I normally try to post in the morning but I figured I'd wait until after the high point of my day. So let me just start by saying when I woke up this morning I wasn't in a good mood. My mom and I got into it last night and I hate when we argue. She's one of those people who is never wrong even when it's staring her in the face, and still won't admit admit or apologize. I've accepted that about her, but it would be nice if I felt like she cared about me ttc or supported me when I need it. We all know this journey is rough and sometimes I would like to be able to talk to my mom about it which she shows no interest in. Because she never had to deal with this, she can't understand why I want to do research on ttc and have tests done, and yada yada yada. All she ever says is it will happen when it's time. Thank God for you ladies and the few people that know I'm ttc. Without all of you, I don't know where I'd be emotionally. Then when I woke up I tested and of course it was a bfn. So needless to say I was really down, and last night I cried a lot so on top of it my eyes were puffy.
Anyway, I laid in the bed pretty much all day and had my appt with the fs this afternoon and I feel so much better. I told her about the light ovulation like feelings I've been having this cycle and that my progesterone levels this cycle were 115.7, and she thought it was possible that I could be pregnant and I may have tested to early. Still holding out a little hope there but not much.
The good news is, we are still going to do the clomid but this next cycle she is going to test my fsh and tsh on cd3 to make sure those levels are good for conceiving, and and the day that I get + on the opk I will go in for an ultrasound to check to make sure my follicles are maturing and blood work to make sure my lh and some other hormone ( can't remember the name) are what they should be. Then she said starting with the next day we will have to bd for three days. This is like a test run to make sure everything with me is working well, which she's assuming it is. And as long as it goes well then the next cycle we will do the same only the day after I get the + we will do insimination!
I'm excited about that cycle because the sperm will be used, it's done the same day as O, and the sperm are injected right into the uterus to give them extra help to get the egg. Luckily we are not at the IVF stage yet, which I'm hoping we can stear away from, and it's much cheaper. The insurance will cover everything else but the insimination itself which is $295. So if we have to do more than one round, it's at least an affordable option.
I'm feeling so much better now that I feel like we are moving along and it gives me more hope that I will get my bfp soon! She said that overall I'm healthy and to keep trying to lose weight and to take two tums a day for more calcium but other than that I'm good.
I know that we made the right choice with this fs and I'm just so excited about going forward. I feel more at peace about the situation. I just wanted you ladies to be the first I shared my first fs experience with!
Hugs and kisses and lots of
to you all!
