Not sure if this is the right place to post this or not...

[cowboys angel]

So I have issues.

Tomorrow is the Fourth and I'm excited to take our girls to see the fireworks and stuff but I know I will be scared shitless!

Not of the fireworks though.

When I was 16 I was raped. Ever since then, I hate crowds. I get anxious and edgy...just going to the grocery store I cling to my OH's arm. I don't know if that's normal or if it's due to knowing the guy is still around here somewhere and not wanting to see him, or what.

It's been just over 3 years now. I need to get my life back together. I have a gorgeous SD and a beautiful LO and a wonderful OH. I need to be okay again. I've moved on, healed, and all that. But will I ever be able to go into a crowd without being scared again???

 

[RedString]

no advice really, but I know the road to a full recovery can be difficult. are you seeing a therapist or anything? they might be able to help you.

 

[cowboys angel]

No, I've had no luck finding a good one and I've given up. My OH is my therapist, truly. He's helped me a lot. I'm doing really good now. I just don't like crowds.

 

[RedString]

did they just never catch the guy who did it? Or did you not report him?
ignore my prying if it's too much, I'm sure eventually you'll be able to be in crowds again, but it might not be until you have the reassure that he's not out there, lurking in them.

I hope you have a good Fourth of July regardless.

 

[cowboys angel]

I didn't report him.

And it's okay, I don't mind you asking.