and may not even happen. I am going to start taking a low dose aspirin to be on the safe side. It was hard learning that miscarriages are so common with thick blood because I just found out that I have another problem that causes early miscarriages. I have 2 problems that can cause miscarriages so I got very discouraged. At least I caught them before I got pregnant because both problems can be treated easily, or at least I hope.

Your chart looks good. I'm sorry about the BFN's. I hope they turn into BFP's! I never wait for people to call me back. I think you should call the dr until you get someone lol. I hope they will help you. Be persistent if you need to be. That's the only reason why I got into see a fertility specialist as fast as I did.

Gdane, that was a beautiful poem. Thanks for sharing.

Your cousin is an idiot! I'm sorry, but that's such an evil joke. Why would she joke about something like that. How old is she? She doesn't sound mature enough to even have kids lol.

Welcome Amelia. I hope #4 is a fast journey for you. Will this be your last one? I want a big family, but DH doesn't lol. Maybe he'll change his mind.

AF got me this morning at 10dpo! Normally I would cry, but I'm excited about starting Clomid on Sunday. This is my second luteal phase since I have been charting that is 9 days. It's normally 10, and once it was 11.

I'm going to call the fertility clinic shortly to book my ultrasound appointments. I need one on CD3 and then I'm going to start them daily on CD10. I basically have to do what I did last month.

 

[SLH]

PS I hate cramps.

 

[SLH]

Gdane, my for real testing date is December 25. I had a 25 day cycle this month and now it's December 1. My longest cycle has been 29 days and the average is 27, so unless I ovulate really late, my testing date will be then.

 

[Buckles]

Hi girls,

I have just had a very good catch up, as I am at work and the boss isnt in this afternoon, so I have no one looking at my PC. I dont want people at work knowing we are TTC, so whenever I post, I am on my iphone and I struggle to read everyone's stories etc, but I think I am now fully upto speed.

SLH - Dont you dare give up honey, you should read the baby making bible, I am half way through it and it has definately changed my attitude towards ttc, and it tells you how to turn negatives into positives etc. Very simple, but clever book! We are here for you.. so BIG xx

Gdane - I would have punched her in the face, how can someone joke about such a thing. BIG to you too!

Wookie - I hope AF doesnt show for you

Amelia - Hello and welcome!

Everyone else - hello and sending you lots of love!!

AFM, I am on day 2 of AF and have to say I am in absolute agony, really struggled to sleep last night as I couldnt get comfy, and when I eventually did fall asleep, I got woken up by AF pains. I have recently been getting them really bad, and only a hot water bottle will help.

Feeling quite positive for December, as I am still ditching by CBFM and going with the flow. My next testing date is the 28 December, so you never know, I may finish off the year on a high, if not, I am writing this year off and will be booking in to see my dr again.

Actually.. thinking about this, I had my 21 day ov test and OH had his swimmers checked and all came back ok, but since then we havent been back to the dr's, should we have done?

Enough of me twittering on (You can tell Im at work and not on my phone!)

Love and to you all
xxxx